OK so...i just wanted to write a story of what would happen if Ichigo actually did go insane!
So...yeah tell me what you think! XD
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Bleach...obviously!
I'm sitting in a room
Made up of only big white walls
And in the halls
There are people looking through
The window in the door
They know exactly what we're here for
Don't look up just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be
~Paramore, Fences
Ichigo lay on his bed, staring up at his white celeing.
Everything was white. The walls, the bed, the doors, his clothes, everything.
They locked him up here after what happend on...that day.
He didn't like to think of that day, but every damn minute of the damn day his mind always wondered there.
He was trying so hard not to think about it, slowley he got out of bed and walked to his bathroom, just for something to do.
The bathroom wasn't that big. A sink, a toliet, a shower. No counter tops and no mirrors.
They had actually taken down what was left of the first mirror after he'd punched it and used the shards to try an kill himself.
He sighed sadley as he remebered why he tried to kill himself if the first place...
*Flash back*
He knew it was getting worse, knew that he was getting stronger...again.
Whenever he changed into a shinigami his hollow would try an take control. For awhile Ichigo had it under control...but than things started getting worse.
He was starting to panick by than. His hollow had started talking to him in the middle of the night. More than once Ichigo had found himself in his sisters room, arm outstretched fully prepared in a choking postion.
He had been so disguisted by himself, he couldn't look either of them in the eye for weeks.
That was he decided he wanted, no needed, help.
Its hard to find help, however, when the only people who might understand has disappeard off the face of the Earth.
So he went to Rukia, she'd helped him before hadn't she?
"Erm...Rukia there's something I need to...tell you." He'd told her after school one day.
"What is it Ichigo?"
Ichigo paused unsure of what to say, "..."
Rukia had already guessed what the problem was, but she wanted him to say it first.
He didn't.
Rukia sighed, "It's your hollow again isn't it?" She asked bluntley.
Ichigo had looked up at her in suprise, "How did you...?"
"Well it's not like you're trying to hide it!" Rukia scoffed.
Ichigo growled at her, "What's that supposed to mean?"
Rukia just smirked and looked away.
Just as quickly as she did that though, she looked back at him, "Just do what you did last time. You'll be fine Ichigo, I just know it!"
For a minute Ichigo had forgotten about the darkness that was lurking in his soul.
He wasn't going to tell her that he couldn't just do that. Wasn't going to tell her that he needed to be supervisoed, or that he had already tried.
But every time he went to his inner world, the hollow would be hiding from veiw.
"Yeah, I suppose you're right Rukia." was what he said instead.
*Flash back, pause*
Ichigo had found his way back to his bed. He just lay there his back facing the door, tracing his finger over imaginery lines on the wall.
The memories hurt, but he couldn't stop them from flooding his mind.
She thought he could do the impossible, everyone thought he could do the impossible. He was, after all, Ichigo Kurosaki. Defeater of Aizen, first human visored, survied a battle with Zaraki Kenpachi! So defeating a mere hollow version of himself was no biggie.
Or so they thought...
*Back To Flash Back*
He'd gone to bed early that night, with no intention on sleeping.
He hadn't slept in a few days, not since he'd found himself about to choke his sisters.
His younger sisters that actually looked up to him.
But somehow sleep had gotten to him.
In his dream he was bloodthristy and cruel.
He walked to his sisters room, standing in the door for a moment watching their sleeping bodies.
To on lookers it might look like a concerend brother watching over his sisters, but to Ichigo it was wondering who should go first.
Sensative Yuzu? Or Tomboy Karien?
He licked his lips as he made his decision.
He walked over to little Yuzu's bed.
Reaching out his arm, his fingers wrapped around the girls throat.
Instantley she woke up and let out a scream, not yet realizing that it was Ichigo who's hand was about to crush her throat.
"KARIEN!" She yelled, and Ichigo grinned evily.
Karien shot up in her bed at the sound of her twins scream.
Her eyes widened as she saw who the ineruder was, "Ichi...go?"
Ichigo turned towards her, his hand still around Yuzu.
Karien gasped at him, he had considerably paler skin and his eyes seemed to be turning a shade of yellow.
Ichigo smirked at her, "Little girls should be seen, not herd." He said and queezed Yuzu's neck.
Instantley tears streamed down Yuzu's face, and she began to gasp for air.
"Let her go!" Karien ordered quickly.
Ichigo, still smiling at her, and said "Your words, not mine."
Picking Yuzu up with the hand that was choking her, he lifted her off the bed and threw her against the wall.
"You monster!" Karien screamed, jumping out of bed.
Ichigo grinned malicously and slowley aproached her.
Karien stepped back insync with every step he took forward.
She gasped lightly as her back hit the wall.
Ichigo laughed at her shaking body, "You have know idea."
He said grabbing her arms, his nails digging into her skin.
She hissed in pain as blood dribbled down her arm.
"Ichigo...why?" She asked tears starting to form in her own eyes.
Ichigo didn't answer, instead he hit her across the face. Sending her flying across the room, landing next to her sister.
Shaking from head to toe she stood up, "Yuzu! Yuzu, get up!" She screamed franticaly.
Yuzu groaned and lifted up her head, "K-karien...?"
"Yuzu get UP!" Karien screamed trying helping Yuzu to her feet.
Yuzu looked up and screamed.
Karien turned around, Ichigo was standing directly behind her.
He grinned down at her.
"Yuzu, run!" Karien screamed. Yuzu got up and ran, stumbling somewhat as she did so.
She never made it to the door, Ichigo using inhuman speed to get there before her. He closed and locked the door.
"Now, now. Where's the fun in that?" He asked them.
"You're sick!" Karien yelled.
"Now Karien, is that anyway to speak to your brother?"
Yuzu stood between them, petrified with fear.
The only thought on her mind was 'this can't be Ichigo!'
Ichigo reached out and grabbed her, "Come on you guys, let's have some fun!" He said and forced his hand threw Yuzu's chest, her blood spraying everywhere.
Ichigo could hear Karien screaming in the backroumd.
Yuzu looked up at him, the life slowley draining from her eyes, but he could see what she thought of him...a monster. He could see the fear in her eyes.
Ichigo smiled as he slowley rejected his hand from her body.
She coughed out some blood before taking a shaking hand and placing it to the hole in her chest and falling to the ground.
Her eyes were now empty of all emotions.
Ichigo kicked her corpse aside, now starting on Karien.
"St-stop!" She yelled looking for a way to escape.
There was none. She was going to die right here, at the hands of her bother...just like Yuzu.
Tears suddenly ran down her face, the full extent of the situation finally catching up with her.
Ichigo had just killed Yuzu. Ichigo. The guy who became a shinigami just to pretect them!
This wasn't supposed to happen!
And than there was Yuzu, dead on the floor. Her blood all over Ichigo.
Ichigo laughed as a sob escaped her mouth.
Fear clouded her eyes as Ichigo reached out his hand.
Karien closed her eyes, praying that he would make it quick and painless.
"Ichigo stop!" Commanded an athoritive female voice. Karien opened one eye and saw Rukia standing in the door way, wearing her shinigami uniform.
Ichigo smiled at her, "Look who decided to join the party."
Rukia looked at him with pity, "You don't want to do this Ichigo."
Ichigo just grinned wider, "How do you know Rukia? How do you know what I want?"
Rukia took a stepped forward, and Karien thought that she was going to be saved.
Saved from her brother.
But what happend next was so quick that nobody could've seen it coming.
Ichigo still smirking at Rukia, forced his hand threw Kariens throat.
"Sorry, my hand slipped."
He said tossing Karien off his hand and onto the floor.
You could just see that she was in imense pain.
She made gurgling noises as she desperatley tried to breathe.
Ichigo than andvanced on Rukia.
"If I have to I will fight you, Ichigo." She said, taking out her zanpakuto.
Ichigo chuckled at her, but continued walking.
Now just mere inches away, Rukia did nothing to stop Ichigo.
He bent his head down, now face to face with Rukia.
"What's the matter, Rukia? You looked kinda scared."
Rukia's lip quivered, "W-we can help you, Ichigo."
Ichigo laughed at her, "There's no helping me now."
He grabbed her by the arm and smashed her into the wall, making her drop her zanpakuto.
She looked up at him, fear was the only thing he saw in her eyes. And he liked it.
He grabbed her again and continued slamming her into the wall.
His grip getting stronger and stronger.
Blood dribbled down the back of her head and down the wall.
She made small gaspes each time she was collieded with the wall.
Ichigo kept going harder and harder each time. He was getting upset with the lack of emotion.
Finally he just threw her across the room, "Oh come on! Is this really the best you can do?" He growled angrily.
Rukia lifted herself up, putting all her wait on one arm.
"Ichigo...please...stop." She begged.
Ichigo walked over to her and pounded her back with his fist.
You could hear a sickening crack from her bones breaking.
He did it again and again. Finally just kicking her in the ribs, rolling her over.
Her eyes began to close, as she was slowley loosing conciesness.
*Flash back End*
Ichigo clentched his hand into a fist.
They'd been wrong! He was not going to be fine, just look around! Here's the proof that he was not fine!
He had killed his sisters! And had almost killed Rukia!
Maybe he just should've, hadn't she laughed in his face after he confined in her her his problem?
In a furious rage he began hitting the wall.
Wrong. Wrong. WrongwrongwrongwrongWRONG!
He never was the same after that.
He remebered waking up the next morning with his sisters blood still on his hands. He could still hear their terrified screams.
The look they gave him, calling him a monster.
They'd been right. He is a monster.
He continued punching the wall. I'll show them just how much of a monster I am.
He thought as his knuckles began to bleed.
Ya Im just going to stop right there. So tell me what you think!
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