In the Shadows of My mind
I had a dream about you. It wasn't one of those dreams that Hinoto shows me, full of blood and death, when I feel the weight of your body slide the Shinken through my body then look into your eyes and see the image of my own. No, it was a dream of the you that I used to know. Or wanted to know. I was gone from Tokyo for so long that my memories of you are from the time before mother took me by the hand and said we had to leave. The happy time before...
I never forgot you, you know. I never forgot either of you. When I returned to Tokyo after six years I wanted to be with you. One of my deepest desires was to see you again. To be near you both. To hear you laugh the way you did when we were children. To be close to you.
It's strange isn't it? I am the Kamui. I'm the one who had the privilege of choosing what side I will fight on when the Final Day finally arrives. I have the power of god in my body. I should be able to have whatever I want. I should, but it doesn't work that way does it? We've all had to make sacrifices for this. I understand that, so why does it hurt so much?
My dream was so peaceful Fuuma. The sun was shining softly on a field of tall grass that extended towards the horizon. The air was pure and sweet. It was beautiful and quiet, but I was lonely. I've been isolated for so long. I don't like being alone. The moment I realized you were there was perfect. I would have enclosed that moment in eternity if I was able. To keep that moment alive forever so that I would always have that perfection with me. I know it cannot be. There is no peace for us.
Why Fuuma? Why? Why were we chosen for this? Why did we have to suffer so much? Why was I born a bastard? Why did mother and I have to spend my childhood running from nameless danger? Why did Destiny demand that a Shinken be born from a woman's body at Togakushi Jinja six years ago?
Your family sacrificed so much for this. Your mother gave her life to save my mother. Your father was murdered protecting the Shinken. Kotori
sacrificed herself to save my life and you...you became the Kamui of the Chi no Ryu and gave up your life to Destiny's cruel hand.
Do you remember the promise we made when we were children Fuuma? Kodomo no yubikiri. I promised you that I would never make Kotori cry and you promised that if I never did you would protect me. Well I broke that promise the first day I saw her again. I saw the tears fall and knew that you had no reason to protect me anymore. You had no reason to, I didn't want you or Kotori involved so I pushed her away to keep you from being hurt. I tried so hard to stay away, but after that first fight with Daisuke, when you found me bleeding on the street that night, I realized just how deeply my feelings for you echoed inside of me. I hurt her Fuuma. You had no reason to do anything for me. I told you to stay away, to leave me alone, to forget you ever saw me. When you yelled my name, anger written all over your features I realized I would never be able to distance myself from you. I would never be able to because I...Fuuma I...
I'm falling into you, as you are falling into me. I can't deny that we are connected anymore. All you have to do is look at me and I'm falling into the depths of your eyes, losing myself, losing my mind. My heart is breaking, my mind is cracking. I love you, and it's driving me insane.
owari
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Kodomo no yubikiri means the pinky swear of a child.
Aiyah! That wasn't so bad was it? Please review! Please! I want to know what you think!
I had a dream about you. It wasn't one of those dreams that Hinoto shows me, full of blood and death, when I feel the weight of your body slide the Shinken through my body then look into your eyes and see the image of my own. No, it was a dream of the you that I used to know. Or wanted to know. I was gone from Tokyo for so long that my memories of you are from the time before mother took me by the hand and said we had to leave. The happy time before...
I never forgot you, you know. I never forgot either of you. When I returned to Tokyo after six years I wanted to be with you. One of my deepest desires was to see you again. To be near you both. To hear you laugh the way you did when we were children. To be close to you.
It's strange isn't it? I am the Kamui. I'm the one who had the privilege of choosing what side I will fight on when the Final Day finally arrives. I have the power of god in my body. I should be able to have whatever I want. I should, but it doesn't work that way does it? We've all had to make sacrifices for this. I understand that, so why does it hurt so much?
My dream was so peaceful Fuuma. The sun was shining softly on a field of tall grass that extended towards the horizon. The air was pure and sweet. It was beautiful and quiet, but I was lonely. I've been isolated for so long. I don't like being alone. The moment I realized you were there was perfect. I would have enclosed that moment in eternity if I was able. To keep that moment alive forever so that I would always have that perfection with me. I know it cannot be. There is no peace for us.
Why Fuuma? Why? Why were we chosen for this? Why did we have to suffer so much? Why was I born a bastard? Why did mother and I have to spend my childhood running from nameless danger? Why did Destiny demand that a Shinken be born from a woman's body at Togakushi Jinja six years ago?
Your family sacrificed so much for this. Your mother gave her life to save my mother. Your father was murdered protecting the Shinken. Kotori
sacrificed herself to save my life and you...you became the Kamui of the Chi no Ryu and gave up your life to Destiny's cruel hand.
Do you remember the promise we made when we were children Fuuma? Kodomo no yubikiri. I promised you that I would never make Kotori cry and you promised that if I never did you would protect me. Well I broke that promise the first day I saw her again. I saw the tears fall and knew that you had no reason to protect me anymore. You had no reason to, I didn't want you or Kotori involved so I pushed her away to keep you from being hurt. I tried so hard to stay away, but after that first fight with Daisuke, when you found me bleeding on the street that night, I realized just how deeply my feelings for you echoed inside of me. I hurt her Fuuma. You had no reason to do anything for me. I told you to stay away, to leave me alone, to forget you ever saw me. When you yelled my name, anger written all over your features I realized I would never be able to distance myself from you. I would never be able to because I...Fuuma I...
I'm falling into you, as you are falling into me. I can't deny that we are connected anymore. All you have to do is look at me and I'm falling into the depths of your eyes, losing myself, losing my mind. My heart is breaking, my mind is cracking. I love you, and it's driving me insane.
owari
...
Kodomo no yubikiri means the pinky swear of a child.
Aiyah! That wasn't so bad was it? Please review! Please! I want to know what you think!