It's moments like these ones that make being in love with you hard.

We're seated in your kitchen, well I am. You're toddling around, pulling things from the cupboards and fridge, putting it all together for a little late night snack and I, as usual, am sitting here watching.

Thinking.

Wishing.

I see the way your hair falls down past your shoulders and curls in just the perfect places. No matter we've just finished a long day at work, you still look stunning, as always.

Right now you're wearing simple clothes, having changes from your work wear. But you still look beautiful to me. You always do. The fact you are comfortable enough around me to be yourself makes my heart flutter in my chest.

You're talking about the ridiculousness of one Dr. Pike and his so called "swag" as you put it. Even though the man annoys you, while critical, you are not rude. Its one of the many reasons I love you.

Your heart is so gentle and caring, you do not judge and I truly believe you would do everything to ever avoid hurting another person. You make me want to be a better person, hell you already have.

I think back to all our times together, every smile you've ever sent my way, every touch every laugh. I close my eyes, I can hear that laugh right now, see your smile and I know I would do anything to be on the receiving end of that for the rest of my life.

But then my mind flashes to Ian, the love of your life. How could I ever compete with that? Remembering how crushed you were when he left makes my stomach churn, would you be that devastated without me?

"Jane?"

My eyes fly open and I raise a brow in questioning.

"You're not even listening to me. What's wrong?" A concerned look graces your face.

As I stare into your gorgeous hazel eyes, I can imagine myself leaning forward ever so slightly and whispering, "I'm in love with you Maura Dorthea Isles"

I see your eyes light up and that beautiful smile I dream about.

Wait, did I just say that out loud?

Before I even have time to panic you're leaning in, just a breath away

"And I'm in love with you Jane Clementine Rizzoli"