At first I only caught glimpses of them, at the back of my mind, in the corner of my eye. They were these weird, bright-colored abstract shapes with jagged edges and wide open eyes. Always fading away instantly just as I noticed them.
What are they?
I was held up at red light the other day and I had this inexplicable feeling like someone was behind me. Reading my mind and shadowing my every move. Chasing me. I sometimes think my mind is a really radio broadcasting at a frequency they can pick up. How can I escape them if they can hear my every thought over a loudspeaker?
It's silly I know, but I'm almost scared to look behind me now days in fear of being eaten by some kind of monster. So I close my eyes and try to relax, but the feeling doesn't go away, it gets worse... it's closing in, suffocating me.
Not long after getting away from that dreadful intersection. Just when I had almost managed to shake the residues from that near freak out. I saw a woman in a pink dress cross the street ahead of me, she noticed me and I slowed down to let her across. But then I realized it. It came back, whatever it was at the traffic lights, was she in on it too? Was she even really there? It felt like. It was still getting closer, catching up.
It sure felt like a strange neurosis at a time, but I had to speed up, get away from them. So I did. I came close to running over her then.
Now I know better, if I had stopped or slowed down back then... I'd probably be dead by now...
Also there was that guy on a scooter, the one I've seen before, that's always swerving through traffic unpredictably and rather dangerously I might add. I almost rear-ended him as he cut me off. I think he was in on it too. I saw him cut off several other cars before I lost track of his stupid orange helmet amidst the traffic.
I thought that light blue sedan would following me all the way to work too, but he broke off about half way there. Did he know I had spotted him? Probably. Or am I going crazy?
"Can you tell me doctor?"
I pleaded.
"Well..." he begun.
It turned out I was. I was actually freaking out pretty badly and it got a lot worse before it got any better. It's all a blur and I can't remember the details, but I thought I was being chased by some several kinds of of apparitions who wanted to eat my soul, yeah I shit you not.
I'm a lot better now, though I'm on some pretty heavy medication and there's side effects, my mind feels sort of numb. It's, it's kind of like the color of the sky on a clear twilight, a sort of grayish, type of blue. Everyone looks like that now, and I'm a lot more relaxed just from knowing that they're not trying to kill me.
And I really must not forget to take my pills.