Author's Note: Hello before i get this started. i would love it if somebody would message me so i can bounce ideas for this story off of them. currently im sort of stuck on what values to give skills and what said skills actually do. like if you infuse aura into say your legs would that give a general boost to your legs reinforcing your physical build? like would a body builder only gain strength while say an assassin would gain say agility. its small topics like this i need to discus to build a proper foundation for this story. so feel free to say something to me. I dont write often so if there is a pause in my uploads expect sporadic updates at best.

Also before you go hating on the mc for being all suicidal and crud atm but not after he is reborn think about it like this its a new life and the possibility of knowing future events gives purpose. the major thing that made the mc feel suicidal is a lack of purpose. like everything he does no matter how much effort means nothing. this is relevant for character progression later on.

In a dark room a boy lays in bed brooding, lost in suicidal thoughts brought by depression.

'Life feels pointless… I can't see anything turning out alright.. What's the point of going to school, getting a job? Where is the payout? What am i working towards?

I have no goals… Hah.. Funny... i guess i can only blame myself for that… i mean hard to have ambitions when to avoid pain i crushed all hopes cause you can't hurt when your hopes are crushed before they are beyond idle thoughts…

Though thinking back i would rather have expectations allways dashed, hope always broken then have this meaningless existence… I mean having hope is so much better than living a empty life full of misery…

i am sort of envious of the religious types at least they can delude themselves to have a purpose a meaning in life when all that they truly value fails them… Their god their afterlife the punishments on the soul for suicide that they preach as a sad but effective means to give suicide a stigma of not socially acceptable through religious doctrine..

I see the beauty of religion but all i see is clever lies told to guide the general masses when humanity needed such things much as we still do in some cases but the lies piled up the truth bleeds through…

Perhaps once upon a time some being did do such acts as recorded in mythological texts which im including all religious texts cause i don't discriminate christians want to put ancient greek religious texts that are the equivalent to their bible stories as mythological texts but not their bible? Pure hypocrisy.

Though i seem to have gone off on a tangent where was i… oh yeah trying to figure out how to end it… There are many ways i could end it.. A knife the the throat but… i don't think i have the willpower to overpower my self preservation instincts… i may need to find a way to end it fast and easy so it doesn't require prolonged effort cause im bound to fail and lose my chance to take my life…

Perhaps a gun? Maybe ask somebody im on good terms with that has been to prison in the past if they know where a drug dealer is so i can buy one off him to end it.. No the risk of getting caught and prison time… i want it to be fast and easy prison is not that…

Take too many pills? I don't think i have the kind of pills that would kill me if i overdose.. Just a bunch of painkillers and antihistamines maybe they could but it would take a while and a lot while also more likely to sedate me to sleep instead of kill me..

There is always rope… well power cords and extension cords.. But that is slow and painful only good thing about it is that it takes away my ability to wimp out mid way… i… think i'll sleep on this and figure out what i plan on doing tomorrow…'

He then dies of a heart attack in his sleep.