Over My Head
This started out as just a random, future, what have you story about Alex being fed up; this is what it ended up becoming. I realize that some of the fact and or information I've used is incorrect, but this is what I was able to pull from google. Thoughts/reviews would be great.
Chapter One
The room was still, the brunette watched from the bed as the only other person in the room stormed the empty hallway and towards the front door. The only sound came from the blonde's footsteps, though they were light, they had the ability to echo in the quiet condominium.
"Don't do this," she called out, her voice barely above a whisper.
"Do what?" The blonde questioned from her position in front of the door. Her hand was on the door knob; with just a turn of her wrist she would be gone.
"Leave" Alex felt Marissa's hot breath on the back of her neck, causing the hair to rise. She hadn't heard the brunettes footsteps trace the path of hers. Marissa tentatively placed her hand over Alex's, and slide her other hand onto Alex's hip. "I don't want you to go," Marissa's lips were only a few inches away from Alex's ear.
"I can't be here right now" Alex said, her tone even. She had to remain in control of her feelings, despite Marissa's ability to drive her crazy.
"Why not?" The question was followed with a pout, Alex could see the reflection of it in the glass.
"Because I need to get out of here."
"You always do this" Marissa answered, the frustration evident in her voice.
"And you always do that" Alex replied, not hiding her own frustrations and annoyance. She whipped around causing Marissa to take a few steps back as well as release her hold.
"I'm not the one that leaves every time we get into an argument."
"Yeah well I'm not the one who starts them, and we both know that if I didn't leave to let you cool down-rather think about how stupid the fucking things are we'd get nowhere." The blonde countered, her hands instantly rooting to her hips.
"You know what Alex? Leave. That's all you ever do."
"Do you even understand why I walk away?" Her eyes narrowed at the girl that stood before her.
"Fuck Marissa, I understand where the insecurities came from when you were 17 and we were together, but we're adults now. We're fucking 26 years old. We have jobs, we have a life together and we're a family. You can't keep acting like this."
"You're right Alex, we're adults and we have a life together now. So when are you going to learn to stop walking away? To face everything head on?" Marissa's voice had taken on a condescending tone.
"I'd stop leaving when you stop being such a fucking drama queen. How long have we been together?" Alex didn't let Marissa attempt to respond, "For fucking years. I love you and I'm not going anywhere why can't you see that?" The blonde sighed, her entire body tired from the arguing, tired from the effort of it all.
The silence that followed was deafening. Neither spoke, Marissa's lips were pursed together as if she were biting her tongue.
"How are we going to do this?" Alex questioned, turning back around and leaning her head on the front door. Marissa's eyes flickered to the dimly lit room that lay off to the side of the hallway.
The little boy had been sleeping for a few hours, and both women knew that at any given moment he would wake up screaming from another nightmare. This had been the routine for the past six months. Alex heard a whimper come from his bedroom, and began to count to ten in her head. Just as she reached 10, she heard the screaming start, "Right on the dot", Alex mumbled with a deep sigh. She brushed past Marissa, heading straight towards the noise.
She didn't pause in the doorway; merely made a beeline to the bed, where the little boy lay thrashing about. Alex swept him up in her arms in one fluid movement, rocking him back and forth. Marissa had wordlessly trailed behind the blonde, and upon reaching the room she stood leaning against the door frame. Alex oblivious to everything but the little person in her grasp began to sing quietly, calming the boy's movements. The brunette crossed her arms and watched for a few minutes, wondering how things would have unfolded if Alex had left.
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"I didn't think it was true, but here you two are in the flesh." Alex said getting up from her chair and walking towards her friend as she entered the office. "This must be Cooper?" Alex questioned, her attention shifting to the little sandy haired boy on her friend's hip.
"CK for short."
"CK?" Alex wondered aloud, closing her office door so the two old friends could have some privacy, "Like for Kelly? Like my last name Kelly?"
"Yeah" Jodie mumbled after a beat of silence. Alex's eyes doubled in size, "I asked you if that was okay."
"That was two years ago, I thought you were joking! Jesus Jodie, I-", Alex paused midsentence, "What's this about? Why are you here?"
"Alex, please hear me out." Jodie was on the brink of tears.
The two stood looking at each other, neither making a move towards the other. The little boy fast asleep in Jodie's arms. It was then that Alex noticed the duffel bag that was slung over Jodie's shoulder.
"Please don't tell me that you are here to give him to me." Jodie took a tentative step towards Alex and handed the boy over quietly, once he was in Alex's arms he seemed to snuggle up to her immediately. Jodie set the bag down and pulled a rolled packet of paper out from her back pocket.
"I can't give him what he needs Alex."
"Jodie…"
"You can, look at you. You have a life, a future. I have nothing."
"I-do I even get a say in this?" Alex asked, perplexed.
"You can give him stability, he's young enough that he'll see you as his mom."
"Jodie, what about his dad?" Alex couldn't wrap her head around the situation, it was all too surreal.
"I didn't list anyone on the birth certificate. Look, I've already signed the termination of parental rights, I just need you to sign these," Jodie flipped a few pages out of the way and placed them on the desk, "basically saying that you'll adopt him, you'll be his guardian."
"Jodie, please just do you even hear yourself?"
"Alex," the desperation was clear in Jodie's voice, "I'm in a bad place."
"Do you need money? I can loan you money. This doesn't have to be-"
"No," Jodie shook her head, "it's not just money, I've…" the Latina's voice trailed off.
"You're using again aren't you?"
Instead of answering, Jodie simply pushed the papers towards Alex. The blonde didn't know what compelled her to sign the papers, but once she set the pen down, Jodie fished the papers up quickly.
"Thank you Alex." Jodie said quietly before walking away. There were only three things that seemed to reverberate through Alex's mind in that moment, first the fact that she was now a parent, second what she would tell Marissa when she showed up with Cooper, and third how it was ironic that the little boy's name was Cooper Kelly.
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Marissa entered the room quietly when she noticed the little boy's eyes had closed, she held her arms out to Alex and took the sleeping boy from her. Once she had a secure hold on the little boy, she took Alex's hand and led her to their bedroom. Wordlessly, Alex pulled the sheet and comforter back, letting Marissa set the little boy down. When he was tucked into their bed, the two women walked around to the other side and simply embraced each other.
"I'm sorry" Marissa whispered into Alex's shoulder.
"I love you, Marissa. That's never going to change." The blonde sighed.
"I know Alex, I love you too." The shorter girl pulled back and gave the taller girl a quick kiss, before looking back at the bed to make sure the little boy was still asleep.
I understand that there are a lot of things that need to be cleared up, but I haven't written in awhile and it feels good to be doing it again. I have ideas bouncing around for this story, so reviews would be awesome and appreciated.