It's been a year since HE died. I still haven't gotten over it. I mean, like, how can a person get over the dead person who was the one and only love of someone's life? I still don't know. My only friends are Kaytlin (who's too busy in her life), Isaac (who's blind), and my mum. Only Isaac can understand though. Not properly, but still.I didn't think that I could ever get over Augustus' death. But that's when it happened. I know that it was horrible for anyone close to me, but it still happened.
On the morning nearing my eighteenth birthday, I woke to an unpleasant start. What started as a dull throbbing pain in my head, quickly grew to be a cosmic supernova in my brain. I screamed and yelled for it to stop. All I remember is my mum running into my room while a cloud of blackness descended on me.
When I woke up, I wasn't in my room. I could tell by the quiet beeping, the sterile conditions and the nurse standing by my ( well THEIR) bed. I was at the hospital. Again. The last time something like this happened was before the trip to Amsterdam.
After the nurse left (she was beginning to get annoying), close friends and family were allowed to enter. The parents were the first. Of course they were. They always were. I looked a them, wondering what they had to say. Judging by their faces, it was nothing good. Little did I know what they had to say to me then.
After a good fifteen minutes of catching up (and the normal 'YOU REALLY SHOULDN'T DISAPPEAR ON US LIKE THAT'), I started to get annoyed about not knowing what they had to say to me I just snapped at them to tell me.
"Oh Hazel honey, we didn't want to tell you 'til later," my mum started, her lips starting to wobble. "It's just that the Phalanxifor stopped working and now your tumors are growing again."
My mum might not have said it but we all knew what that meant. I was dying. The shitty ending to everyone who has a terminal illness. I knew that this was going to happen. I'd been expecting it for a long time. Just, I didn't expect it to be so soon.
"The doctors aren't sure about what's gonna happen after this, but they're just bullshtting course they know what's gonna happen, they just don't wanna say it. As in whether the tumors are gonna continue growing or if they've stopped completely, as an long lasting effect of the Phalanxifor," my dad says. I can tell he's trying not to cry.
My parents left after about an hour. After that, Isaac and Kaytlin came to visit. Did I mention that they're dating now. It happened after a month after the funeral, Isaac finally got over Monica and Kaytlin was looking for new meat so now she's in a happy committed relationship with Isaac. One thing good about Kaytlin, she doesn't bullshit you, and that's why she's my friend. After five minutes of joking around Isaac finally asked me the question. " Okay, cut the crap and tell us TRUTHFULLY, what did the doctor say?"
I told them everything, and that I was going to die. Both of them took the news better than I expected them to. But I expected them to go home and do whatever their hidden reaction was to the news. It must have been particularly hard on Isaac, he's already lost Gus, now he's losing me too. Kaytlin will keep him in check though, no doubt there.
Two weeks later, I could feel water filling my lungs up. This was it, but now I was too scared. I screamed for my nurse. They came, running. I
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How it should NOT have ended cuz of too many feels. But here you are! This is After 2...