So I log onto and mysteriously TKNK isn't there anymore, I search throughout the site. Still not there.

I do believe haters pulled by stories down, but hey. Haters gonna hate.

In any case I'm reuploading the chapters and also re-checking them for grammar and perhaps extending them and adding my details for clarity.

Enjoy!

Ciel's POV

I lied awake in my bed; my fingers squeezed the bridge of my nose in a silent anger that went unnoticed and uncared for by the guards outside my room. Another sleepless night, like those before that I had been plagued with, filled with same terrible and blood curdling nightmares as the endless nights before. He haunts my dreams and can be seen in all I do. That was his everlasting and unshakable victory over me and there was little to nothing I could do about it.

Although he was gone from this world, if you walked down the halls of my spacious home you could feel him. You could feel him in the streets and alleys of the town. You can feel him in the people's horrid stares and in those stares filled with his animosity and terror was an unspoken challenge given to me by the poor and the homeless that filled the streets, having no place to sleep or call their own. I foolishly accepted their challenge, thinking myself to be higher and more important than those before me. Thinking that I was called to a higher and more meaningful purpose then them, and that they were mere fools compared to me.

Or so I thought.

I slowly rose from my bed, careful to wrap the red silken covers tightly around my bony hips and left my chest uncovered. I didn't want to be found without something to cover my…nether regions. I walked slowly and carefully to the wide open window. I was sure to be aware of every step I took and every sound, however small, I made. Taking care to make sure I did not trip over the cover I used to hide myself with. My hand gently touched the side of the window, running my hands down the smooth and slightly cold wall. I stared out the window that gave me a generous amount of the morning dawn's light with which I used to see.

I stared at the large and dark city that lie beneath my abode, and it stared back challenging me just as its people did. As I looked out I could easily tell that the closer you got to the castle, my beloved home, the better the city looked. But looks are cosmetic, no matter how fine the wood of the house or the iron of the bars which hold it up all that matters are the people inside who take care of it. To me, the closer you got to the castle, the worse and richer the people got. I was out on the outer wall of the castle one day, dressed as a poor child to escape the castle and its people. The people there were so nice….whereas those who live so close to the castle I could wave to them from my bedroom pushed me aside while the man before me was not looking. But there was one thing that never changed….

The kingdom itself was never dirtied by a war not fought for righteous reasons no matter how terrible of a job the man before I did. It stayed beautiful and pristine….but only because the technological, religious and physical aspects of the city have not changed for the past five years. I would change that so quickly and so efficiently that it would shock its people from the pure speed of the greatness of our change, I will make sure that not a single child must go another day hungry beaten or abused…

"This kingdom…" I stretched my palm out; my cerulean blue eyes glowed with the glowing dawn light and nearly over powered it as I reflected on my rise to the place where I was today. I deserved to stand here, at the soon to be top of the world, standing over and ruling it all with a firm but caring hand. My fingers came back to my palm, as through I was grabbing the land before me to claim as my own. "My kingdom."

My life before now had been pure hell, problem after problem and crisis after crisis as I tried to keep my own sanity intact…and my mother's. I went through so much…it was almost unreal. But unreal doesn't mean not no matter how much I wished it would. The beatings and burnings were just the tip of the ice berg as the man's madness knew no limits. I shook my head to dispel those thoughts, to stop myself from crying.

'Now's not the time…today is a very important day.' I thought, holding back the watery tears that threatened to drip from my eyes at any moment. "Today you will be mine." I whispered, stepping away from the window, I focused my mind on what I could do to make this kingdom better, how I could reverse the changes the man before me so foolishly made. Money was no object, but people's hearts are not swiftly gained and gaining them is never an easy task. But I would do it, and I would do it quickly and change things…if not for the good of the people then to put the man before me to shame.

I walked over to my bed, sitting down on it and picked up a small glass bell with a bright blue bow ribbon wrapped around the yoke and crown on top. The bell had stripes of blue at the sound ring and the bead line and the rest inside and outside was white, but what I loved about it the most was the clapper inside, held by long silver chain with a heart at the end. In the dead center of this heart was a small sapphire.

I rung it and immediately a young red headed girl with freckles and large glasses upon her face ran in, holding my clothing for this very special day. She was wearing a simple white gown that fit her well, I made sure that it fit and was comfortable for her. Before I came she wore an uncomfortable brown frock that was ripped and old, it was horrifying to see her run about completing tasks like that. I could not allow it to go on any further.

So the moment I got the chance I gave her a new dress and her new glasses, meant to hide her eyes lest the 'friends' from her past whom she feared so much come back and recognize her, she blushed and said she was forever in my debt. Since then, she has been my most loyal and trustworthy servant. She was also very nice and kind, but also quite a driving force on the battlefield, which made her a woman to respect on sight if you were already not an ally of mine. She told me that the name given to her by the king before me was 'Ashi'. The Japanese word for 'Evil', and I hissed in anger. That sounded just like what he would do, she wasn't evil at all though… I renamed her 'Meylene'

I looked among the clothing that I specifically chose the night before heading to bed. I took into careful consideration how I wanted to be seen. I wanted to be seen as a great but kind and gentle king so I chose a smaller crown that was actually decorated much nicer than the others, adorned with blue gems that perfectly matched my eyes. It went with a white and blue outfit that I had chosen that was, admittedly, slightly inappropriate for today's event.

As I remembered from the pre-fitting of the outfit, the top was white and the collar came up to my upper neck, completely covering it but it was comfortable because the material it was made out of was so airy and soft. The top also had a blue line that went straight down and cut a line through the outfit until it reached right above my waistline. It was also sleeveless and the back was connected to the part cloak- part glove that donned my arms and covered my sides. The lower part of the white and blue outfit was a long pair of pants that neatly reached my long white and blue heeled boots and almost seemed connected to one another.

I picked up the outfit and nodded to red haired woman with a small smile and a quiet 'thank you.' She always was such a nice, but quiet servant, no matter what happened she was emotionally stable. Meylene was the exact opposite of my mother, and just what I needed to help stabilize my own out-of-control emotions. 'How foolish to look back and think on such things.' I smirked at my own strange and retrospective thoughts as a small feeling of wanting to go back and change it all if I had the chance welled up in my stomach, 'If only Meylene was my mother.' I thought and with a burning hatred, undesired anger and a hint of surprising pettiness I immediately wanted to get back at my previous mother. Then I realized how childish and petty it was for me to think such things and quieted my thoughts and proceeded to get dressed with Meylene's assistance.

I could see the look on her face quite clearly as she gazed at my exposed naked body. It screamed and shrieked of an unknown sadness that would've angered me if I didn't already know what it was about. It was about my weight or should I say the lack of side weight. I was extremely bony, and bordering on malnourished and growing close to the point where my cheeks would sink in and my bottom eyelids turn dark and baggy with lack of energy from the meat of the Earth. My hip bones and ribs could easily be seen and examined in-depth, but the strangest thing was that I was not growing in hunger at all so I did not know why they looked up at me with sadness until I grew older and realized that I looked like a poor orphan child that has never seen a good meal.

I ignored it and Meylene began assisting me in my dressing, the shirt giving us a surprisingly small amount of trouble. I thought it would be much more difficult to put on because of the connection from the back to the soft, flowing sleeves that almost seemed to give me wings and followed me. If I was a small child wearing such an outfit I'd begin attempting to fly but I knew such things were impossible, I was at an age where fairy tales like those I held close and dear in my early childhood were to be discarded. Though they were already discarded at the age of nine when…

I shook my head once more, touching the middle of my forehead with a clothed hand and forcing those accursed thoughts out of my mind. I needed to focus today, many things were to be done, and people were probably beginning to gather around the castle waiting for my appearance. They'd have to wait a few more hours…there was much preparation to be done.

Four Hours later, at approximately 11 am that same day…

I walked up the three steps that lead me up to the 'stage' the soldiers from the small kingdom's army had. It was no surprise that we were doing it this way, no matter how much I'd much rather go on a carriage ride and wave to people happily instead of forcing these young men to carry this wood and metal behemoth around town. I sighed quietly and took a seat in the blue and silver seat that sat right in the middle of the large stage; I prepared to turn the charm on as the soldier asked me, all in unison.

'Are you ready, my king?'

Their great ability to stay together in speaking surprised me but I did not let it show. I gave them a quick 'yes' and they began to march, the iron locked wall to the castle opened. People screamed and waved, mixed opinions coming up and all of them focused upon me, it was frightening. But I just smiled and waved at them happily, today was a good day. Not a day to begin shouting at those who disagree with me, they agree with me in time.

Black roses and ribbons decorated the path we had chosen in advance for this walk around the kingdom. I enjoyed the fact that I got to choose the path of where we went, it seemed like how it was now was completely different then how I thought it was, the king being a political tool for everything. But I was not so hasty to judge, they may try to control me in the near future….

I continued waving as we went further and further away from the castle, the amount of people grew more and more, but many stay behind…specifically those that lived in the lap of luxury, with everything at their fingertips. The people, though growing numerous, grew less and less well dressed as well as growing less and less happy with my appearance. I could tell, they needed the most help from the crown that I wore and I would of course give it to them, I knew how bad it could be out here and I knew what to do in the castle to make it better.

Soon we reached a point where the soldiers stopped and turned to me, suggesting that we do not venture any further.

"Why?" I spoke in a questioning tone, why would they keep me from spreading my love and presence to the people that needed it the most?

"Many people have been oppressed because of your father the king; they bare a non specified hatred against the crown and all those whom follow it." Blond soldier said in a quiet voice, as if thinking back and remembering terrible things…

"Do you have any fear that these people shall strike me? Or perhaps even more, you?" I said, questioning him.

"No my lord, I would never go against something you yourself plan and tell me to do without good reason, I do this for your own safety. I beg you, no. WE beg you, please let us turn back now for your own safety." The soldiers were silent, as were the few people whom heard and looked on, they were challenging me. 'Move forward in bravery and face what comes or back in fear and abandon your people.'

I thought over it for a moment. My legs crossed as I made my decision, I decided that they were in fact right, continuing would put me in danger just as if would put them in danger.

"I agree soldier, we should in fact turn back for our own safety." I smirked and the solder nodded, the leader almost gave the order to turn around before I continued "But we do not lead a country for the safety, we lead it for anything but the safety, as it gives none. We lead it for the people's safety and happiness, knowing full well that the repercussions of our actions may be our death." I glanced at the faces of the soldiers and I could see them silently agree with me, albeit grudgingly. I waited for a moment and then stood up, and pointed forward. "Walk on."

And they walked on proudly, with renewed vigor for me. People looked on and still there were mixed opinions about me, some booing and some cheering, some threw flowers and some threw curses and words. I continued waving and smiling, ignoring the input from the negative and only focusing on the positive….Until a young blond boy walked right in front of our path, where we could not walk. He stood there, in the middle of the street in anger and he stared directly at me. I stared back with a small smile and I was admittedly interested in why this boy came up to me with such an…interesting look on his face.

You could see the fear in his eyes, as people could be tortured and executed for doing much less then what he was doing now. But I smiled at him widely but it was a smile that was not returned. He opened his mouth to speak, and I could tell he would speak his mind openly and freely without fear even if it killed him.

"My king, I am Finnian." He gave me a humble bow and I let out a short giggle, he at least had proper manners. "I am not…from this area. But I have lived here and this place….this place is almost uninhabitable for human life! Look at the ground, the children! They're starving and dying in the streets and the air stinks of the death of another child every day. The houses are breaking down and whatever house that gets even slightly improved is secretly torn down by nobles who wish to keep us at the place we are at now!"

This interested me, he knew what was going on but he was a foreigner. He knew how to speak but he was obviously never previously around royalty….I continued to listen, this could help me greatly in my quest to improve the life of the people in the city. He continued passionately, pointing things out that I had never known and never suspected was going on.

"The nobles do us a great wrong, snatching young children and young virgin girls off the street and using them as…as….sexual slaves!"

That hit a deep chord in me and I could no longer control myself, the hatred for my father and learning the horror that the nobles were snatching younger children to use as slaves for whatever they want? I immediately got out of my chair and jumped off the stage in a fit of anger, people on both sides watched silently and quietly unknowing. The young blonde took a step back, shocked at my sudden reaction but I did not want to do him harm. I stood by his side and put my hand upon his shoulder, projecting my voice to the crowd.

"I must thank this young man for opening my eyes, for many years I have seen the nobles of our kingdom conduct illegal activity but I was unable to do anything of it due to my being only a prince. I refuse to sit by and watch young boys and girls get snatched away from their already grieved parents and if what this young man has said is true, I can not only sit by, I MUST END IT." I hissed and let out a deep breath, controlling my anger was a difficult task. Memories of what happened burned my insides and my heart ached to think of what happened but I continued on. "I, your new king and leader, Ciel Phantomhive swear on my royal blood that this will be stopped!" People cheered for me and I could see them smiling and clapping. "I must also reform the way you live, the terror that was my father has left a great mess in its wake and it appears that it falls among my shoulders to fix this horrid problem…." The young blonde looked down at me, as he stood around a foot taller than me, with a happy sadness on his face.

'Finally someone is doing something about all of this!'

'Thank you.'

'It would seem a noble man has stepped up to the throne at last.' The crowd's happiness was obvious but these were just words and words, no matter how hard you wish or how many you say, don't make actions. People make actions…and it would seem that I am people for right now.

"So I beg of you Finnian-"I stopped to face the young blonde and bow humbly to him. "Come with me, to the castle so that we may make this place better. With your knowledge of the way of the outer city and what's going on, you shall assist me…no….we shall make this place a better world for these people." I gestured to the people, who screamed in happiness. No one from my family ever gave these people a good speech apparently, and although I was going to stay true to my word I could easily spread lies and give false hope. The blonde stared at me his eyes wide and suddenly nodded happily.

"Yes your highness!"

I smirked and turned to my people who were extremely happy at this turn of events, they cheered my name over and over in happiness of this promise as no one of my royal blood had ever done something of even this magnitude to help the people. "My beloved and loyal subjects I, your king, swear to you that as long as I am seated in the throne I will try to make this kingdom the most powerful in the world, and make it a nation upon itself!" And I bowed gracefully, Finnian smiled widely at my side, little could stop me now. I rose happily, grabbing the blonde's hand and pulling him along to the stage that my soldiers patiently held. I stepped up first, then grabbed and pulled up the blonde who seemed so shocked to see me act this way.

I pulled him to my seat and let him stand next to me and I sat down, the energy that came from my anger ran low and now I was slightly winded. I continued to wave and smile as the stage turned around and began back to the castle, the true weight of my actions today came down on my shoulders and the promises I made would take a long, long time to bring to fruition but I would keep them fully. As was my job as king.

'A king does not foolishly rule his people; he guides them wisely according to what they need and his own intelligence.' I thought as we came closer and closer to the castle. Finnian was laughing and running around on the stage, waving and smiling to them with great vigor as though he was a small child. It took me a while to figure out why, I stared at him and noticed his face and eyes and it grew obvious…he was. In spirit at least, he still seemed innocent but he knew of the hardships of the people. He was indeed a rare fine among the people and I decided there that he would be my secondary servant, to help me beside Meylene.

"My king, I have to ask you something." Finnian ran to me happily with a surprisingly large smile on his face, his happiness was beginning to scare the living hell out of me but I kept my fear hidden well.

"Then please, ask away."

"Well…first…ummm…how old is your highness?" He asked as though saying it wrong would make me have him executed, it was slightly funny but it went to show how much fear people had for the crown.

"I'm 15…why so scared?" I asked, a gentle smile gracing my face as I looked up at him.

"Well…I come from a place where the king was very mean…" He looked down and his voice cracked with sadness. I could see tears slipping down his face and his entire body tensing up at the thought. "He…he would kill and hurt everyone for no reason…" He quickly looked back at me with wide forest green eyes, tears near overflowing in them. "I know your highness is not like that but it's just…it's just that I'm not used to such kindness. I'm sorry."

"I'm such many are not used to such kindness….king throughout the land are growing more and more enraged, all for no to little reason, and they then take their mindless rage and thrust it against the people." I shook my head in kindness and pity. "That is why I must fulfill my duty as king to my people and give them a happy life, instead of being hard hearted and selfish like the many who rule outside these walls." I closed my eyes for a moment and let a sigh of sadness escape my lips before I glanced back up at him, a more gleeful expression on my face. "Tell me, what other questions do you have?"

"Well um…why do you need me to help you?" He asked a confused expression on his face that made me smile wider. It had been a very long time since I talked with kids near my age and I had forgotten just how fun it was to just speak casually, no matter how accidental the 'casual' tone that slipped into Finnian's speech was.

"Because you know what's going on, I need someone like that anyone my castle. It's best not to stay blind to the sufferings of the people…." I smiled. "You're quite perfect for this, and I can't wait to work with you."

"Umm...I-I can't wait either your majesty!" He smiled at me just as the stage came to a stop and was slowly lowered to the ground, roses and ribbons were still being thrown to me and I, happy and proud of the decisions I made today, picked one up and smelled it. It smelled surprisingly sweet and I kept it with me as me an Finnian slowly walked to the castle, talking quietly about what needed to be done for those in the lower level of the kingdom.

Later that very same day, all those in the castle had a feast to commemorate my rise to power and Finnian screamed a happy 'banzai!' that I recognized as a good thing. 'Foreigners aren't nearly as bad as people make them out to be…' I thought and raised the solid sliver goblet, filled with the finest and sweetest wine I'd ever tasted to my peers. Meylene sat by my side, across from Finnian. Those that sat at rest of the table were close friends and family, along with some nobles who I found to be innocent of evil deeds.

"Today is a very good day for us all- No. For the world. Today I mark as a special day, and I wish for you all to celebrate with me. Starting now I can promise you all that I will always try beyond my very best to ensure to greatness of our kingdom and the happiness of those who came before and after us. I swear on my noble blood, that the Funtom Kingdom shall become the greatest in the world." I smiled at my relatives who raised their glasses in agreement, and nodded in happiness. "Now, feast and be merry my comrades!" I screamed and sat back down, beginning an in depth discussion of the upmost importance with Finnian. I could clearly see many of my relatives, including my red head's aunt smiling and happy…'First time in a long time where everyone's together for a joyous occasion.' I couldn't help but reflect, but then I quietly brought myself back to the present.

A long time passed where I grew quite drunk and retired to my quarters, and then I rested. My stomach filled of the best meats from the animals and the best wines. I couldn't help but feel good tonight, only one thing could make it even better….'actually not having a nightmare tonight….' I thought and approached my bed with a sigh of my lips. The guards that followed stayed close to the door and made no noise. I flopped down on my bed in exhaustion and drunken splendor. Tomorrow, and many days after that, would be a long and hard day's work.

The next month was weeding out those who abused the weak. The high and haughty nobles who stood at the top of the human food chain and stared down in dominance as they abused and destroyed the lives of those underneath them. I judged many of them personally, and Finnian was the jury. Many of them were executed and killed by my command, and I was glad to seat in my righteous chair that marked me as not only the king, but also as the judge. Furthermore with the way Finnian agreed with me so passionately and defended me so protectively I might as well been the jury too.

In the castle, two floors directly above the kitchen and in one of the largest rooms of the castle itself was my courtroom, I judged all those who come through here of my accord to the best of my abilities. I sat in the throne of my courtroom and took case after case after case. I judged rape and torture with no true reason to be in-just and terrible, and was considered an instant death sentence. Though this did seem fair to the people I could feel it was just me being biased from my own terribl-

'NO.' I stopped that train of thought as Finnian whispered and showed me the list of cases I had yet to finish yet. One particular case caught my eye, but it was so large I knew it couldn't truly be ignored even if I wasn't interested in it. And then, even then, something in me drew me to that case, I had no reason to not judge them publicly and openly. I was given the details of who was going to be dragged into my courtroom to be judged. The courtroom itself was white and dark green in color and decorated with high quality wooden seats where my beloved people sat and watched me give my righteous judgment on anyone foolish enough to cross the rules I had set out. Finnian himself was said that this man had been very…suspicious and that he would never trust him around children.

"He has white hair and purple eyes, fair near blank white skin and is very…regal. He also considers himself to be something of the angels and is very scary at certain times. He says his name is Sine Avin." The description sounded so close, too close, I quickly realized why I had been drawn to this case on this day. It was destiny…and it was terrifying to me but I had to face this bravely. A drop of sweat streaked down my cheek.

I crossed my legs and the black and gold staff in my left hand that was previously leaned against my throne was now in my lap, used as a defense mechanism to calm me down. The golden raven that stood on the hilt gave me a blank expression of lifelessness that only made me worry more. My throat felt terribly dry but I ignored it and painfully swallowed down my fear. I gave the order.

"Sine Avin…bring the man in…." I thought back to who I saw with those features before…

'No no! NO! NO MORE! Please…" A young voice screamed out, attempting to kick the people attacked him away. His begging pleas came upon deaf ears and hardened hearts. Greedy, large hands reached for him and touched him in places that made bile fill the child's mouth.

'NO!' I pressed those thoughts away before my body could react in its normal, rejecting way. I took a deep breath and glanced ahead slowly, preparing myself for what may come. Before me was a white haired, purple eyes man whose feminine features almost truly made me believe he was a she…for a moment. But no, this wasn't him. 'He's much too short…' I let out a sigh of relief. He was being brought along by two guards who held him by the hands and kept them behind his back, while they were also tied with rope. People in the public seats screamed in anger, many of them were from the lower sectors and knew this man…and not in the nice way. He continued his walk of shame down the way through the two sides of wooden seats.

"Sine Avin I presume?" Now letting my staff touch the ground, the raven seemed much less frightening and seemed like more of a threat to my enemies then myself. I smirked at who things changed so fast, was the trauma really that bad from my past? I resisted the urge to chuckle and straighten my back up, making myself look taller and therefore more imposing. The white haired being in front of me was forced to his knees by the ground and now bowed his head before me.

"I…I am him your majesty.." He said quietly, as if ashamed. I could not see his face or his eyes, I uncrossed my legs and got up and Finnian bowed his head in respect for me.

"Look at me Avin." I said, my staff was standing next to me, held in my left hand and its raven perched right above my head. My outfit was most certainly…new. But I enjoyed it, and it was very comfortable and light to me. I didn't want to wear seven hundred pound robes that made me look like a monk like so many other kings did. I wore a bright blue and white cape, the end was cut to be sharp and a green line that was detailed with leaves went straight through it, starting from where a white and black rose sat straight in the middle. My bottoms were dark green formal shorts with a matching top that had a blue rose in the pocket that made the whole outfit look dark. I also wore black knee high lace stockings and long black laced boots that ended around the Tibialis anterior in a sharp point. I was meant to look regal…but intimidating in my own way.

The white haired man raised his head at me slowly, as though breaking a sacred rule. His eyes were a shining purple that seemed to almost see through me. I smiled at him.

"Read off the charges of which this man is accused of." I said to Finnian aloud and many screamed them, I allowed them to as Finnian knew only to read off the charges when they were silenced. They continued for a moment, and finally Finnian was able to begin.

"Multiple acts of kidnapping young children, multiple acts of rape on young children, multiple acts of forced prostitution on young females, multiple acts of forced prostitution on young males, bribery and murd-"

"STOP!" I screamed suddenly and looked over to him. "Are you telling me a murderer and rapist sits in my presence?" I said angrily and closed my eyes, my right hand balled into a fist and my head was down, I couldn't believe that a murderer and a rapist was even allowed to come through the doors of my court even though it was my job to judge all those who passed through the door of my courtroom. The two were disgusting to me apart but combined….death was too good for this man. He should suffer the same fate as those he rape and tortured.

"Yes my king, I apologize for any anger you may have at me for-"

"Stay your words my rook, you have done nothing wrong…." I said with a short sigh of sadness, and then looked up angrily at the man kneeling on one foot before me. "You however, haven't the slightest bit of dignity or respect for human life at all. Your types are the worst…." The stopped looking at him then, too disgusted to continue. "You won't be executed…" I whispered quietly, many in the audience gasped and yelled in protest. I slammed the blunt end of my staff to the ground, my code for silence. "Instead….you will be tortured and flogged, beaten and bruised within an inch of your life….then we will feed you to the dogs." I said with anger in my voice that could not be matched. I almost became one of those young children as well…and I couldn't help but send my heart to them in both sympathy and love.

"No your highness please have mer-"Tears streaked his face as the consequences were placed upon him and the guards picked him up and nearly began carrying him away.

"DON'T YOU DARE UTTER THAT WORD!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and waved my staff at him in anger, enraged that someone like him would want mercy from me. "How many times have those who you have hurt and beaten and raped uttered that word to you? How many times have you ignored them?" I hissed at him, the animosity in me could be felt in the air. "You shall receive NOTHING and for those who have lost a child or a family member to that man shall receive a piece of what you own, leaving you with absolutely nothing to call your own! Now get him out of my SIGHT!" I screamed and turned around, storming out of the courtroom with Finnian following me, most likely worried about me. I could care less. I threw my staff to the ground the moment we were in my outer chambers and ran my fingers through my hair, hoping to get some of the stress out as I was leaned forward, elbows resting on my thighs. I was sitting on a gray and blue couch, it was soft and nice here but the thoughts that I had were anything but. Finnian sat by me and watched quietly, he was always by my side. Just like Meylene.

'Ah! PLEASE STOP, please I haven't don't anything wrong!' The visions came back to me in wave after terrible wave, the horror of all that was my history was coming back to haunt me. I sniffled and did all I could to stop myself from crying. Finnian put his hand on my shoulder to comfort me and it didn't work, I let it out. I myself open and allowed all my emotions to flow out freely. I cried into my hands at my own weakness, my own inability to protect myself and my mother from anything. I took deep breaths but it didn't work, my shoulders shook as I cried loudly.

"Why….why me?" I whispered tearfully. That's all I could say as the sadness wracked my body. But that was all that needed to be said, that was all I was wondering and trying to wrap my mind around since the day it happened. Why me? What was my crime against humanity that such a terrible thing had to happen to me? ME. Of all people! I had done nothing to deserve what happened. It wasME that had to go through that. Not the rule breaking children who stole and disrespected the rules. Not a foreigner child who snuck in against the rules. But ME. I was a prince, I was happy, I tried my best with everything I did to make both my mom and my father happy but it was me.

"I don't know of what happened to you in your past my majesty…." Finnian could his words carefully as he tried to comfort me to the best of his abilities. I could feel his sadness for me coming just from how he spoke. Maybe he realized it from how I reacted? Maybe he took a wild guess when he met me and was figuring it out now? It didn't matter to me; I was too broken to make sense of anything at the moment. "I do know that…most great rulers have something that drives them, and that something terrible or someone of evil intent has greatly injured my king's heart…" He closed his eyes and hugged me. "But please, as one of the few who serves directly under you and one who believes in the prospering of the kingdom I beg you…turn your injury and whatever hatred you may have into your strength…and lead your kingdom and your people to glory."

My servant's words struck a chord in me; I stopped crying and wiped my eyes. He was right. I had to channel my hatred for those who did this to me into strength and make this kingdom prosper. It was my job as its king and leader to ensure that it was as great as it could ever be and I did not intend for my leadership to be frowned upon. I stood up and quietly thanked Finnian, walking past him to grab my staff. I stood in front of the door I barged through not a moment before and I took a deep breath. 'I shall become the best king the world has ever known, and conquer the entire world. I deserve no less.' I walked into the courtroom with a smile upon my face.

"My apologies. Who is next for my judging?" I said, approaching my throne and sitting upon it with my legs crossed and my face peaceful. I knew what I would do and it would be great. The world at my fingertips…and then I thought just how I would reach it…'such details can be ignored for now. I will reach the top of the world even if I must give my soul for it.'

Wooo… That was a nice grammar fix run. Hope you liked the slightly changed chapter