AN: okay this is my first real fan-fiction so please forgive me if it is bad!!

Okay this all started at 3a.m on a school night. I couldn't get to sleep and was listening to "Why does it always rain on me?"-Travis on my ipod and just then this idea struck me so I grabbed my notebook

and a pen and then wrote this. So enjoy! Hope you like it. Please review-Niamh

Before I forget it's trough Bella's point of view

Disclaimer: Okay obviously I don't own Twilight or the characters as much as I'd love to and however much I complain to my editor-twilightsun14 aka Deirdre , I will unfortunately never own it:-(

Chapter 1-Him

I woke up tired and disorientated. I turned to my left side and stared at the bright red digits on my alarm clock's face. It hurt my eyes to read the time. It was 4 in the morning. I yawned and got up knowing

I wouldn't get back to sleep. I grabbed my bag of toiletries and placed them on the bathroom counter and went back to my room to find clothes. I grabbed my favourite white polo shirt, a blue cardigan and a

pair of kaki combats. On my way back to the bathroom with my towels in hand I noticed my dad Charlie was obviously gone on a fishing trip. Probably with the guys at the station. Luckily for my dad there

was barely no trouble in this small town of Forks and therefore Chief Swan-my dad could fit in an odd fishing trip. Lucky him.

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When I was finished with my shower I dried my body quickly and threw on my clothes. After setting up the hair dryer I put in my ipod and switched it on shuffle and started drying my hair with the hairdryer.

I looked into the mirror to see what I was doing but I looked away again as all I saw in my hazel eyes which complimented my chestnut brown was deep pain and sadness. Stop this Bella he doesn't love you.

He never did. Stop it! Stop thinking about the way he explained you. Yes he knew you perfect, yes you're a "danger magnet" as he told you but he doesn't love you so stop thinking about him and his perfect

non-mortal family you idiotic idiot! But my thoughts were interrupted by the familiar tears flowing down my cheeks which came every time I thought of him or whenever heard his name. No! Bella don't! Too

late. I thought of him-my Edward who is one now. Then they came and took over me and I couldn't stop them. I was in hysterics. I was bawling my eyes out, as usual.

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As I dried the painful tears of sadness I threw on my clothes and ram down stairs. I shoved on my shoes and pushed my phone, ipod, keys and wallet in to my pocket and ran out to the door. I ran and ran

until I got to "our" place-the meadow. Oh the glorious meadow. How I wish he was here but it pained too much to be in "our special place" as he called it, especially now since it was exactly a year since my

perfect bronzed haired, golden eyed perfect beautiful vegetarian vampire boyfriend had left me to be with his family that never aged like him. Then the hysterics came. My enemy. My tears. How familiar

these tears where but then again they should be since they came more than twice a day as every little thing reminded me of him, my Edward like I still stare at the empty seat next to me, it was where he

used to sit ever since I started in Forks High School and wish he was there. How I still search the car park for his shiny silver Volvo or sweet Emmett's monster truck or quirky Alice's yellow Porsche or

stunning Rosalie's red BMW convertible, sometimes I even look for his dad Carlisle's black BMW. But each day after I looked the same emotions came back to me- 1. Anger-never lasted long 2.

Disappointment-this lasted longer than anger 3. Sadness-this was the hardest to deal with and the truth is I never did deal with it and I'm still trying to. Today would be no different of course. Today like

every other day since he left I'm going have to put up with Mike's smug face which read the same every time 'Ha-ha Bella I told ya so. He was no good for you!' look. The look I became adjusted to. I pushed

these thoughts away and decided to head for a spin in my chevy to clear my thoughts away. So I ran to my truck. When I arrived puffed and slightly out of breath I meet an unexpected vistor.

AN: Okay I left you with a cliff hanger. I hope you like it! Please review thanks.Very small I know but it's only a short story! Chapter 2 coming soon, Niamh:D