Some things never occurred to me.

Immortality, it makes you feel like you know everything, that you miss nothing. Because everything is so clear, so easy to understand, it is more than easy to fall into the routine of ignorance.

Maybe this was an overreaction, but it didn't seem like one. Oh, being unsure about these kind of things was unsettling.

The first time I saw Edward I knew. It felt so right, so perfect! Even at the beginning of my immortal life, when I thought that I wouldn't feel those emotions until the newborn phase had passed, my love for him was as strong as my thirst. So why was I questioning this now?

It came from nowhere, this irresistible force; it hit me so hard that even as my now graceful self, I found it madly difficult to stay standing.

I'd finally settled down, completely comfortable in this new life, so certain in my everyday routine and outright absolute on my future with Edward and Renesmee. So why did this happen now?

Was it because I had finally settled down? Because everything was so frantic and new before, that I didn't have time to notice this insanity?

But I was so certain on this feeling now, it was so strong, so amazingly overpowering…

I was in love with my sister in law.

I was in love with Alice Cullen.

But there was nothing I could do about it, and it would forever stay that way.

There was no way I would ruin what I had, my beautiful family, it would tear everything apart.

Not to mention how heartbreaking it would be, to see Alice and Jasper apart.

… Not that I believe that Alice returns these feelings. But if that were to happen…

"Bella, love?" Edward had worried himself sick the last few days. "Are you alright?"

Every spare moment we had together, I would let him into my thoughts and explore my mind. It was one of the most intimate times of the day, to let myself go to think whatever I wanted to think, and to let Edward hear everything he was wondering about. But lately, ever since my unusual discovery, I couldn't let him in. I could never let my guard down anymore, because these thoughts about Alice were so constant, and so passionate… It would kill him.

"Bella, answer me please" Edward put his warm hands to my face, I could hear every hint of panic in his faultless voice.

I looked into his concerned eyes and smiled "I'm fine Edward, just thinking"

He frowned, it looked adorable and it only made me smile more.

"Really, I am fine! Thinking doesn't hurt people" I pulled away from his hands and walked over to the door "We should go now, Jake should be home with Renesmee any second now"

He grabbed my hand and pulled me back into him, resting his head against my neck. His breath travelled around my skin as he sighed, "Show me what you're thinking… Please?"

It was almost impossible to resist Edward, but I couldn't slip up, no matter how irresistible he planned on being.

"Edward we have to go..." I pulled away from him quickly, and disappeared out the door.

It didn't take me long until I was walking into the house, I could hear Renesmee laughing, it was the most beautiful sound. She jumped into my arms instantly when I got inside, I nestled up into her, immersing myself in her scent. Jacob was sprawled out on the floor, his huge grin and wide eyes were glued on Renesmee. "Nessie, you arn't giving up that easily are you?" As she jumped out of my arms, Alice danced into the room, and I almost jumped through the roof.

"Well someone's a little tense tonight" Her voice sang, it echoed through my entire body leaving me speechless.

Obviously not happy with my response, or rather my lack of one, she spun me around and stared at me as she slipped into the future.

"Well are you going to ignore me all night?"

"You tell me?" I grinned.

"I would, but I can't, you're rather indecisive tonight Bella"

I was? I thought tonight was normal? Unless something was going to happen… She wouldn't know that i… No… Would she?

Her face twisted with confusion "Uh… Bella?"

"Yeah Alice?"

Her mouth dropped, and she flew away up the stairs as Edward walked in.

Fantastic. She knew. Edward would know. Everyone would know.

You couldn't be any less obvious could you, Bella? You couldn't just be happy with what you had?

I heard my name being called upstairs, followed by an extravagant threat towards Edward, restricting him from the house.

Edward shook his head as he walked outside, whilst I tried to move as fast as I could up the stairs to Alice. Her scent was overpowering, i struggled to keep my balance as i stood in her doorway.

"This is crazy Bella…" Alice paced back and forth, that would seem like a blur to any human.

I just stood there patiently, I deserved everything she said, I deserved to be yelled at and kicked out.

"This is crazy! What about Edward? Nessie? What about Jasper???" She continued to spin, pace and wave her hands around.

"You're married Bella! Are you insane?" She shook her hands "Don't answer that"

She stopped suddenly and stared at me, I was to afraid to look away, but I was more worried that if I continued to stare back into her eyes I was going to lose my balance again.

Seconds turned to minutes, Minutes that seemed like years.

Suddenly she took place in a movement so swift, so full of grace, that I hardly believed it was a movement at all. Rather a dream, a really good, good dream.

The movement ended up right in front of me; I figured that she was going to say something that needed to be said, why else would she come so close? Even though I knew I deserved to be yelled at, I was still scared.

In seconds, her lips crushed against mine.