Fact about me, Brokenrussiancrawl:
It makes me sad to know that soon One Life to Live will be over. I hope that it goes out with a bang. I'm excited to see what happens with Todd, Todd and Tea. I love Tea and I hope she gets a happy ending.

Who We Were

Sam smiled as she walking into Kelly's with Jason right behind her. It had taken a lot of persuading but she had gotten him to say yes. It had taken a few days to get him to understand her hints about wanting the cookies from there, and how they had the best sandwiches. It wasn't until this morning when she just full on asked him to go with her. At first he tried to say that he was busy, and then tried to say that Mike doesn't like him going there. After that he flat out said he wasn't going. But that didn't sway her; she put her hands on her hips and gave a long list as to why they should go out.

In the end she one, and now here they are, walking into Kelly's she rubbed her hands and gave a sigh. She was ready to talk to him about what had been on her mind the past few weeks. She just didn't know how to start.

They took a seat with him facing the door. He always did that; always careful of what might happen next. Sometimes it annoyed her, but she tried not to let it get to her. But sometimes she wished that he wasn't on edge all the time and that he would just relax when they were in public.

"I can't wait to have some of these cookies." Sam said as they sat down.

"You know, Robin is obsessed with the chocolate chip cookies. But she would only eat them when they were hot." Jason said without any thought.

Sam looked at him with a small frown, "I didn't know that you and Robin still talked."

"We do, it's just not that much."

"Oh." She said as she took in the room. "I guess it's good that you've continued to stay friends after all this time. It's good that you guys are still," she sighed, "close."

"Yeah, she was a big part of my life. And it took me a long time to realize that I didn't treat her all that fairly in the end. She was the only person I could be myself around and she felt the same. But in the end, we didn't know the other like we once did. I regret that I treated her so horribly and that we lost touch," he looked at her and didn't understand the look she was giving him. "What?"

"Nothing, I was just thinking that if you and Robin hadn't grown apart, we never would have been able to get together. I was just thinking what it would be like if you guys had stayed together, where would we be."

"Well, we don't have to think about 'what ifs'." He said as he leaned forward and placed his arms on the table.

She reached across the table and took his hands, "Do you ever think about her?"

"What, what kind of question is that?" Jason asked as he pulled his hands away. He was getting defensive and to Sam this could be a good thing.

"I was just wondering if you thought about her or if you had your own set of what ifs." Sam said as she ran a hand thru her hair.

Jason touched his forehead and sighed, "I used to. I used to wonder what it would be like if we had stayed together. And then I realized that I wouldn't have Jake, I wouldn't have the close bond that I do with Carly. I would have led a different life. And it's not just me, Robin wouldn't have gotten married, had her beautiful daughter."

Sam blew air out of her mouth and ran her hand threw her hair again. "Okay well, did you ever wonder what it would have been like for you guys and not just what you wouldn't have right now? I mean, you guys could have had a kid together. You guys might have gotten married and the accident with Jake wouldn't have happened. The problems with Carly would have ended like they did for us. And what about Lisa? Robin wouldn't have been involved with a man who used to be with a woman who was crazy, and then tried to kill her."

Jason looked at her and squinted, "Why are you pushing this?"

Sam pressed her lips together and put her hands together. She wasn't sure how she was going to tell him. Sam knew that she had to tell him that she was gaining feelings for someone else. She owed it to him.

She sighed and looked around the room. "I have something that I need to tell you, Jason, and it might hurt."

"What are you talking about?"

"I think that we should, that we should see other people." Sam said as fast as she could.

"You want to see someone else?" Jason said as he turned into the cold, distant man that he uses with everyone else.

"It's not like that." Sam sighed and looked down. "Jason, you make me so happy. You are the best boyfriend a girl like me could ask for. But something changed. I don't have to same feelings for you that I once did."

Jason didn't know what to say. What was there to say to your girlfriend that you were planning to have a baby with who was breaking up with you?

"I know that this is coming as a shock, but like you said earlier about how you and Robin just grew apart, that's what happened with us." Sam placed her hand on her chest, "I love you and I always will, but my feelings have…changed."

Jason was sitting there not saying anything. Sam was beginning to get worried. That was until he spoke, "I'm trying to feel something. Anything, like pain, hurt, betrayal, but I don't. I don't feel hurt or angry. I feel-"

"Relieved?" Sam asked. She smiled, "That means that you feel the same why that I do."

"I really tried to make it work."

"I know, but sometimes it doesn't turn out that way."

"So who's the lucky guy?" Jason asked changing the subject.

Sam looked down and rubbed her forehead. "I think that I have…feelings…for Spinelli."

Jason was silent for a moment. Sam looked up to see what the expression on his face was. "I had a feeling that was who it was."

Sam was shocked, "You're not mad?"

Jason shook his head, "You guys have been getting close and I think that he has feelings for you too." Jason stood and put his jacket on, "If you need any help from me, let me know."

"Jason," Sam called as he walked outside. He turned and looked at her as she walked up to him, "I think you should try and work things out with Robin."

For the second time that night, Jason was confused. "Why do you say that?"

"Oh come on Jason." Sam laughed a little, "It's so obvious, you look at her whenever she's around. You bring her up in conversations; you just said that she really likes Mike's cookies. Jason, you miss her."

Jason didn't say anything, just watched as she walked but into Kelly's. Sonny, he needed to talk to Sonny.

Robin sighed as she sat across from Diane Miller. She was sure that what she was going was good, that she needed this, but what about Emma? Would Patrick go for a custody fight? She didn't want that. All Robin wanted was a clean break.

"So, let me get this straight. You want to get a divorce? And you want me to be prepared for a custody battle?" Robin nodded. "What kind of lawyer do you think I am?" Diane said in outrage.

Robin looked her right in the eyes, "I think that you're the best. And that your reputation is the best I have seen. I know that you will stop at nothing to get your goal and that I can trust you." When Diane didn't say anything Robin stood up and gathered her purse, "You know, I heard that there was nothing you Diane Miller wouldn't do. She would never turn away a paying client. I guess I was wrong. Your reputation was greatly exaggerated."

Diane's mouth full open as she watched Robin walk to her office door. Well, she thought as she sat down. She sure had something to think about.

Robin walked out to her car and sat there for a moment. What should she do now? After a moment, a thought came to her. She smiled as she started the car and drove off.

When she pulled up a man came out and opened her door. She smiled at him and got out. "Thanks." She said as her closed her door and looked at her.

"Who are you?" he demanded. Robins smiled didn't falter as she walked up the stairs and opened the door. The man followed her as she was about to open the living room door. "I can't let you go in there." He said as he grabbed her arm.

"I'm a close friend." She said as she pulled away and headed for the door again. He went to stand in front of her but she twirled around him and dodges under his hands. She opened the door and walked in.

Sonny looked up from his desk and smiled. He put his pen down and got up to go to her. The man ran in and grabbed Robins arm and looked at Sonny, "Sorry boss, she slipped me."

"Ron, what the hell are you doing? Let her go!" Robin walked over and gave Sonny a hug and then made herself confortable on his couch. "This is Robin, she is one of my closest friends and when she is here…are you getting this, when she's here, you treat her with respect." The guy nodded and Sonny walked over to him and grasped his shoulder, "That girl is my family, so the next time you see her, you treat her that way. If not were going to have some problems." Sonny tightened his grip on Ron's shoulder. "Understand?"

"Yes-yes sir."

Robin laughed as Ron practically ran out of the room. Sonny turned and pointed at the door. "See what I have to put up with?'

Stifling her laugh she nodded, "Oh yeah, it must be so hard to put up with men who are willing to give their life for you." She shrugged, "What a work out," she dramatically whipped her brow.

Sonny laughed. "Make fun all you want but It's true." He sat down next to her and looked at her for a moment.

"What?" she said smiling.

"It's just good to see you. It's been a long time since we got to talk."

Robin nodded, "Well, you've been busy with Alec and Brenda. I didn't want to intrude."

"You could never do that." He leaned in closer to her and whispered, "Don't tell Brenda, but you're more my family then they are."

She smiled at him. "Well, I really hope that's true because…I need your help." She put her hands together and sighed, "I want Diane Miller as my lawyer."

Sonny leaned forward and scratched his chin, "Why do you need her help?"

"I'm getting a divorce, and I want the best of the best on my side."

"I didn't know you and Patrick were having problems. I thought that you guys were working things out."

"Yeah, I did too, but the other day he said that he's 'tired' of all of this and that he didn't feel that it was worth all this drama."

Sonny looked at her for a moment then stood up and walked to the little bar in the corner of the room. "What did you say to that?"

Robin stood and wrapped her arms herself, "I agreed with him. I'm not ready to forgive him and I'm not sure that I'll ever will." Sonny turned around and handed her a glass of water.

"You don't think that there is any way that you guys could work it out?"

Robin took a sip of the water, "It's not that. I just…I don't know. I don't know who I am anymore. I feel like I've lost my way."

"When did you start feeling like this?"

"When I was in the hospital and I was talking to Jason that was when I felt normal again. I didn't feel like I had to be anything else but me. But when Patrick came into the room…I just felt like I had to be on guard. And that's what I was, on guard all the time." She sat down and looked at him, "When I'm not with Patrick, I feel like…like I can breathe."

Sonny nodded and came join her on the couch. "I will talk to Diane. And I will pay the bill."

She shook her head, "Sonny, no. this is my problem, I need to take care of it."

"You will, but I want to support you by paying this. Diane is expensive and right now, I want you to focus on you and Emma. I will take care of all the lawyer business and you take care of that beautiful girl for me." When she looked like she was going to argue, Sonny said, "I'm not taking no for an answer."

She smiled at him, "You spoil me."

"I know." They stood up and she gave him a hug. "I love you," he whispered in her ear.

"I love you too."

Sonny stood there and watched her leave. He wanted to make everything better for her. Sonny didn't feel that she needed to go thru this. Robin deserved better.

He walked to his dead and called Diane. "Tell me why I knew that I would be getting a call from you."

"I want you to help Robin." Sonny stated.

"Why does that not surprise me?"

"Look, she needs a lawyer and you're the best. So here's what's going to happen, you are going to help her, and I'm going to pay for it."

"Fine, but I'm telling you, you will be paying a high price." Diane warned him.

"I don't care. Just make sure that in the end she's happy and has Emma by her side. If I know Patrick, he's going to try and get Emma from him, and I am not about to let that happen."

"Okay." She said with a sigh.

"Thank you."

Sonny hung up and sat down at his desk. Before he could even glance at his papers and get back to work Jason burst thru the doors.

"Sonny, I need to talk to you."

What do you think?

I think I'm going to write about everyone. Keep an update about their life so there should be a lot of chapters.

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