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Summer of 1957. Denali, Alska.

Tanya's POV

I was bouncing up and down with joy. Edward had finally given me a chance to have sex. I had no idea how to do this with Edward, normally when I would have sex the person would have an idea of what he wanted. Edward has never had sex before and I was shocked to hear this. I knew that Alice had seen this and most likely would give me pointers, if not well I'm winging it tonight. Maybe after he sees what I can do he will fall in love with me! Now that was a dream come true.

I walked in and Alice grabbed my wrist and dragged me up the stairs. The moment that she slammed the door shut she looked at me and she was mad.

"Tanya..." She trailed off. "You know that I love you, but do you honestly think that this is the best idea?" Her topaz eyes were earnest, wile mine went wide.

"Yes, Alice. I do. Why do you ask?" I was wondering why she was wondering such things. She had Jasper and, they loved each other. Didn't they?

"Well,"She took a deep breathe and looked at me strait in the eye. "We all know that Edward is going to find some one that he loves right?" She raised her delicate eye brows and I nodded in agreement. "Do you think that if she asks if he's ever had sex with another girl and he says 'yes' that she will take that calmly? Because I know that I wouldn't and niether would Esme or Rosalie. Think about you. When you fall in love and he asks you if you have ever had sex and you say yes he will want to hunt Edward downand shoot him like a dog. Same with the future girl of Edward's. You don't want that."

"I am that future girl, Alice." I growled. She shook her head.

"No, you're not. Tanya I've seen it. Edward thinks that maybe having sex with you will help him with the whole 'I-need-to-fall-in-love-soon-thingie' and I don't like it. He needs to find someone on his own and having sex doesn't help." She placed a hand on my shoulder and I shook it off.

"Your wrong and I am going to prove it!" I hissed and then stomped out the door.

Edward loved me and he was realy goiing to after I show him what love is like when you can share it with somebody else. No matter what ever Cullen said to me I would procied with my plans to night and wether they liked it or not Edward was going to love me one way or another.

I was now ready to have Edward see my full naked body. I asked when and he said that he would feel better if I was waiting in the bed all ready to go and he would come in around ten. I nodded and then began to get the room ready. I put white candles on every surface and lit them all up. I dimmed the lights at 9:55 and quickly undressed.

The jeans and shirt that I was wearing was easy to get off. I ran to the closet and threw them inot the clothed hamper and ran to the bed and I got under the red silk covers. I wanted him to take my bra and underwear off himself so, yeah, those stayed on. Right at temm o'clock I heard him take a deep breath out side my door and I stifled a giggle. He knocked on my door. I thought that my body had burst into flames and I quickly checked and no, it hadn't. Good!

"Come in." I murmered knowing that he could hear me.

Edward opened the door and walked in. He saw the candles and the dimmed lights. His eyes grazed over to the bed where I was waiting and the eyes went as wide as they could get. He walked forward and stood on the other side of the bed.

"Tanya..." He whispered and he trailed off. I took that as a good sign and that he was beyond words to speak. I let on of my giggles slip out and I patted the spot next to me. He seemed hesitant. "Do you want me to...?" He trailed off again but this time to see what I wanted him to do.

I smiled and let out a small giggle. "You can take off your shirt and pants and then get in bed with me." I purred and I prayed that it turned him on.

Edward lifted his arms and took his flannel shirt off and threw it into the far corner of the room. Her undid his belt and pulled his jeans down to his ankles revealing a pair of blue boxers. Funny, I never thought of Edward as a boxer type of guy.(AN:// Neither did I. But if I gave it thought I can see it....Swoon...) He stepped out of his jeans and pulled the untouched bed covers back and got into the bed with out a word. He laided flat on his back with his hands folded on top of his chest, his thumbs under the red sheet.

He breathed in and out evenly and I began to wonder what he wanted. He never spoke and niether did I for that matter. Did he want me to make the first move or was he deliberating on what he should do. After half an hour with just sitting there I decided that it was time that I talked.

"So..." I trailed off not sure on how to start talking. i looked at the side of his face and he turned his head to look at me.

"Tanya, you're beautiful," I smiled at the compliment, "But, I have to say that I'm sorry. I can't do this." His eyes were sorry and I wanted to believe them.

I pursed my lips. "Alice got to you, too?" I asked.

"No, I have just been thinking. Alice was going over your talk in her head by the time that I walked in the door, and I relized that...she's right. My girl might not be out there right now, but she'll come around. Just like Alice did with Jasper. He was around for awile before she came along and the same thing with Carlisle and Esme." He gave himself a small smile. "I'll let you know if I don't find her." He promised. "But, for now, I'm sorry. Sorry that I got your hoped up and then brought them back down." He was always the gentleman. "But I promise that if I don't find my girl in a few more decades I'll let you know."

You know that I'm going to hold you to that right? I asked in my mind and Edward nodded. I sighed and looked at him. Do you think that your ever going to find the right girl, or just wake up one dau and see that it's me? I asked.

"I don't know if I'll ever find her buu, Tanya your beautiful, just not the type for me." He stated matter-of-factly.

Is it the hair? He laughed.

"No. Tanya you are who you are...it's just that, not right now. I want to look for her a bit longer. And when she comes I want to tell her the truth how I have never had sex and that I was looking forward to it wiht her.." He paused and smiled. "Or as Emmett says him. Thinking that there is no girl but a man. " He laughed again and looked at me. "I'm so sorry." He said again.

I sighed and got out of tyhe bed and walked into my bathroom. He would wake up one day and see that it's me he wants to have sex with and only me. I am going to be sure of that.

Look out girly, who ever you might be, Edward Cullen is mine!

I have no idea how I made those huge letters! I hope that you like it! I might make an epolouge. Review and tell me what you think!