A/N: I do NOT own twilight, this fan fiction is based on a thought that came to me so I decided to make it into reality by writing this piece. Hope you enjoy it. :)
It happened again, I knew it. I woke up panting and my skin glistened in sweat, my skin felt like it was on fire which was unusual even for me. Werewolves skin felt like they were burning up, I know this but… it was so painful right now. I groaned slightly and kicked off the sheets, the intense heat was getting to my head. I was slightly afraid that menopause was finally kicking in even though I'm only 21, female werewolves were freaks of nature more so than males, I'm barren, would never imprint, was the only known female, I'm going through menopause at only 21. Need I say anymore? I hated my wolf genes almost as much as I hated those leeches. I got out of bed and went downstairs, I needed a drink, seriously.
I pulled out the carton of orange juice and gulped it greedily, relishing in the coldness that I felt as it went down my throat. I burped and sighed, satisfaction level optimized. I got back from patrolling about 4 hours ago and was tired to say the least, but now I feel strangely revived. My sensitive ears heard one of the beds upstairs creak slightly as someone moved, probably Seth.
I rolled my eyes and put the juice back, it was too stuffy in the house right now I needed out. I took off all my clothes and carefully tied them to my leg, these are my favorite Pj's there was no way I'm going to destroy them.
I breathed in and let my mind fill with the one thing that was sure to have me in rage without fail: Sam and Emily. My vision was seeing red and a deep resonating growl erupted from my chest and without fail I phased into a silver looking wolf. I howled in joy at my freedom and began running through the woods, this was the only time I felt freedom from these cursed bonds, the only time I felt free from having to deal with Sam and Emil's sickening love extravaganza. It was amazing what the feeling of freedom could do to you. Because it was 4:00 am the others were most likely asleep which meant I could think to myself and not have to worry about them prying into my thoughts and complaining about my bitchiness. Pfft like I even cared.
She smiled as she saw a herd of deer grazing before me, they looked up startled at the massive wolf and gave a fast sprint away. I loved the thrill of chasing the deer though I didn't have it in me to eat one. It was so much fun, like the thrill a dog get's chasing a Frisbee. Oh Joy.
I chased them for about half an hour before stopping by the lake to lap some water up. It was so deliciously cold that she had to take a dip. I phased back into human form and took off the Pj's and put them on the grass, I put my toes in the water and a shiver went up my spine, it felt so good against my flaming hot skin. I proceeded to dive right in, the cold shocking me but it eventually subsided. Any normal human would have went into shock and probably have died in a matter of minutes thankfully for me I was a far cry from being a normal human.
I sighed in bliss as my body soaked in the refreshing cold the lake had to offer, it didn't make any sense why my body was acting so strange now, it never made sense but now it was just being freaky, I mean I stopped having periods since the time I phased but a few years ago, but then I noticed spotting a few weeks ago. I knew it accompanied menopause but a small part of me hoped that this was a sign of my period returning, some sign that I'm still normal. A foolish thought I know but I could still hope dammit! I sighed and felt myself sinking in the water. How would it feel to die? To be relieved of the constant thoughts that my pack members had of their love lives? To not have to stick around and watch everyone I know find their soul mates while I'm stuck here alone? To have to be constantly reminded that I would never have a child EVER. At that thought I placed a hand over my stomach, it would remain vacant for as long as I shall live. Yes… I'm a failure of a woman, that must be why fate refused me as Sam's soul mate why else would it have chosen Emily? A no good failure who should just die, besides all my pack brothers were tired of my bitchiness I'm sure, they always argue with me and I with them. They wouldn't miss the Harpy of La Push.
Jake had his spawn- I mean Nessie, Sam had Emily, Quil my niece Claire, Jared Kim, Paul had Rachel, Seth had a girlfriend now, so where did that leave me? Alone. I was always alone. Broken. I'm the cause of my father's death. My mom loves Emily more than me, why else would she continually beg me to be Emily's bride maid? She didn't care about my feelings, not anymore. And to add to that fact, it wasn't even a year that my dad had died before she leapt into the arms of Charlie Swan. I'm so sick of it all.
I felt my consciousness fading fast, so painfully fast, I smiled as I started closing my eyes, finally it will all end…
That's when it happened
I felt a jolt of electricity hit my body, and I felt my body moving upwards on its own. I gulped in the air greedily and began coughing up the water I had swallowed. I could feel my body moving on its own, it frightened me as I tried to force my body back down but it firmly stayed up. My eyes widened as I began swimming towards the shore automatically. It was almost as if
My body had a mind of its own.
I laid on the sandy shores breathing hard, what the hell just happened to me? It was like I wasn't the master of my own body, no I wasn't the master of my own body. Delightful. I needed answers, but for now I needed to get home, tonight was not sitting well with me at all.
I awoke a few hours later to the scent of pancakes being made, my stomach grumbled in anticipation my mother's cooking rivaled Emily's and I was excited to have her food after so long with out it. I rushed downstairs with a smile on my face
"Hi Mom!" I yelled as I got closer to the kitchen. My smile instantly faded upon seeing a certain man, kissing my mother on her neck. They both jumped and turned to look at me
"Oh, uh hello sweetie." She said blushing furiously and quickly escaped Charlie's embrace. He looked at me and smiled nervously, I didn't smile back
"H-hi Leah, how are you this morning?" he spoke fast clearing his throat
"Fine." I replied coolly crossing my arms at his attempt to be friendly. He nodded and looked back at my mother
"Well Sue, I've got runs to make, see you guys later!" he said quickly giving my mom a peck on the cheek, and my brother a ruffle in his hair. I glared at his retreating form before turning back to my mother who was standing there unsure of what to do.
"I see you and Charlie are getting closer." I snorted coldly, she didn't say anything just turned back to her cooking. My brother looked at me appreciatively before chowing down again. He was more accepting of Charlie than I was but that didn't mean that he liked it with my mother and Charlie's PDA. It sickened me to the core to think that my father's best friend was now doing the things he used to with my mom. To me it was a direct betrayal to his memory. I ate in silence, the food lost its flavor after I witnessed such disturbing acts. I played with my food some more before giving up and walking out.
I decided to go for a jog, I changed into my jogging clothes and put my i-pod into my ears, and began. In the morning all sorts of people would be jogging as well, elderly people, married couples, singles, teens, I passed a mother jogging with her stroller and a pang of sadness ebbed into my heart. I forced myself to look away and concentrate on the road. I breathed in the smells, ah~ I loved pine and oak. I passed a young man who seemed to be looking me up and down, I rolled my eyes and continued to jog, but I felt a jolt of electricity again and my body turned around. I smiled coyly at the surprised young man and walked to him and placed a hand on his chest, he seemed shocked to say the least. Here I was running a finger down his chest when just a moment ago I ignored him and rolled my eyes. I giggled, he was so cute
"Hello handsome, what's your name?" I asked in a husky voice, he gulped and his cheeks reddened
"C-Charles and you?" he asked licking his lips, I couldn't take my eyes off his moistened lips, I wanted a taste.
"That's not important right now, how about you and me find somewhere more…private?" I said wrapping my arms around his neck and pressed my breasts against his chest. He shuddered at the motion, I was pleased to say the least at his reaction.
"U-uh I-I I got g-g-go." He said shakily taking my arms from around his head. I pouted but let go. I kissed his cheek and whispered a bye bye to him as he blushed and waved goodbye. How cute~ I thought pleased with myself
"Leah? What were you doing?" I felt myself returning to normal, I blinked trying to register what I had just done. I looked back at the person who called my name. My eyes widened in panic,
"Oh um Hi Jacob." My alpha's eyes were wide as golf balls and his mouth was dropped open in shock. If I wasn't in so much trouble I would have laughed, would have.
"Leah what the hell were you doing with that guy? Do you know him?" he asked accusingly. He was right, what the hell was I thinking.
"I-um I um no." I sighed in defeat. He looked baffled at my answer
"Weren't you just moping about Sam just yesterday? How did you move on so fast?" he said shaking his head, at the thought of Sam guilt consumed my body. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I did know one thing, I needed help.
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