TITLE: Winter's Last Moments
AUTHOR: Themious/Jade L.C.
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PAIRING: Harry/Regulus, Severus/OFC, Severus/Remus, James/Lily, Lily/Severus
RATING: M
DISCLAIMER: Harry Potter belongs to J. K. Rowling. No profit is being made from this fiction story. No infringement intended etc
SUMMARY: AU magical,Slash. How everything in the Wizarding world came about and how it helped Harry become who he is and able to defeat Voldemort.
CATEGORY: (AU – Magical, Romance, Action/Adventure, Angst, Dark, Drama, Mystery, Pre-Slash, Romance, Suspense)
WARNINGS: (Ambiguous, Pre-Slash, Slash, Character Death, M-Preg, Established Relationship, sexual content, including underage content)
NOTES: This fiction is currently a WIP; let me know what you think.
BETA: currently my self, any volunteers?
ARCHIVING: and my LJ soon
CHAPTER: 1/? In The Beginning
1961 - March
It was a cold gloomy day in Spinners' End and six-year-old Severus Snape was moping about at the Muggle Park because he knew that if he went home he would be punished by his father, because his mother was no longer alive. She had died a week ago from a sudden head wound caused by his father. The only thing he had left of his mother was her old Hogwarts Gobstones Set. It was 2 months after his birthday when she died.
When Severus was born, no one thought him to be very special. Not even his own father thought him remarkable. His mother was the only person in Severus's small life who thought about him at all.
Only his mother, whom he held the fondest memories of, would ever know of his special gift. She did after all, have the sight, all dark elves did. She knew that he would do great and dangerous things and she would have to let him do them because she knew she wouldn't be with him for long because she loved and abusive muggle man. He would be the reason for her death.
That was why she sometimes had her simultaneously cross and sullen moods that seemed even worse with her heavy brows and long ashen face. The man she loved would cause her death, how dreary a thought.
Severus walked around the park alone in his miss-matched clothes that seemed to be three sizes too large for his thin frame and the collar of his shirt was always falling over his shoulder, and he was constantly tugging it back up. He had long black hair that seemed to curtain his thin face from the world, and hide his intense black eyes that were so full of hurt.
He was watching the ground so intently that he was upon the small arguing group of children his age before he noticed them. He surly would have avoided them if he had seen them before hand.
There were four children in a small group, two girls and two boys. The girls were thin, with light skin and waist length hair one was red with green eyes and the other brownish red with grey eyes. The boys were tanned and chubby with matching grey eyes and short dirty blond hair.
The girl with brown hair was tugging at the smaller girl's shirt. "It's not worth getting in trouble for Lily," the other girl pleaded. "We don't need to do anything, they can have my doll, I don't need it anymore anyway, it's broken now." said the same girl with brown hair as she continued to hold her sister's hand.
The girl with red hair and the most beautiful green eyes that were spitting fire as she took her hand and pointed at the boys who were laughing doubled over with a doll head in one hand and the body on the ground. "They have to pay for breaking your doll! Don't you want to have it back? They called you a bad name! Petunia you don't have to be fearful all the time! It was a present from Mummy!" Lily called to her, and the other girl let a tear fall.
Lily turned on the other boys who were running to her sister with a worm chanting a mean taunt, after Petunia let out a scream from seeing the worm. When she saw the boys running full force toward her sister Lily stomped her foot. As soon as her foot connected with the ground there was a loud boom and the boys fell to the grass with boils on their faces' and slimy worm guts covering their clothes. Lily had the perfectly fixed doll in her hands and she hadn't moved and inch from where she was.
Petunia and Lily left the sandbox, and the slimy boys next to it, and ran to the swings to play giggling like no tomorrow about the gross boys.
Severus, who was standing behind the tree, saw the whole thing take place and knew what the girl, he now knew was named lily, had just done was accidental magic. He made up his mind right then and there to get to know those girls, especially the one with hair like fire and eyes like emeralds, Lily. She was something special.
1966 - January
Lily was having upsetting thoughts about Severus's home life and asked him about his father, his reply was "He doesn't like anything, much." With his eyes downcast, he traced a line in the ground with his worn trainer.
Lily answered with a frown on her delicate face "There has to be something that he likes, Severus, It can't really be just because you can do magic and he can't, what is the reason he despises you so much?"
"No it's more than that, he blames me for all his bad fortune, and I'm the reason that he hasn't made anything of himself, that he can't do as he pleases and go where he wants. He sees magic as evil; my mother lied to him about it at first." Severus answered as he held his Hogwarts letter tight to his chest as if he thought his father would mysteriously appear and rip it from his hands.
Lily sat on the swing and tried to imagine what Severus's life was like at home, but her own life was fairly ordinary and loving and no matter how hard she imagined it never seemed as bad as it should. So finally she got up and hugged Severus as tight as she could manage. "Severus, I want you to promise that no matter what we will always protect each other. I don't want you to be like your father. I can't lose you!" Lily sniffled with barely concealed dread.
Severus looked at Lily, she was innocent and kind, and he would do everything he could to protect her from harm. In that moment while Severus was watching Lily, he received a feeling of apprehension like he could feel him emotions at her death, and knew he would always do what was essential to protect her. He knew something was coming; something bad and they would be in the heart of it all.
With a deep breath he took out a small but thick pocket knife and cut his right hand near the thumb then held it out to Lily to do the same, which she did. They clasped hands, blood mixing and a bond was formed with magic as they promised to always protect each other, to do what was best for the other, and to be their for the other no matter what the future held.
The young magical children didn't count on themselves being the cause of anything spectacular that would happen to the wizarding world, or that they would be the one's to bring about the massive revolution, all because of a promise to each other.
It was the bond they created in their unintentional rite that would change things for the future; they just didn't know weather it was for better or worse.
"Lily." Severus mumbled, as he made himself comfortable.
"What is it Sev?" Lily asked him with a look worry on her porcelain face. She had never seen him like this before, so serious.
"Why are you my friend? I'm not a good person at all." Severus asked, looking ashamed of himself for even having to ask her.
Lily look affronted, she took a deep breath and paused a moment to collect her thoughts. "You're my friend. I would do anything for my friends. I don't have many but I like the ones I have. You and Petunia. You are the best person I know, just because you don't like showing your feelings doesn't mean you're not a good person. I'm glad to know you and that you accepted me as a friend. Not the other way around." Lily gave Severus her best smile and he returned it.
Severus thought a moment about what she had said and he still didn't think he was worth the effort it took to be his friend but knew he would never get rid of her, so he would never try. It was in this moment that he knew he loved Lily Evans.
The two young magicians were still deep in conversation about the Wizarding world and what they thought it would be like when Lily's Sister, Petunia showed up. She had come to retrieve her sister and her friend so they could go the zoo for Lily's birthday. Lily wanted to see the monkeys, Severus the Komodo dragon.
1966 – July – Hogwarts Shopping
Lily was in Diagon Alley getting her supplies for school with her family and Severus. He was the only one who really knew the Alley after all. Severus's mother used to bring him here all the time before she died.
They had come last year to get Petunia's things and they had fallen in love with it because it seemed so full of culture and life.
Severus was there with them because his father was out of town again on business at least that was the reasons he gave to the Evans this time. Severus knew it was because he didn't want a reminder of what he couldn't do or that he was lied to, about magic by his wife whom he was suppose to be able to trust.
Lily, Severus, and Petunia were all together getting their things as Petunia had started Hogwarts last year and needed to get her new course books, some longer robes, and replacement potions ingredients.
The last stop was Ollivander's for Lily and Severus's wands, while Petunia went to get their books with their mother and father.
Ollivander's "Makers of Fine Wands since 382 B.C," read the little sign over the shabby little shop with peeling letters and a window display made up of a single wand resting on a purple cushion.
Upon entering the stop they were startled by Mr. Ollivander as he was silent as he approached them, from the back as both children admired the wands on display in a glass case to the right. There were wands with wood so light they looked like pure sunlight and others so dark they reminded the two young children of midnight. On the every wall, floor to ceiling, thousands of narrow boxes lined them with marks so they could be recognized by their maker.
Mr. Ollivander was so strange to the minds of the two because they had spent so much time in the muggle world. His eyes were like moonlight and his fading appearance and light skin made him appear almost inhuman.
"Here for your wands?" Mr. Ollivander asked and at the nods from them both he spelled two measuring tapes and went about gather boxes from the wall.
"I don't believe I know your parents miss…" Mr. Ollivander looked to Lily to supply here name.
"Lily Evans, it's nice to make your acquaintance Mr. Ollivander. I'm a muggle born."
"It's nice to meet you as well; I hope you will find good times in the Wizarding World and flourish." He said as he handed her a light colored wand, after she waved it he yanked it from her hand and handed a completely different wand to Severus.
"It's also a pleasure to make your acquaintance young Prince. It's a shame about your mother's passing. How are you faring? Your mother's wand was snappy and great for divination. Oak and Demiguise eye, 9 inches." Mr. Ollivander said as he was pushing up the new stack of boxes as he continued to test the wands on the first years.
Severus had a pained look on his face when his mothers wand was mentioned, mostly because of the way his father snapped it after her death, but quickly hid it as he answered, "I am faring well, I have been better. Thank you for asking." At that moment Lily's wand gave a great burst of flames as the air shifted and blew a wall of boxes down.
"Ahh hah, it seems we have found your wand Ms. Evans, birch and unicorn tail hair wonderful for charms." Mr. Ollivander stated as he cleared away the boxes he had as potential wands for Lily to try.
Moments after Lily found her wand Severus found his in a blast of air that shattered the plaster on the walls and left water dripping from the candles. It was Birch and Demiguise hair, great for the arts of the mind, and staying unseen, or so Mr. Ollivander mentioned before they were gone.
Lily and Severus paid for their wands and quickly left the shop that made them so uncomfortable. They hurried to meet Lily's parents at the robe shop before they headed to the ice cream parlor and then headed home.
As the young duo left the wand shop, Mr. Ollivander was chuckling quietly to himself because he had found a rare treasure among those who received their wands. He had discovered a set of compatible souls. They were going to make quite an impact on the wizarding world, they brought about change.
Mr. Ollivander was still pondering on the future when a new customer walked in and with a few flicks of his wand and quietly mumbled spells he had fixed the plaster, dried the room, straightened out the boxes as they re-stacked themselves, and a new coat of paint found itself over the scorch marks above the counter.
1966 – September 1 – To Hogwarts
The train ride to Hogwarts had been uneventful for both Severus and Lily. The only problem had been when a muggle noticed Severus go through the platform 9¾. That had been dealt with swiftly by the Auror's, put in place for such issues, and all was forgotten.
They had made another friend by the name of Remus Lupin on the train, and it was he and another blond haired boy whom told them to call him Teddy rode across the lake with them in the tiny boats.
The boat had Lily nervous, remembering the time she had been throne overboard and into the ocean during a fishing trip when a sudden storm caught them unaware and almost drowned. As it turned out she didn't have to worry, it wasn't she who found herself in the lake but a bully by the name of James Potter who was pulled overboard by the giant squid for pulling its tentacle.
Lily was breathless when she saw the castle she was to call home and school until graduation. Her eyes twinkled like molten emeralds and her face spoke volumes about her happiness. It her silent delight she had grabbed Severus hand as they walked up to the castle doors and were admitted by the Deputy Headmistress Minerva McGonagall.
She was wearing a green robe that enhanced her shape and made her look stern at the same time. She had her hair pulled back in a severe bun and a wizard's hat.
All of the first year students shuffled into the castle and lined up against the front wall to listen to what the head mistress had to say. She warned them all to be on there best behavior for their sorting and that any misconduct would be dealt with swiftly.
"Welcome to Hogwarts," said Professor McGonagall. "The start-of-term banquet will begin shortly, but before you take your seats in the Great Hall, you will be sorted into your houses. The Sorting is a very important ceremony because, while you are here, your house will be something like your family within Hogwarts. You will have classes with the rest of your house, sleep in your house dormitory, and spend free time in your house common room."
She continued, "The four houses are called Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, and Slytherin. Each house has its own noble history and each has produced outstanding witches and wizards. While you are at Hogwarts, your triumphs will earn your house points, while any rule breaking will lose house points. At the end of the year, the house with the most points is awarded the House Cup, a great honor. I hope each of you will be a credit to whichever house becomes yours."1 After her small speech she led them thought a set of double doors into the Great Hall.
The Great Hall was magnificent. It was lit by thousands and thousands of candles which were floating in the air over four long tables, where the rest of the students were sitting. The ceiling showed the sky above as if there was no roof to the colossal room. There was a raised platform with a table on it where most of the teachers now sat, leaving one chair opened, presumably where McGonagall would sit when finished. There were four tables, one for each house and all of the students seated at the tables turned to follow the progress of the first years.
Then Professor McGonagall left the room and returned with a three legged stool and on top of the stool she put a pointed wizard's hat. The hat was patched and frayed and extremely dirty. But at that very anticlimactic moment, the brim of the hat lifted revealing a rip, and the hat began to sing.
Its many years in the making
For the sordid sorting hat
(That's me)
It's been so long
That I had to find
A lovely little treat
There's nothing hidden in your head
That I won't consider because
I have to make you
Take your place
Where ever it shall be
Many play a thin line
In their satisfying qualities
But your place will always be found
Whether it's with the
Strong of heart
You shall go to brave Gryffindor
The hard working
Loyal to the Hufflepuff
The ready minded
Wise to the Ravenclaw
Or maybe you'll make your real friends
Those cunning folk who achieve their ends
The Slytherin
Four houses strong
No houses are wrong
But left unaided
All will fall
So take your true place
You'll never be alone
With the sorting hat on your head!
The first years didn't know what to think and the other students looked pensive of the hat before breaking into applause. Then Professor McGonagall took out a list and began calling out names to come forward to be sorted into their houses.
"Aesalon, Cesar" was called first up and he went to Ravenclaw. Also in Ravenclaw was Bulstrode, Addison: Black, Andromeda: Dippet, Anthony: Prewett, Gideon: Prewett, Fabian: Rookwood, Augustus: Zabini, Kach: Daniels, Kristen: Byrd, Skye and of course Evans, Lily.
Abbott, Seaton was sorted into Hufflepuff along with Bones, Edger: McKinnon, Marlene: Nott, Sorel: Parkinson, Murielle: Patil, Linette: Rowle, Nephihah: Rowle, Adaia: Travers, Phillip: Wilkes, Maira: Yaxley, Lana
"Snape, Severus" was called and he was placed in Slytherin along with Ackerley, Saffron: Avery, Aedán: Carrow, Alecto: Dolohov, Antonin: Goyle, Gordon: Lestrange, Laila: Macnair, Walden: Nott, Madeline: and Rosier, Stone.
Many of the boys who had teased Lily and Severus on the train were sorted into Gryffindor and now Severus was glad Lily hadn't gone to that house like she had wanted, but to Ravenclaw.
A few first years who went to Gryffindor were Bagman, Blayton: Bell, Scarlet: Black, Sirius: Fortescue, Felecia: Lupin, Remus: Potter, James: Pettigrew, Peter: Scrimgeour, Rosalina: Weasley, Tibia
As many of the new first years settled down at their house tables they were congratulated by older siblings and friends who welcomed them to their house. Everyone was settling in to eat after the Headmaster gave his habitual beginning of the year speech asking everyone to not go into the Forbidden Forest, their was no magic in the halls and that this year the Herbology teacher had planted a Whomping Willow on the grounds.
After the feast the house prefects took the first years to their house common rooms and then to their dormitories. As the Ravenclaw line passed the Slytherin's on their way to the dungeons, Lily gave Severus a smile of friendship that blazed through her eyes and settled.
With that smile Severus knew that if for any reason he needed her he could count on her. Severus's heart warmed a bit because even though he knew he could, that he never would burden her unless necessary. Severus also made sure that none of his emotions showed on his face, because after all, he was a Slytherin.
As a Slytherin Severus had to protect himself and hold his image as firm as ice. If he ever slipped it would be used against him to better others at his on detriment. No he must never falter in his deadly dance of the Machiavellian, because if he did it could mean any matter of harmful things could result. Maybe those who got hurt wouldn't just be he and that thought, along with Lily's lively green eyes, assisted him in his plight.
June – 1967 - Leaving Hogwarts
The school year had drawn to a close and all of the students of Hogwarts had made it through their first year. The first years had made friendships, passed their lessons, and had many wonderful experiences.
It was a quiet year with not much activity taking place besides the ruckus the Gryffindor boys mad with their pranks. They were always bothering Severus but Lily helped him get the back every single time.
Many didn't know it but the best of friends was two students of different houses, thought they keep it behind closed doors for the very reason they didn't want it to be used against them. After school, every summer they would have the muggle world to be the best of friends.
After the long train rides home the Lily, Severus, and Petunia were huddled close together on the muggle side of the train platform as they waited for Mrs. Evans to pick them up.
They had waited about 15 minutes when they heard Mrs. Evans call out to her oldest daughter and they congregated their luggage and trunks and piled it all into the car. Since Petunia was older by 1½ years she got to sit up front while Lily and Severus were in the back packed together with the smaller bags all around.
"How did you like Hogwarts Lily? Severus?" Mrs. Evans asked as she started the car and pulled into traffic on their way back to Spinners End.
Lily and Severus both started talking at once in and then calmed down after Mrs. Evans started laughing. Not to long after Lily and Severus were discussing Hogwarts Petunia joined in and added her own tails of Hufflepuff pleasure and woe.
They were all still blissfully discussing the topic of Hogwarts when they arrived home an hour later.
July – 1967- A Man's Death
A month later Severus arrived home after a late afternoon with the Evans family only to ascertain that there had been a terrible accident at his house. Someone had come to visit his father and later murdered him for his sullied transgressions.
After the entire occurrence was investigated by muggle and wizarding police alike it was determined that a muggle had killed his father after a he had tried to swindle him in a crooked game of cards.
Later the muggle police made an arrest, but only Severus and Lily knew what had really taken place on the night his father was murdered, and no one would ever find out. They had made another blood contract just for added protection.
Lily had helped him stage the scene, after Severus had killed his father after he was finished playing poker with his mob, so that no one would ever know that it was Severus whom almost died that night by his own father's hand. So at the age of 12 Severus had a partner in crime, and there would be hell to pay when they were pissed off together. United their wasn't a thing anyone could do to stop them.
After Severus's father's death he was taken in by the Evan's until he would be old enough to live on his own in the house his mother left him and he had never had such a good summer in his life. So good in fact he almost didn't want to return to Hogwarts…almost.
From then on Severus was always cared for full time, thought what had happened to him at the hands of his father would forever leave a vicious scar on his person, helping to shape the person he was to become.
It was never intentional on Severus's part but it was hard for him to achieve love with anyone besides Lily and it would later cause him to pull into himself becoming a bitter person when the only person to love and be loved by was gone.
January 9 – 1970 - the Party
Three years later
It was Severus's birthday and the Slytherin's had schemed and plotted to get him to Hogsmeade for his birthday. They had even invited some of the Slytherin's who had graduated last year. It was a school night an absolutely prohibited, but it was fun and they had gone through all the trouble, he would have a bloody good time, and maybe take Lily back a butter beer in the morning.
The night was cold as Severus creped through the January night air with Malfoy. When they arrived at the bar it was silent and as they opened the door, a room full of witches and wizards of varied ages were introduced and then the party began as the guest of honor had arrived.
Severus was handed a fresh fire whisky and he asked a lovely Pureblood, whom had graduated Hogwarts already, and began to dance.
Lucius was kissing up a lovely little vixen from 4th year, just a year below his own, and she was lovely indeed. She had blond hair and blue eyes and already the beginnings a body to die for.
Giving Lucius a smirk as he passed with Charity Grey the Pureblood from earlier, and entered a room purposely hidden behind some curtains just for the reason he was about to use it for.
Lucius had smirked back at him, clearly enjoying himself, and with a nod he and the witch he had been so intently kissing went back to join the festivities leaving the hall empty so they could have their privacy.
Severus was objective in his vaguely drunken state, and pushed the also slightly drunk witch onto the bed. Lying beside her he began to kiss her deeply, they were ravishing each other like they couldn't get enough of the other.
In no time at all Severus had disrobed her and she him. It their hurried and drunken state they didn't even notice as the charm Severus had cast for protection had not taken effect but failed under lack of flick of Severus's wand.
They were very much in the moment and with little to no room between them, its no wonder it went unnoticed, though not for long on Ms. Grey's part.
As Severus buried himself in her and began to move, both of them too far gone in the excitement to be concern about anything but the other person and finding their own satisfaction.
Severus came with a shout not long after Charity did and they lay there panting until they were strong enough to clean themselves up and they just lay there recuperating for a moment before they got dressed and joined the party again, only to end up once again on the bed naked and panting each others name until they found completion.
They joined the party not long after and Charity left the party after giving Severus a long kiss and well wishes for his birthday. She didn't know that she had a much greater gift for Severus growing within her womb.
It would be 2 weeks later she met her future husband and had sex with him. It was only a month before they were wed to hide the baby's conception so as not to arouse suspicion of sex before marriage. They both thought that the child was there own and after the child was born only then did Charity suspect that the child's father was non other that Severus Snape. She didn't want that getting out because it would ruin her current married and Severus as he was only 16 and still in school.
The next day
The next morning during his study block Severus found he was heading toward the Library with Lily's peace offering for not being able to take her with him.
It was a simple gift of a butter beer and chocolate, but not just any chocolate. It was Lily's favorite from Honeydukes, and he had gotten it special for her.
"Hey Lil's" Severus whispered as he slid into a chair across from Lily and passed her a brown bag. They were in a very shadowed and unused corner of the library so they would go unseen.
Lily with out looking up knew it was him and took the chocolate from the bag before moving it to her pocket and the remaining contents into her bag.
Lily opened the bar of specialty chocolate and snapped a piece off and into her mouth. When Lily finally looked up at Severus she looked a bit happier than she did when he first walked in.
"Hey Sev, how was last night?" Lily asked with an emotion in her eye that flitted by so fast Severus couldn't tell what it was.
"Great, Lil's! I wish you could have been there, it would have made it even better." Severus said and Lily knew it was true, he may have been a Slytherin but she had known him since they were 6-years-old.
"We knew it couldn't happen without revealing out friendship, but I'm pleased you had fun. Even if it didn't include redoing the pact what we usually do to celebrate our birthdays." Lily said as she popped another piece of chocolate into her mouth with a smile.
"Guess what happened Lil's, at the party!" Severus said with as much excitement as he dared showed in such a public place.
"What?" Lily asked as she gathered her papers and stuffed them in her text before snapping it shut and thrusting it into her pack and looking at Severus at the same time.
"You know who we promised to tell each other when we finally…you know 'did it'?" Severus asked as he helped carry her left over texts that wouldn't fit in her pack, and stood to leave to the Room of Requirement, so they could have somewhere safe and comfortable to talk in peace.
"Really Sev, that's great news, how was it? Were you nervous? Do you feel any different?" Lily inquired in a rushed voice that told of her interesting the subject.
They split up and went different ways until they reached the Room of Requirement before he answered her questions in detail about his first time.
"Lily for the third time no it didn't hurt her, we had spells for that and spells to make sure she didn't get pregnant or to prevent the magical equivalent of STD's. Now tell me what the matter is really?" Severus said in a voice that meant she should stop asking around what she really wanted to know.
"It's just that I don't know what it's like…can you teach me those spells you mentioned?" Lily asked with a small blush on her face.
Severus grew silent at her request and asked her who she wanted to have her first time with.
"I, umm I…I, Oh fine, with Gideon Prewett." She stated finally getting over her embarrassment.
"With that fool! He's no good how could you even consider him, to have what you want to give! Your first time should be special and tender not to be joked about as the next big prank, which is the only thing on his and his twin brother's minds…besides you that is. I won't teach you the necessary charms until I know that the person has your best interests at heart and approve." Severus shouted his voice rising and falling as he tried to control him emotions.
"Why are you so worried Severus, I just want to get it over with so I'm not so curious all the bloody time. It's not like you would approve anyone for the job anyways. So who do you think it should be, who should I set my sights on for the job of my de-flowering?" Lily asked with a slight hitch to her breath.
Severus settle down and acquired a contemplative look to his face before he answered in a quiet tone that Lily knew meant he was serious. "Your right, I don't think anyone at this school has your best interest at heart when it comes to this matter. If you don't mind and you really want to as badly as you say, I will do it."
Lily was shocked to silence before she opened her mouth to tell him that she only thought of him as a friend and not like that in the least, but before she could she was interrupted by Severus.
"Yes, I know I feel the same way, not at all like a love interest, but I know that I can do it and not hurt you and make it special for you at the same time. Who better than your best friend who to make your first time the best time? I will treasure the value of this gift and never mock you for it. I will never call on it again, because you are my bestest." Severus said with a gleam that told Lily all to well why he wanted it special for her.
"It would be better this way, and this approach would allow for the best possible person to take the job. Severus, I accept." Lily said as she approached Severus who was sitting on a couch that turned into a bed as need because it was the Room of Requirement.
In their inattentiveness they didn't detect the magical shift in the atmosphere that surrounded them as they joined in a passionate yet affectionate manner.
It was just as Severus said, after that day, he never called on anything of that nature from Lily and it wasn't desired, Just as it wasn't before and never would be again. Every Slytherin knows you never send a fool to do a snake's job. That was the last that the matter was ever discussed between them and Severus taught her all the charms she needed to be safe in any other encounters.
All that afternoon they were missing from their last class but none were too worried for they showed up at dinner time and they were the better for it and the next class they turned in the work they had missed. Severus was safe in the knowledge that the most valued person in his life was happy and she wouldn't go around giving a gift like her first time to a con who wouldn't appreciate it for what it was even if he wasn't particular in continuing a relationship of that nature with Lily.
February – 1970 – The Worthless Die
Severus was pleased to be included in his Pureblood heritage after all the effort he put into it. He had executed all of his plans effortlessly and they had fell for it just as he had previously arranged.
They had contacted him after he caught the Dark Lords' eye and he had been courted over to their thinking and he wanted to help them achieve all that they had whispered into his hospitable ear.
He would be joining the Pureblood movement officially. He was to be initiated into the Death Eaters the coming weekend.
He was fiercely proud of himself for getting himself noticed and he was perhaps overconfident in his knowledge of what exactly the Pureblood movement was all about.
Severus thought it was about helping the pure gain back all of the authority they had lost when Muggle born students rose in number. How they had, in their lack of secrecy, caused the decline of the magical race, and magic in general. He thought by making in possible for only the magical to be included in the magical world and keeping the muggles in the dark by kidnapping them and raising them in the Pureblood ways they would learn that it was necessary for the longevity of the Wizarding World.
If these ideals were actually what the Dark Lord were after maybe he wouldn't have so much resistance, but as it were, it was a front for something more despicable. The death of all muggles whom the Dark Lord thought beneath Purebloods and those like himself.
Severus wouldn't know until it was too late how wrong he was and it wouldn't be until after he had joined the Death Eaters that all of the mindless pain and killing he would be accountable for would hit home.
Two ½ weeks later
It was only two weeks after he was marked that Lily found out he had joined Lord Voldemort, after all he had changed his behavior radically trying to get over his shock at the deceit and all that was expected of him now as a new follower of Lord Voldemort.
It was awful to know that he was the cause of so many people's pain and suffering, that he was aiding in killing off his own race weather they deserved it or not. They had magic and they should live, why limiting their own gene pool by executing their own blood was essentially committing genocide.
Just the thought of it was ridiculous and how he had let them pull the wool over his eyes was a sore point for Severus.
Lily was smart and it didn't take her too long to realize something was wrong with Severus and confront him about it. At first he didn't want to tell her about it as he had to uphold his image and it would be had when he didn't have Lily behind him anymore. He wasn't fool enough to imagine she would stick around after she realized what he had done.
Severus was right to assume that Lily wouldn't stick around long enough to explain, because she didn't. As soon as he showed her the Dark Mark she had ran off with tears in her eyes that had broken his already shattered heart at the loss of his unofficial soul sister.
Lily wouldn't give Severus the time of day for the rest of the school year and it want until after O.W.L's that Severus could convince her to hear him out so he could explain the whole situation to her, that he wasn't really such a horrible person he just wanted change but he knew the way he was going about it was completely wrong.
June – 1970 - Man in the Mirror
It was June and the time had come for Severus to tell Lily everything. He told her what he had been doing and what he had become. To say she wasn't pleased was an understatement of the severest degree.
"Severus, how could you join that madman? He wants to kill those with blood like mine? How could you agree? Does he even know your half-blood?" Lilly asked her vivid green eyes filling with tears.
Severus felt ashamed of himself, how could he have done such a thing? To say he regretted it was like saying the ocean was wet.
As she gazed into his eyes she saw his regret but as she turned to walk away from Severus, as she had so many times after he told her he had joined the Death Eaters in February, Severus made a split second decision and told her everything. He would never know that his split second decision would affect the rest of his life and Lily chose to listen.
He told Lily how he felt unworthy because of his father's treatment and the justice they provide and he had joined Voldemort and the Death Eaters to get over the remorse and in the beginning he had felt superior, and had felt he belonged to something true and pure, but in the end he had only made it worse. In the end he had found out the truth of what they were truly working for and even though it had made sense, it wasn't true.
Lily saw his truth and knew only a portion of the blame he placed on himself since his father's murder. Lily made up her mind immediately and persuaded him to go to the Headmaster for protection and guidance.
I took about ten minutes to get from the Room of Requirements, where they always withdrew to when showing their familiarity, to the Headmasters office.
The whole way they never encountered anyone else because it was the last Hogsmead visit before the summer break and almost everyone allowed to go, had gone and the younger years were all at a Gobstones Tournament in the Ravenclaw wing.
When they reached the office for the Headmaster, they realized they didn't have the password until Lily remembered the universal prefect password.
Lily held onto Severus's hand as tightly as she could as if she thought he would suddenly take everything back and run off if she let go and they slipped through the statues and onto the revolving staircase.
Lily hoped the Headmaster would be back from lunch already as it wasn't that long after lunch usually finished in the Great Hall.
When they finally reached the top of the stairs they followed the short passageway to the door of the Headmaster's office and Lily raised her hand to the door, shot a quick at Severus and knocked firmly.
"Come in." commanded, Headmaster Dumbledore.
Severus was closer to the handle and opened the door and they entered with a slight shuffle.
"Yes, what can I help you with this enchanting afternoon?" Proclaimed the Headmaster as he waved a hand toward the chairs opposite his desk for them to take a seat, then offered them a lemon drop.
Lily looked as Severus as silently asked him if he wanted her to start talking or did he want to start the conversation, with a nod from Severus, Lily began.
"Severus thought joined a dangerous group after he was tricked into believing that what they wanted to accomplish was what he also wanted, only to find out later it wasn't." Lily commenced as she watched her words carefully so the Severus wouldn't be carried straight to Azkaban for his treachery to the Wizarding World.
The headmaster looked solicitous for a moment, "Severus, how did you feel after you realized that the aims were not the same?" he continued "Was it your choice to come to me after you grasped what was truly going on, do you beyond a doubt regret your choice?"
Severus paused, wondering how truthful he should be but finally answered, "When I realized I was deceived I didn't know how to get out of it, I still don't know if it's possible, but it was defiantly my choice after it was suggested. I don't want to continue hurting other people for something that they can't change like blood purity!" He finished his voice rising in continuation of what he was speaking of.
Lily was sting stiff on the edge of her chair, wringing her hands tightly, wondering what the Headmaster would say in response, she decided she would help him if the Headmaster didn't.
"Mr. Snape, have you been involved with the recent muggle born murders?" Dumbledore demanded sternly as he leveled a look at Severus.
"I have Headmaster; I have no wish to continue any of those actions if possible. I-I don't like blood purity as much as I thought I would." Severus answered truthfully.
"I could call the Aurors now and you would be taken to Azkaban. Why have you come to me?" the headmaster demanded.
"I had hoped you might be able to help me out of the situation I have found myself into, I might be able to offer information on the organization in return for safeguarding from Azkaban and the members of the organization." Severus mumbled.
"That might be wise would you be willing to go deeper into the ranks of the Dark Lords Army to gain more effective evidence to save countless others in return for what it is you seek and by default help make up for your part in the deaths of other?" asked the Headmaster seriously.
"That's sounds like and agreeable exchange, I can provide that service and any other that you seek of me if necessary." Severus proposed.
"That is in itself a task of great promise to me. If you do as you say I can provide you with the tools you will find essential to you post as spy to Voldemort." Dumbledore added slightly astonished by Severus's acquiescence.
Dumbledore continued, "It will be after he is defeated that you will be completely free of his rule, not before then unless in death. He never gives up one of his own." He looked more serious as he said this.
Lily spoke up, "Doesn't that mean he will be in danger constantly?" She had a worried look on her face.
"Yes that will be indisputable Ms. Evans; it is the nature of the work he will be doing for the Light to win and it will save many lives that otherwise might have been forfeited. He made a decision to join the fanatical Dark Lord albeit it's because he was mislead. He is again making another decision to right the wrong he feels he has committed." The headmaster answered her with the twinkle flaring full force in his eyes event though he was speaking of something so grave.
"It is exactly as he says Lily, I don't mind if my bad choice can be used to better the Lights side of defeating the Dark Lord. I won't be able to talk to you at school at all now maybe not even during the summer; I hope you can forgive me." Severus added to the Headmasters speech.
Lily gave him a hug, and with teary eyes said, "It will be alright, I don't mind as long as you promise to be careful, you're like my brother and I do need you to stay alive. Just…don't do anything dense unless it's unavoidable please." She wiped her eyes as she pulled away.
"I don't want you to slip up in your position as precarious as it is already until the time is right and we can protect the information we already have." Lily added to her previous statements to Severus.
Lily stood and walked to the door, "I don't think I need to know anything else for know. I don't want to put you in danger if I can help it. Good afternoon Headmaster, later Severus. Keep me posted will you, I'll worry." Lily gave a brilliant smile that made her watery emerald eyes bright with life and made to walk out of the door when she was stopped by the Headmaster.
"Ms. Evans, I know it will be hard ignoring a good friend you consider a brother but winter's last moments are carving a path for spring and your spring time in life will come. Have a good evening; I hope to see you in the Great Hall for dinner. The Headmaster divulged with great mystery and great foresight.
Lily just nodded and slipped silently out of the door shutting it softly behind her after a last glance toward Severus, knowing it would be a long time before she could embrace her brother again.
Severus was in Headmaster Dumbledore's office for another hour before he left with everything worked out for now and strict orders to learn to protect his mind with Occlumency. That wasn't all Severus planned to learn to perfect his place at the Dark Lord's side.
It was at dinner that night that the Headmaster was much happier about the war that before it. He had a spy in that ranks of Voldemort and that could make all the difference in the result of the war.
He looked over at Severus sitting with a seventh year, Lucius Malfoy by the looks of it and with his eyes twinkling he scanned the Great Hall until he found Lily, she was sitting with her sister Petunia at he Hufflepuff table, looking for all the world as if she had lost someone dear, her sister gave her comfort without knowing and she didn't need to know. That was the kind of person Petunia was.
The headmaster guessed that in her own way, giving up Severus for his own safety and others was the equivalent to losing him, at least for now.