Alright, didn't really mean to make this oneshot so horrible and tragic, it just kinda happened. . . Anyway, this is the really late :my bad!: birthday fic for Sasuke-kun! :Huggles Sasuke: anyway. . . there are things that happen. . . well just read for yourself. I think you all will hate me; hell I hate myself a bit. . . heh.

The song I chose was just my interpretation. You may not see it this way, but that's how I did and thats how I'm keeping it. If you don't like, please don't read at all.

Summary: Sasuke and Naruto had been lovers for 5 years now, two of which had been spent with fighting and Naruto constantly drinking, cheating and cutting. Today is Sasuke's birthday and everything's going great, until Naruto gets drunk and starts a fight with everyone. When Sasuke steps in, things are brought to his attention. He's done with all the lying, cheating, drinking, cutting, and stealing. Sasuke was hoping things would let up, but they haven't. On his birthday, he was planning on proposing to his true love, but it doesnt work out that way and Sasuke runs.

Disclaimer: I do NOT nor will I ever own Naruto or any characters. Don't make a profit off this story. I also don't own the lyrics to The Tide Began To Rise by Demon Hunter. It belongs to them. I do, however, own rights to the story line.

Warning: This story does have hints of a SasuNaru relationship, but it doesn't have any SasuNaru in it. This does, however, have fighting, cutting, cheating, and a death in the story. I don't want to give it away, just warning you all.

I don't belong hereI never saw this on the path I walk
The blood-stained walls, the lines of chalk on the floor
Its getting so hard
I never saw the backlash, when the tide began to rise
I can't remember
The way it was when everything felt right
My mouth held shut and eyes sealed tight with control

Sasuke walked down the street at 2 am. Today was the Uchiha's birthday and he had no where to go. The man was celebrating his birthday early with a few drinks with his friend and soon to be fiancée when things got a little out of hand. His boyfriend had gotten shit faced drunk and was picking fights with everyone when the Uchiha stepped in and tried to prevent the blond from fighting everyone. That's when things got really bad. The Uchiha didn't see anything coming until his blond lover struck him in the stomach so hard he began to cough up blood. Instead of fighting like they always did, he decided to walk away. That was the worst mistake ever. The blond grabbed his arm, pulling him back as the blond reeled back, throwing a punch right at Sasuke's face, managing to hit him under his right eye. The Uchiha, taking it as a hint, jumped the blond and started to fight back.

After a while, security stepped in, dragging both men out of the club. They were told to never come back again which the Uchiha gladly accepted. He hated going out to places like those anyway. The only reason he went tonight was because all his friends had dragged him out there. Sasuke was finally fed up with all the fighting; he ran home so fast, he barely had enough time to breathe once in a while. Once he reached his house, he threw the door open and ran up to his and his lovers room. He threw open the nightstand drawer, finding the little box he was keeping until his birthday. The little box contained Sasuke's love for his blond boyfriend. He knew it was never going to happen anymore, not after tonight.

The Uchiha, letting one tear slide down his pale face, pocketed the box and ran back out before the drunk blond found his way back home. Sasuke stopped in the living room, admiring the pictures of him and his lover before everything turned sour. See, his lover became a drunk about two years ago, which sent their relationship in a spiral downwards. Sasuke fought and fought to keep their relationship alive, but tonight opened his eyes. He knew he had to get out of the relationship, no matter how hard it was for him. He took a few pictures, wanting to remember the good times, when everything felt right.

"'Suke, why are you here??" the drunk blond asked, stumbling into their home. Damn, Sasuke wanted to get out before anything else could happen that night. Sasuke knew to keep his mouth shut as he nodded, keeping his eyes shut to make sure not to make contact with the blond. He would take it the wrong way and they would end up fighting again. The Uchiha made it outside, watching his ex lover walk up to their former room and out of sight. Sasuke let a sigh escape his lips before he ran for all he was worth.

So I remember on the inside

I found a dark, infernal place, I don't wanna face anymore
Somehow I won't stop feeding the pain
My heart's just the same as before
I found a dark, infernal place, I don't wanna face anymore
Somehow

Sasuke stopped at a hotel like he always did on nights like these. He took out his credit card, paying for a room for that night. Bidding the lady behind the desk goodbye, he ran up to his room, quickly swiping the card and throwing the door open. He shut it, taking his shoes off and lying on the bed. He pulled the pictures out, smiling and touching them, hoping that they could go back to the time where everything was right. He knew the place he lived out was a dark and infernal; a place he didn't want to face or return to anymore. He knew as long as he lived there, he would be feeding the pain they both had every day.

Sasuke knew why the man drank, it was because he wanted to escape reality for a while and blame everything on the drinking. Sasuke had walked in countless times to find his lover cutting, fucking other men and women, and everything else you could imagine. The raven hated to see his lover like that. He walked into the room one night, ready to propose to the blond to find him bleeding everywhere and fucking his best friend. Sasuke broke down right there, the two men knowing the Uchiha was there but not caring in the least. Sasuke thought everything would return to normal in the next few months, but everything got worse. He hated his life, he hated what the blond had to go through and he was ready to end it all. End their relationship and ultimately, end his own life.

So now I'm stuck here
Between the guilty and the insincere
The words I've spoke have left me here all alone
I should have known this
I never saw the backlash, when the tide began to rise
I wish it all gone
I could've burned it when I had that choice
And now I'd die to kill this noise in my head

Sasuke was stuck between feeling guilty for bringing this all on his lover and how his lover was insincere about everything. How the man blamed everything on the drinking and that he promised he loved the Uchiha and that he wasn't cheating on the raven, but that he was only acting like that because he was suffering from some sort of mental disorder that the alcohol brought out in him. The Uchiha knew, he knew everything. If the blond knew that, he wouldn't be drinking all the time would he? The blond was two-faced; one day he would love the Uchiha and let the Uchiha have his way and that night he would have a lover in their bed whether he was drunk or not.

The Uchiha wasn't as stupid as the blond liked to believe, no. He was ready to give it all up the first time Sasuke saw the man in their bed with another man. Sasuke pulled the ring out of his pocket, smiling at all the memories and the laughs; the moaning and screaming that went on at nights. He wished he could've ended everything earlier; letting the both of them free. He didn't have the choice to go happily anymore or even talk it out with his lover, no. Now he really had to move on and get out of the blonds life for good.

Sasuke walked to the bathroom, running the cold water and splashing it on his face. He grimaced, looking at the marks that were left from his ex. He held back from punching a hole in the glass and wall. He looked at himself, hating the reflection staring back at him.

"You're really pathetic. You could've straightened this all out, but you ran. You ran away from everything and acted like it was a mistake. Now look at you, running from your lover and your problems, thinking they'll go away. Those memories will haunt you forever and all the good times you had. . . I'd die to kill the noises in my head. They only bring back the memories from long ago and I can't take it anymore," he said, facing reality. He always carried a pocket knife with him, just in case. He sighed, tuning away from the mirror to turn the water in the shower on. He filled the bath up with steaming hot water, stripped and hopped in.

So I remember on the inside

I found a dark, infernal place, I don't wanna face anymore
Somehow I won't stop feeding the pain
My heart's just the same as beforeI found a dark, infernal place, I don't wanna face anymore
Somehow

If this is all the love my spirit can give
Just take it back tonight
There is not a reason more to live

Sasuke stared at the shiny object in his hand, flicking it open and closed. He shook the horrible memories out of his head, wanting to die with the good memories. He grimaced again, flicking the knife open one last time. He hadn't done this in a long time, so he started out easy. He took his thumb, quickly running it over the blade, slicing open the pale skin. Blood quickly rushed to the site, trying to close the wound that was created. Sasuke watched the blood trickle down his arm and drip into the tub, turning the water around him a vary light pink before it spread out into the clear water.

He continued to cut, heading to his wrists. Tears began to form in his eyes, not from the pain, but from the horrible memories of the infernal place he called home. His heart would forever remain there, his spirit would watch over Naruto forever. He knew that's what would happen when he died. Tonight was the night. Sasuke nodded his head a bit, taking the knife away from his bloody wrist and slowly bringing it to his throat. He took a quick glance in the mirror, looking at himself in disgust before looking away to finish his job. He watched the bloody blade creep towards his throat before it was inches away. He took a deep breath, muttering his final words to himself.

"If this is all the love my spirit can give, just take it back tonight, Naruto. There's not a reason more to live," he chanted a few time. He brought the knife to his throat, feeling the pressure being added. He took the knife away, a line of blood clear on his pale neck. He knew it was the blood from his wrists; he wasn't pushing hard enough to slice the skin.

"If this is all the love my spirit can give. There's not a reason more too live, right Naruto?" he asked himself, chuckling at how stupid he must sound. Before he ended it all, he decided to write a little note to anyone who found him. He took his cut thumb, writing out the note before he smiled, taking the knife again and placing it quickly to his throat.

"Goodbye, Naruto. I'll love you forever," and with that, the Uchiha slowly dragged the knife across his throat. He put enough pressure on it to end the job quickly, his hand dropping the knife into the water. It hit the red water with a splash, the blood fresh enough to wash off the knife and mix with the already bloody water. His arm fell into the water, splashing some out of the tub and onto the floor. He took his last breath, a smile on his features before his eyes rolled into the back of his head and his head falling back from the sudden loss of muscles to support it.

I caused all the pain for you and I'm sorry.

I ended everything for you, so you can live a better life.

I love you, Naruto. I always will.

:heart: 'Suke.

Like I said, I've not been in a good mood lately and this is kinda how it turned out. Not exactly HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASUKE! but you get the idea. Horrible. . . just tradgic. I can't believe I wrote this, but I did. Please don't hate me. . . I'm a HUGE Sasuke fan myself!