Preface-
It was torture. Pure torture. Having to live with yourself, knowing you were the reason all your family members were dead. All beacuse of you.
Hi. My name is Bella Swan and this is my life I like to call Hell.
It all started when He left me. It still hurt to think of him. But knowing that if he- as well as Them-were here, none of this mess would have even happened. I sighed knowing that it didn`t help to put myself through this torture to think about him. It didn`t help anything. It didn`t-can`t- change the past.
When I was human, I fell in love with a vampire. Ed-him. I still couldn`t say his name. Anyway, I was new to forks and not long after I settled down, me and Ed-him met and fell in love. It didn`t last long. Only about six months. But it was the best six months of my life. He was everything a girl could ask for. He was a gentlemen, he was caring, he protected me, and he loved me. It didn`t hurt that he was completley gorgous.
I always knew he was to good for me. He always told me it was the other way around. Guess I had it right the first time. His final words to me always made their presense in my mind.
I`m to good for you Bella. I`m sorry.
I winced. I hated it when i thought of the words and/or my eighteenth-my last- birthday/birthday party.
As I looked out the plane window, I saw that we weren`t far from landing. Horray. I got to go back to the place where it all started. Lucky me.