Here is a story that is very different from anything I have ever written on fanfiction. Please give it a chance. I thought it would be kind of interesting to see where this story goes as it progresses. Please leave plenty of reviews! Praises and critiques are very welcomed.
Possibilities
Is it possible to be in love with two people at the same time? To feel an overwhelming nostalgia, for each person separately, and know that there is nothing that you could ever do to feel differently about either one of them. Feeling elated when the person is in close proximity to me, or whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Holding me close to them at night and feeling their heart beat against my back, or wiping my tears away and consoling me when the world sucks, as it tends to do often.
I never in a million years would have thought that this would be possible, but some how, something very innocent manifested its way into something very dangerous, and I can't stop. I love them both; I have to have them both. I can't choose, and deep down inside I don't want to.
I know when they find out about one another, everything is going to be a disaster and I probably will end up alone, broken hearted. So why not enjoy the ride now? Right? Why not do what makes me feel good, consequences be damned? I say this to myself hoping upon hope that it will make me feel better, but every time one of them leaves, the guilt eats away at me until I'm literally in physical pain.
I find myself in this very situation tonight. Awake in the early morning hours, his arm wrapped around me, and thinking the same thoughts I always do. 'How did I get myself into this situation, and how am I gonna get out of it'.
"Taylor are you up?" he whispered.
"Yeah Troy, I'm up….just thinking".
"What could you possibly be thinking about four o'clock in the morning" asked Troy checking his watch and yawning.
"It's not important" said Taylor kissing Troy on top of his forehead. "Why don't you go back to sleep, you have to be up in an hour" said Taylor.
"Well it has to be important if it's keeping you up like this" said Troy pressing the issue.
"Look, can you just drop it……for me" asked Taylor, giving him her best puppy dog eyes.
Troy could never resist Taylor's puppy dog face. It drove him crazy but he always ended up giving in and letting her have her way. "Alright, I'll drop it for now, only because I really want to kiss you" he said pulling Taylor close to him and engaging her in a passionate kiss.
The two started kissing more deeply as time went on. Taylor felt Troy's hand on her thigh while his other hand was caressing her breast. She started to moan aloud with pleasure. "Shhh Tay, before we get caught" whispered Troy kissing her in her spot. Before either one knew what was happening they ended up making love, for which seemed like the forth time that night. Troy was like a strong drug to her, no matter how much she tried to resist him, all he had to do was kiss her and they were right back in the place they both tried to avoid, in each other's bed.
"Taylor, your skin is so soft" moaned Troy, climbing off of her, and pulling her close to him. He started rubbing her back and placing small kisses on her face and neck.
"Troy, I swear you spoil me with your sweet talk" said Taylor. "You're going to be the end of me".
"And you the end of me my love, but I wouldn't have it any other way" he said kissing her lips.
"If you could have it any other way, would you?" asked Taylor stopping the kiss.
"What do you mean by that Tay?" said Troy releasing her and looking up at the ceiling.
"You know what I mean Troy" she said sternly. "If you could be with me, and only me, would you?" she asked.
There was an awkward silence. It seemed to happen of late, that any time they had one of their passionate love making sessions; it always ended up in an argument about the same thing, Taylor asking Troy to break up with Gabriella, and be with her, only her. She knew how to get to him, and she used it to her advantage any chance she had. Besides it relinquished some of the guilt she felt inside for doing the same thing he was, being with two people at the same time.
The awkward silence continued and Taylor had, had enough of this bull for one night. "You don't even love her Troy" she spat out at him while getting out of bed in search of her clothes. "Get your clothes on and get out before my dad wakes up for work and sees you" she said angrily.
"Taylor" said Troy.
"Troy I mean it this time, leave".
"Taylor it's complicated and you know it" said Troy trying to keep his temper under control.
"I don't care if it's complicated, you are the one that needs to fix it" she said to him quietly. "I did my part, I broke it off with Chad, and yet you still haven't dumped her. I'm tired of this shit Troy; I'm tired of being taken advantage of".
"I'm not taking advantage of you Taylor" said Troy getting out of bed. He walked over to her and pressed his body against hers.
"Yes you are!" she said quietly pushing him away. "I'm good enough for you to fuck, but not good enough for you to be seen in public with. Hurry up get your clothes on and get out. Come talk to me when you have finally made up your mind!" she said throwing his clothes to him. She walked out of her bedroom and down the stairs before he had a chance to answer. It was their usual routine that she would sneak him out of the house, before her dad woke up. She was standing by the front door, when he was dressed, holding it open ready for him to leave.
Troy went and stood right in front of her, "So you're not gonna let me explain anything" he asked.
"Troy there's nothing to explain. I'll see you when I see you" she said holding her hand in the direction of the front porch. Troy took it as his cue to leave, he placed a small kiss on top her forehead, even though she tried to turn away. "Alright Taylor, I'll will try". He walked outside and down the street towards his house trying to figure out what his next move would be.
Taylor closed the door and immediately felt a wave of guilt. She knew she was wrong for making him feel that way, but it was easier for her to direct her pain on to someone else, than deal with the fact that she had to make the same situation; Troy or my other love. Like he said, 'It's complicated' she thought to herself, as a few tears slid down her cheeks.
Taylor got herself ready for school in record time. She figured if she got there early she wouldn't have to be bothered by seeing Troy and Gabriella together in school, acting like the perfect couple, when she knew it wasn't the truth.
Once at school, she headed straight for the science lab to study and do the homework she didn't do the night before…. 'because of Troy and my lack of will power' she thought to herself. She walked straight into the lab and groaned soon as she entered the room. There was Troy sitting in her seat obviously waiting for her to arrive. She hated that he knew her so well.
"Bolton, I thought I told you to leave me alone" said Taylor.
"Well McKessie, after the last conversation we had, which really wasn't a conversation at all because you didn't allow me to speak, I figured, how could this day get any worse" he said.
"Arghhh! You are so exasperating".
"Yeah well, I guess that is how I am when I become frustrated. Look Taylor, I owe you an explanation, what I'm asking for is a chance for you to let me be totally honest with you" he said.
Taylor looked directly into Troy's eyes. She could never resist his gorgeous baby blues. "Fine Troy, say what you have to say".
"Tay, I have been falling in love with you for quite sometime now. I've accepted that and I'm totally fine with it. I have even accepted the fact that Gabriella was definitely not the 'one', like I thought she was. When we first started getting close, I didn't expect for things to go so fast. First we were just having really intimate talks in private, than we started kissing and making out, before I knew it we were making love, with no thought of the consequences and what it would do to our relationships. We knew we were wrong for cheating and that's why we decided to break up with our significant others."
"Yeah, yeah Troy, we've been through this before. That's why I broke it off with Chad, but some how you never got around to breaking up with Gabriella" said Taylor impatiently.
"I almost did Taylor" he said quietly.
"Yeah right Troy. You're full of bunk, you just wanted your cake and you wanted to eat it too" said Taylor angrily.
"Taylor, I found out that Gabriella was cheating on me" he said looking Taylor straight into her eyes.
"Wh….what".
"She was and still is cheating on me" said Troy a little more agitated.
Taylor started to pace around the lab a little. Troy watched as she walked around the room, thinking really hard. "Do you have anything to say?" asked Troy.
"I'm in shock Troy….I never thought Gabriella would do something like this" said Taylor crossing her arms over her chest. "But honestly Troy, were doing the same thing".
"Yes we are".
"So why are you so upset? You two have been growing apart for months" said Taylor.
"That's just it Tay! Remember I came to you trying to figure out what was going on between Gabby and me" asked Troy.
"Yeah…..but that was months ago Troy" said Taylor.
"That's just it! She's been cheating on me for months….plural Taylor. Months! You and I just became sexually intimate a couple of weeks ago! She's been screwing another dude months ago!" yelled Troy.
"Troy I'm sorry that she hurt you, but why are you still with her….dump her already, that way we both can stop feeling guilty for cheating, and you can stop being angry at her….especially when you are doing the same thing" said Taylor.
"I want to Taylor, I really want to. But I have to find out who this other dude is, I have to find out the reason why she would give up on our relationship, and I believe this guy holds all of the answers" said Troy.
"Why is it so important? Why can't you just let bygones be bygones, and let it go Troy?" asked Taylor.
"Because I feel like I've been played….I feel like a total loser. I feel like both Gabriella and this guy are laughing at my stupidity from afar. I want Gabriella to feel the exact same pain she caused me, I want her to know that when she wasn't looking or paying attention, I fell in love with her best friend, and what you and I share Taylor is a hundred times more better than anything she and I shared, or what she is sharing with that other dude" said Troy becoming flustered.
Taylor just stared at Troy. She honestly didn't know what to say, her genius couldn't help Troy out in this situation.
"I have one question Troy".
"Shoot" he said quietly.
"Did you only become close to me, because you wanted to get back at her? Did you have sex with me, just to hurt Gabriella?" asked Taylor while her voice trembled slightly.
"Taylor no, absolutely not!" said Troy crossing the room and quickly embracing Taylor into a hug. "What happened between us was so unexpected. Like I said before it happened so quickly, I never thought I could feel like loving somebody again, and you proved me wrong McKessie. I don't regret anything that has happened between us, and I hope you don't either. I love you Taylor, I never want to hurt you. You have to believe me" pleaded Troy.
"I believe you Troy, I'm just still a little apprehensive. I don't want to be used as a pawn in your little game" she said sternly.
"All I'm asking for is a little time, time to break up with her and time to fully get over her. Then you and I can start our relationship fresh. I don't want to keep hurting you Taylor, I just want you to understand where I'm coming from" said Troy.
Taylor took a deep breath and sighed. She knew she was setting herself up for failure but she just couldn't resist this boy. "Okay Bolton….I'll give you the time you need".
Troy grabbed Taylor into a deep kiss, which was "Thank You" enough for Taylor. "Look I have to go the gym this morning, you think we can hook up later, maybe watch a movie or something" he asked.
"Sure, now get outta here. I have to finish my homework" said Taylor.
"Alright, I'll see you later" he said giving her one last kiss and heading towards the door.
Once she knew Troy was gone for good, she finally settled down enough to get her homework done. She was almost complete when she heard the science lab door open. She looked up and a huge smile crossed her face.
"Good morning".
"Good morning to you Taylor. You look awfully radiant this morning".
"Why thank you. I guess it was because I saw your beautiful face" replied Taylor.
"Um…I guess that is reason enough to be happy" said Gabriella. She walked over to Taylor, grabbed her face and passionately kissed her. Taylor deepened her kiss as she put her arms around Gabriella's waist.
"I've missed you so much" moaned Gabriella as Taylor kissed her neck.
"I've missed you also" Taylor said between kisses. In the back of her mind she knew she was wrong…. 'but why not enjoy the ride' she thought to herself as she kissed Gabriella on the lips one more time.