So this is my first story on here and first java junkie. I am a firm believer of Luke and Lorelai. This storyline just popped into my head when I was in class(math,of course). So basically this is an alternative season seven. So that whole Christopher thing never happened. After she broke up with Luke,she got in her car and got in a car accident. And she wakes up in the hospital with no recollection of the last nine or ten years of her life. So this is a chance for the java junkie's. So there's a lot of comedy,a bit of drama. This straight L/L and a bit of Rory and Jess too,after she (hypothetical) breaks up with Logan. So read,review,go crazy!
Chapter 1-Just Wake Up Soon
As Lorelai Gilmore walked towards her house,she could not believe what she had done. She had just broken up with her fiancé,Luke Danes. She missed him already. She just wanted to hold him again. Feel him. Or just be with him. But she couldn't,not anymore. He was no her ex fiancé. All he wanted to do was wallow. Rent a sad movie,get into the most ugliest comfy pjs and eat a ton load of ice cream. But she didn't. She couldn't face the disappointed. But mostly she couldn't go inside the house where is thought she would spend the rest of life with...She couldn't even bring to herself to say his name.
Lorelai plonked herself on the porch steps,unable to move. She slowly turned herself from the house to the keys of the jeep in her hand to the jeep. Coming to a snap decision,she headed towards the jeep,opened the door and started driving. Maybe it was the shock of breaking up with the man she loved or the therapist session in the therapist's car but she had to do something. Starting up the engine,Lorelai pulled into the bare stars hollows roads,oblivious to everything around her.
"Logan. I can't do this!"
"Sure you can,Ace!"
"No. We are breaking up. I don't love you."
"Yes you do."
"No I don't."
"Ace."
"Butt-Faced Mistreant,you cheated on me. With Janet,the jogger?!"
"I was vulnerable."
"Bye Logan. The movers will be here in morning."
I walked out of Logan's apartment and went down the elevator. I can't believe he cheated on me. Yes you can,said that annoying voice in the back of head. I closed my eyes and sighed. I knew when I started dating him that he wasn't a boyfriend-girlfriend guy. He was an no strings,Jump off cliffs,go with the flow kind of guy. Why did I date him? I knew that it would end in heartbreak and regret. God I'm stupid. Anyways I should probably check in with mom. I ring the house phone and her automated voice plays in my ears.
"Hi it's Lorelai Gilmore. Yes I love pop tarts. Leave a message."
The usual beep comes through and I leave a message.
"Hi mom. I need a serious girl talk session,so can I swing by later or are you busy? Call me when you get this,please."
Little did did I know that she was busy yet totally free.
I drove down a barren road as bitter sweet memories remain. The first touch. The first kiss. The first smile that was meant for me. No one else. Just me. As tears starts building up in my eyes,I use my pointer finger to wipe my tears away as one rolls down my cheek. Maybe I should get really drunk,I thought,or maybe have a one night stand. Something other than just feeling sorry for myself. It suddenly starts raining. Rain. I used to think that was the second best thing next to snow. It was so romantic and it reminded me of..of him. A hotness in my skin takes over me. I started crying. I let it happen.
As I cried more,my grip on the steering wheel loosened. And then a second later,I let it go. The car swerved and crashed. I didn't scream. I couldn't scream. I just let it happen. It wasn't like I had anything worth living for.
I wake up in a bare almost unreal reality. I see a small baby like a tiny sausage,wrapped up in a pink blanket. It was her. My daughter,my Rory. Then I feel a darkness almost cruelty feeling akin. A shadowed character took her in his or her arms and took her away. During all this I'm yelling,begging for mercy. Telling the darkly shadowed figure to take me instead. And it just keeps on saying a vicious line.
"You don't deserved her. You never have."
Then I hear a strange cackling voice,haunting me with its high pitched shriek.
I keep on calling mom's cell. She won't answer. Why won't she answer? I was getting really worried on. I had left about a dozen messages on the home machine and a dozen more on her cell. Why wasn't she answering? And then there was this voice message that she had sent to me on her cell.
'Honey. I know you might be calling me at home or something. Don't worry. I'm fine. Just don't call Luke. Please.'
Why didn't she want me to call Luke. Did something happen? Did they break up or something? I don't know. I hope not. Mom would be totally heartbroken. I mean they are engaged. At least I hope they are. Burying my head in my hands,my cell phone started to ping up,with a message. The contents made me fell as if the ground had fallen beneath me.
It was a message from 's. It said that mom was in an accident and was in surgery.
I rushed out of my room and into the kitchen. I left a note for Paris.
'Mom. Hospital. Going to St. Paul's. Come if you want or stay. Rory.'
Scribbling down what ever I could,I got into my car and headed to 's in silence. Mulling over everything. What happened? Was it a car accident? Was she drunk or hungover? Did she have a fall? Was it attempted sucide? It could be,what did I know? Nothing.
I got in my car and rushed off to St. Paul's The sound of my grinding wheels on the road ran for miles. What do I do if she dies? She all I have now! She's my best friend and the best mom I could ever ask for. I wanted to call Luke. But it's couldn't. I just couldn't. Mom said not to. But I need someone. I would crumble otherwise and I just broke up with Logan and Paris is out. Sookie. I'll call her. But then as I tried to for Sookie's number,a number came to my fingers.
Jess.
I hadn't seen Jess since Philadelphia,where I humiliated him. I would be lucky if he would ever glance in my direction he was the only person I could call and talk to about this. Pulling by the side of the road with shaky fingers I called my ex-boyfriend Jess Mariano.
"Hello."
"Hi. It's Rory."
"Hello Rory."
"I know you really don't want to talk to me. But I need someone right now. Maybe I'm delusional or seeing things or even a psychopath but I need you. You know me. Better than anyone. You get me. My mom is in the hospital and in serious surgery. I'm scared and I don't know who else to call. So if you can just please come to St. Paul's hospitality in New Haven. Please."
"I'm coming."
"Thank you and please don't mention to Luke. I'll explain."
"Okay."
I quickly jab the END CALL button on my phone and take deep breath. I pull into traffic and head to the hospital.
After throwing everyone out of the diner and yelling at the staff and sending everyone home,I sit down and think about what just happened. I had just become someone's ex-fiancée. What happened? I mean really what happened? Did I forget I loved her? I think I did. I mean yes I waited for her for eight years but we weren't dating that time,most of that time she didn't even like me. What did I think was happening? We broke up. It echoed in my head with the ring of truth. What did Anna say to her? What did she say to her? Lorelai's words replayed without warnings.
"After we get married everything will be fine. Anna said so."
Anna said so? When did she speak to Anna? Should I be mad at Lorelai or Anna? I don't what I feel anymore really. Frustrated,I kicked my trash can across the room. What will I do? My life doesn't seem real. It never seemed real unless she was there and she was in it. Maybe when I wake up everything will be fine.
I fell onto my bed and fell into a restless sleep.
I throw myself out of the car and run to the steps of the hospital. Several people give deranged looks. Well I would probably give myself one too. I run to the hospital and to the receptionist's desk.
"Excuse me. I'm looking for my mother. A Lorelai Gilmore. Tall. Smells like coffee I say begging silently
"Any details of why she was admitted?" The snotty nurse said looking in a file.
"Um...she was in a car accident at the corner of maple in Hartford. She had to go into extreme surgery." I said spouting random information
"You're her daughter?" She confirmed looking up from a file.
"Yes." I said in a shaky voice.
"She just came out of surgery. She's in serious but stable condition. She's housed in room 708 and she's not conscious right now. If you wait outside her room,I guarantee her doctor Miss West can and will give you more information." The now warm looking nurse recited.
"Thank you so much. So i can head on up to the room?" I asked in small voice
"Yes. Floor seven." The nurse said
I gave a small nod and headed up to floor seven. As I went up through the elevator,the nurse's words echoed through my head. Serious but stable? Unconscious? More information? I wanted to cry.
My mom who sat by my bedside when my caterpillar died was in serious but stable condition. My mom who helped me to wallow when I broke up with my boyfriend was unconscious. My mom who loved me unconditionally no matter how much I messed up had a doctor called Miss West who knew more about my mother than me.
The elevator pinged and the door opened showing up the seventh floor. With shaky legs I headed to the dreaded room of 708 which was writing in golden lettering. My shaking hand on the door knob rattled as I opened the door to reveal A Lorelai Gilmore.
Mom.
She was lying in bed,eyes closed as if she was dead. She had several scars all over her face and neck and instead of a sunny smile greeting me,bandages all over her forehead,nose,cheek and leg did. Her hair. It was usually bouncing and kicking but today it was plain and flat. I moved closer to her and held her hand. Gripping it cautiously,I realised her hands were weak and fingers were bonier than usual.
I let her hand go. And turned on my heel. This was too much to handle. I couldn't do this. Not alone,no I couldn't.
"I need to call people." I mumbled to myself
Sitting on chair outside the waiting room,I flipped my phone and started calling everyone. Sookie. Lane. Grandma and grandpa. Patty. Babette. Michel. Even Taylor. Even Liz and TJ. Everyone needed to be here. And I couldn't do this otherwise. Even Luke. But I couldn't it was mom's wish. Is I call about ten to fifteen people,the person I want here the most showed. Jess. He shows up in a denim jacket and his now slick and professional haircut. I stared at him,not actually believing that he was here. He was here.
I stared at him again,speechless. He said nothing and took me in a hug. As I start crying into his shoulder,he pulled me tighter. The smell of him overpowered my senses. Pulling apart,we both sat down and I told Jess everything. From mom and Luke breaking up to the phone call,to how my mom had closed her eyes as if she was dead.
As I cried heavily into his shoulder,he murmured to me "She's a fighter. No way she's not going to wake up. She'll fight."
I looked up into his warm caramel orbs,full of hope and light, "Really?"
"Hey" He looked into my sky blue orbs as I looked into his eyes "You are Lorelai Leigh Gilmore. The kickass woman I fell in love with and possibly still love so much that it's too much for my heart to take. Stay strong,Rory. You can and will survive. Lorelai believes in you. I believe in you. And you can and have to." He gave me a look that I was too familiar with and gave my hand a squeeze. He smiled and said with a small tremor in his voice "Can I see her? Will you be okay?"
"Of course." Giving a weak smile,he stalked into room 708.
"Rory?" A shrill almost hysterical voice said
I turned to reveal my grandmother and father. I hugged grandpa tightly and soon after the whole stars hollow crowd. Patty,Babette,Liz,TJ,Sookie,Michel,Taylor,Lane and to my surprise Luke.
I looked at him with a little spark of anger. What had he done to mom? No. I couldn't do this. Not now. Not in the hospital.
Okay. I pulled my attention back to everyone. Sookie and Michel went to look or hunt down Miss West and drag her over here to give us more information. Patty and Babette went in after Jess to see mom. Lane helped me scope out a few things for mom when she wakes up. If she does. No. She will wake up. Everyone else went to cancel plans or find a few more things.
Before Lane and I go out looking for stuff for mom,Liz appears in front of me.
Without precaution,Liz enclosed me in a tight bear hug. "Oh honey! Everyone and thing is going to be fine. Ok?"
Slightly surprised by this sudden act of affection,I gave her a small firm smile "I know. Let's go,Lane!" I said to Lane,as we stalked off to scope out a few things.
Lorelai. Oh god. Lorelai. I can't believe this. She was in the hospital room recovering from surgery. Surgery. The last time I saw her was...well tonight and the last memory I had of her was a tear stricken face,full of disappointment and hatred. And then a horrible thought strikes me.
This all could be my fault.
If I had talked or not yelled or not had a narrow minded attitude,she might have not gotten into in her car and she wouldn't have been here right now. No one would be.
When Liz called me I honestly thought I had a heart attack. All I saw was Lorelai's face just like the first time I saw her at seventeen. Quirky,peppy and just her. With her coffee cup and little wool cut beanie and weird obsession for Casablanca. I remember her. And I love her. We haven't seen each other really. She probably hates me. I miss her. What if she was dead?
Rory. She barely even looked at me. She probably knew it was my fault. Everyone knows about our breakup by now. It's was a quite a break up.
I couldn't do this. I needed her. It breath and to see clearly I needed her. No one else, no substitutes just her.
As I sat in the corner,waiting for everyone to leave or eventually shuffle away I noticed out of the corner of my eye a certain nephew of mine. Jess. What was he doing here? Wasn't Jess supposed to be in Philly? And then it dawned on me. Rory.
Well seems like the both of us were suckers for the Gilmore Girls.
As everyone cleared out,I timidly went into the room. As I closed the door behind me I watched the woman I loved as she lied in bed. Wounded. Helpless. Just Not Lorelai Gilmore. Lorelai Glimore smelled like coffee. She had bright blue orbs that could light up a stadium. She had the voice of a nightingale and the smile of her. They was no other way to describe it. It was...Lorelai Gilmore. And I loved her.
"Lorelai.." I whispered to her timidly moving closer to her "I'm sorry. I was a jerk. I love you. You were the only one who make me crack a smile or laugh at a dumb joke.I bought your favourite clothes and you pretended to like my flannel outfits. You light me up and made me the person I am. Remember when I told you when we first met. It was at Luke's. It was at Lunch." I started to say,remembering her reaction when I first told her "And then this person comes. She's in a caffeine frenzy. Wild eyed begging for coffee. I'm with a customer. She interrupts I tell to wait her turn. And then she starts following me around,talking a mile a minute saying...well god knows what. So finally I turn to her and tell her she's being annoying. Shut up,sit down. I'll get to her when I get to her. So then she asks me when my birthday is. I wouldn't tell her. And then she keeps on asking. So I finally tell her my birthday. She opens the newspaper to the horoscope section,tears out a piece of paper. And on Scorpio she has written you will met an annoying woman today. Give her coffee and she'll go away. But she didn't. And I'm glad. I love you Lorelai Victoria Gilmore. And..well just promise me you'll wake up soon." I squeezed her hand a the last bit.
I let go of her hand and I walked away. As I closed the door behind,Lorelai slowly opened her eyes and said
"I love you so much Lucas William Danes."
She then closed her eyes and went back to sleep.
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