A/N: The first chapter is willingly short, the following ones will be longer.
English is not my native language, I apologize for any mistake.
I hope you will enjoy this story.
Chapter 1 :
Kurt knew it was time. He had been thinking a lot about it for the last few months and the last week's events had proven him right. He had been told by his parents his whole life to be proud of what of what he was and he had been. He still was by the way. But he was so very much alone thinking there was pride in being the way he was in this town. Lately, even his father had betrayed what he had always been saying. It had hurt Kurt so badly. The worst in all this was that his dad was kind of right in what he was saying. That's what made Kurt make up his mind.
There was no way anything would change as time passed by. He thought of his dad, how sad he would be. Thought about Mercedes and how disappointed she would be, she was always praising his strength and now he was just giving in. He thought about Finn and knew that his future step-brother would be ashamed of being happy of what had happened. He thought about the rest of the glee club, they would probably sing a song for him. He would just not be there for hearing it. He finally thought about his mother, she had known he was the way he was since he was three and had always been proud of him. Always told him to stay proud because he was wonderful and perfect. Maybe if she was still there Kurt wouldn't do that. But she was no longer there, she was gone a long time ago and with her the bravery that Kurt needed not to give in so easily.
He had always been so lonely for his whole life. Sure he had had friends. Girl friends for the most part, but it was not enough to give him strength. He would have needed someone to hold his hand when he was sad, a shoulder to lean on when he was about to give up. Someone to tell him that he was perfect and wonderful. Someone like every person his age had had at least once.
There had never been no one for him. He had never caught someone looking at him in an interested way. There was never anyone to try to touch him every now and then just to let him know he was attractive. No one to tell him things he could interpret in different meanings. He had always known his life wouldn't be as easy as other people of his age. That was unfair but he had accepted it until now. But it was too much and he could not handle it any longer.
So he had made his mind and nothing could stop him from doing so. He knew it was going to hurt a lot of people. Wait, who was he kidding ? It would only hurt a few people of his family and what ? Fifteen people at school. It would not even hurt that much people. It was the perfect plan. Kurt went out of the bathroom, kissed his father goodnight for the last time and headed to his bedroom.