NEW FanFic Don't Talk About This Love
Background Info- Ronnie has no idea who Danielle is, Archie never came to the square, and never told Ronnie that her baby had died. Roxy still went with Jack, Sean and Roxy split on christmas after Sean found the DNA papers himself in Roxy's room. Danielle never went with Paul and Never got pregnant so no abortion happened. Anything else i will be sure to let you know before The chapter starts. So hope you all like this one please R&R.
Don't Talk About This Love
Chapter 1:-Making My Day
It was a boring Thursday morning on Albert Square, nothing ever happened on Thursdays. Ronnie Mitchell's life was like a lifetime of Thursdays nothing ever happened. Nothing happy, ever happened, she had nothing to smile about, no reason for her to be herself, she was just a cold hard shell. But with so many hidden emotions, sadness, anger, loneliness, regrets and hurt flowing through her blood. She hated her life. She hated the blood that ran through her veins. Mitchell blood. Something to be proud of. Not for Ronnie, she didn't want it, being a Mitchell had caused nothing but sadness, the family she was born into, the parents she was born with the were main cause of this and she hated them. Even more than that she hated herself, she hated who she was, who she'd become but there was no-one there to stop her from hating herself, to stop her from going under.
Ronnie lay on the sofa in the Vic front room, her head buried deeply into a pillow muffling her cries and soaking up the tears. It had been one of those hard mornings; every day was hard for Ronnie but this was one was one of the worst. She felt no need whatsoever to get out of bed, no reason and for no-one. Some days it all got too much and she just wanted to stay in bed and cry all day, hiding herself from the world, hiding herself from reminders on what she had missed out on. Her baby. Motherhood.
She had come over to see Roxy, just for someone to talk to. But Roxy wasn't here no-one was. Roxy had taken her daughter out for the day and Peggy, Phil and Ben had gone away to see Grant. So Ronnie was alone yet again. Tracy had been left to bottle up downstairs and watch over Danielle as she did the cleaning, still unknown to Ronnie that she was the long lost daughter she craved for, for every second of everyday since she was 14.
Ronnie sat there sobbing into the pillow in her own little bubble, blocked off from the outside world. Danielle had just been emptying the bins upstairs when she noticed her mother through the crack in the living room door sobbing uncontrollably into a pillow. It broke Danielle's heart to watch, she put all her things down on the floor, pulling the rubber gloves from her hands and placing them on the floor on the landing. She patted her cleaning apron down and pushed the door open quietly, stepping into the room. Danielle slowly made her way over to the sofa and knelt down beside it, gulping slightly as her mother didn't move an inch obviously unbeknown to Danielle's presence. Danielle placed a gentle hand on her mother's back, startling slightly as Ronnie's head snapped up. Her beautiful blue eyes were red and blotchy with mascara trails leading down her cheeks from them. "D Danielle" Ronnie stuttered making a quick swipe at her eyes, trying to fight back the tears as they flowed uncontrollably down her cheeks, but it was no use, the flood gates were open and they showed no sign of closing anytime soon.
Danielle smiled soothingly removing her hand from Ronnie's back and placing it on her shoulder "Ronnie what's wrong?" Danielle asked calmly as Ronnie hung her head allowing her hair to cover her facing trying to hide her tears from Danielle. "Nothing. I'm fine Danielle, you should get back to work" Ronnie said quickly through a rough, cracking voice. Danielle sighed and rubbed Ronnie's shoulder soothingly, "come on we both know that's not true. So come on Ronnie what's up?" Danielle asked again pulling Ronnie's feet from the sofa, and placed them gently on the ground allowing her to face forwards; Danielle took the now vacant seat next to Ronnie placing a hand on her mother's back once again. Ronnie wiped her eyes once again and pulled her head up pushing her hair behind her ears. "I'm ok now Danielle. Thank you" Ronnie said calmly looking up at Danielle through misty eyes, who had a look of concern etched onto her face. Danielle sighed "no Ronnie you're not, I've never seen you like this, infact I doubt anyone has." She said removing her hand from Ronnie's back. "Then you're the first" giggled Ronnie avoiding eye contact with Danielle.
Danielle sighed again, trust Ronnie to be difficult she thought "Your strong you don't cry, something's obviously really upset you" Ronnie itched the side of her head before pushing back her fringe. "No Danielle. I'm not. I'm weak" Danielle patted out the apron on her lap and looked up into Ronnie's eyes. "What? You're Ronnie Mitchell, Ice Queen. Heart of glass. No offence" Danielle said quickly not sure if she'd hurt Ronnie by saying this. Ronnie giggled slightly "oh lovely. I always wondered what they called me" she blinked quickly stopping anymore tears from flowing "But don't you see Danielle. That isn't me. I'm weak. It's just a front, a shield to protect my broken heart. I don't cry in public. I push away those that get close, hurting them before they get chance to hurt me. I'm weak Danielle, my heart aches, my head aches, everything inside of me is weak and it's crying. It's been too long I don't know how to stop it. I can't stop it. I'm broken." Ronnie sobbed as the tears dripped quickly from her face. Danielle felt her heart tighten; she could feel her mother's pain and was clueless as what to do and why she was in such a state.
Danielle breathed deeply; she leant forward and pulled Ronnie into a hug, shocked when Ronnie returned it clinging to Danielle's arms as she sobbed into her shoulder. "Oh Ronnie, why does your heart ache?" Danielle asked softly rubbing Ronnie's back in a calming manner. Ronnie held tighter pulling Danielle closer, unable to let go of the stranger she so freely spilled her heart to. "Because I lost my baby" Ronnie sobbed loudly soaking Danielle's shoulder with her tears, stunning Danielle to the core. She never knew Ronnie felt like this, all this pain, was this because of her? She felt tears falling from her own eyes. "Hey come on shhhh don't cry, what baby Ronnie?" Danielle questioned as Ronnie's sobs became a steady pattern slowing down slowly. Ronnie sniffled and loosened her grip on Danielle slightly "My baby girl" She said quietly, holding back the tears as hard as she could. "I didn't know you had a baby Ronnie" Danielle said coldly unsure of what to say to the distraught woman in her arms.
Ronnie nodded into Danielle's shoulder taking comfort in the young girls' arms. "I had a baby when I was fourteen and she was the most precious thing I have ever held in my entire life" she said calmly pulling out of Danielle's arms before reaching out and holding her unknown daughters hands in her own. Ronnie didn't understand why she was telling all this to Danielle, in a way she felt like she could trust her, like she'd known her for years. It was like no matter how hard she pushed Danielle always found a way back in. It was so unlike Ronnie allowing a stranger into her heart. Danielle found herself melt into Ronnie's hands, she had never truly found out how Ronnie had felt about her baby or what had happened to make Ronnie give her baby up. "W what happened Ronnie?" Danielle found herself asking. Ronnie squeezed Danielle's left hand as if asking for support, Danielle squeezed back in response and found her eyes locking with Ronnie's once again. "I held her in my arms after she was born. I called her Amy and held her for 2hours and 23minutes before she was ripped out of my arms, by the one person that was supposed to protect me and he took my baby" Ronnie cried quietly, tears flowing once again. "Who took her Ronnie?" Danielle asked finding her throat stiff and her stomach in knots. Ronnie looked deep into Danielle's eyes a let out a sob "My Dad". Danielle just wanted to cry, she had always thought that Ronnie had freely given away her baby without the slightest bit of guilt or regret.
"Where did he take her Ronnie?" Danielle asked watching the pain in her mother's eyes as tears ran down her cheeks. "He took her from me and gave her to another family. I didn't deserve her" Ronnie said coldly pulling her hands from Danielle's watching as a look of hurt flashed across Danielle's face. "I couldn't give her what she needed. She's better off without me" Ronnie said itching her hands together. Danielle felt a stab to her heart. Ronnie was wrong she wasn't better off without her. She needed her. "What makes you say that Ronnie?" Danielle asked curiously, putting her hands in her lap, fighting the urge to pull her locket from under her shirt and cry. Ronnie blinked quickly as if pushing away something in her mind. "I was only young. What life could I have given her?" Ronnie said quickly swiping at an odd tear that escaped her eye. Danielle focused her gaze on Ronnie "but you loved her" Danielle stated, she wasn't sure if it was a question or assumption either way Ronnie answered quickly "No Danielle. I love her." She said pulling herself forward on the sofa so she was facing directly ahead hiding her eyes from Danielle's.
Danielle sighed "no Ronnie. What I mean is you loved her. That's all she needs. Your love" she stated speaking from her heart; she just wanted Ronnie's love. Ronnie turned to face Danielle locking eyes with her unknown daughter once again "Danielle it's not that simple though is it. I could give her love. Every cell in my body aches with love for her, but she was a baby, even if she wasn't taken from me I would've struggled to provide for her. She was better off" Ronnie said quietly not bothering to wipe away the silent tears that were now flowing. Danielle's eyes widened and she shot up from her seat "Better off. You honestly think she was better off. A life with a family that isn't even your own or worse, a life in care, pushed from family to family. House to house. No Ronnie she wasn't better off. No child deserves to be put through any of that. Great thanks Ronnie. Getting put into care made me better off. Thanks for that. You've just made my day." Danielle yelled at Ronnie, tears flowing uncontrollably down her face. When did she start crying? She'd always get so close to Ronnie and Ronnie would say something taking it all away making Danielle put it off. Ronnie watched on gobsmacked and confused as Danielle fled out of the room in tears after ripping off her apron and throwing it on the floor.
Hey again. so hope everyone liked that first Chapter and for those readers of End or New Beginning i am updating still, i'm just in a rough patch with it at the moment but there should be an update soon. no promises ohhh and Happy New Year Everyone!! New Years resolution- to make more effort, doing college work when set and adding updates when i can :D just thought i'd add that for a little motivation there lol.
And Don't Talk About This Love- Anyone any ideas why i called it that?? Thanks for reading don't forget to REVIEW they make me so happy :D charlotte xxx