i'm in love with you
but you never see
i dont know if thats a good
or a bad thing
im always just a friend
always and nothing more
you hurt me in ways
that i can never show
maybe im a coward
for not telling you what you cant see
but i cant bring myself to do it
when a girl goes after you
or you go after them
i get really jealous and sad
but you dont even know
i wonder if you do know
the way i feel about you
but you play with my emotions
instead of telling the truth
just like a toy
in your fun and twisted game
or maybe you're totally clueless
either way you're the one to blame
you've caused all my heartache and pain
i can never tell you how i feel
so afraid of rejection
i dont know how you would act
maybe youd avoid me if you knew
or maybe wed be closer
its a risk im not willing to take
im afraid of heartbreak
my hearts been broken enough
im not so tough
just a scared little girl
lost in this stupid world
in need of love
im totally lost
maybe never to be found
im too stubborn and afraid to tell you
so i try to lock away these feelings
a task not so successful
it only shows a little
although many point it out
no one knows the extent of how i feel
i never told anyone
sometiems i have nightmares
in them i tell you how i feel
you say that you hate me
that you found another
that im not even worthy to be your friend
even though it isnt real
it scares me
that it might happen if i tell you
so i will keep trying to lock them away
do the best i can
maybe you'll make the first move
maybe not
your probably too clueless to notice
maybe its for the best
i dont know the way you feel
i dont want our friendship put to the test