It has been a long time now since we had it good, a long time since that dark day where it all went wrong. I was angry, upset, and i said things that I didn't mean. But I hurt you in ways I can never fix. And I lost you. But you were always there, in the background, at least.. Until recently..

You know, I lay awake every night in my bed and just.. Thought about you. All the good times that we had, the times I made you laugh and smile. Ah, that beautiful smile.. Thinking of things like the time we spent the day just messing around, playing games in the forest when we were about ten years old. That always makes me smile.

But the smiles are now gone and all that is left are pain and tears. Such horrible, horrible pain that feels like somebody is tearing my heart apart within my chest. I have never felt such pain as this.. It was only a few weeks ago that I lost you completely. Now I will never see you again. I will never feel your hand in mine, your soft lips on my cheek. I will never hear your delightful laugh nor your heavenly voice again. I can only gaze at old photographs and think.. Dream..

I simply cannot believe that you are truly gone. It isn't fair. I won't hide it, I blame myself. What if I had never said such things? What if we had remained friends? What it, what if, what if? People say that you shouldn't dwell on the 'what if's', but I can't help it. They are all I can ever think of. I don't want to admit that you are gone, even though I have seen where you now rest. It broke my heart.

I just knelt before the cold, grey headstone and cried until I could cry no more. I didn't even care that you had married him.. I just wanted you back. If only I could see your beautiful face one last time. But these are the wishes of a grieving man, that can never be fulfilled. So, I must say goodbye.

Goodbye my darling Lily. through everything, I have always loved you. I still do and always will.. With all of my heart. I am eternally your Sev..

This was inspired by my recent break up and my recent roleplays with Allie. Love you loads, girl :)

I hope you enjoyed it,

Doggie