Okay…this is a Leo/Don yaoi story…I wanted to at least try something a bit different, and I've been suffering on major writers block for all my other stories…so…hehehehe…there will be a lemon in future chapters…so…I'll post a warning before that chapter

Disclaimer: I don't own TMNT, no matter how much I wished to own Don, Leo, and Raph…(sighs)

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Leonardo couldn't help but be curious each time he passed Donatello's lab, it seemed like every day his little brother would be working on something new. He frowned a bit flashing back to how Donatello's long term relationship with Angel deteriorated, especially with her seeing Raphael behind his back.

He felt the back of his neck prickle a bit as the deep familiar rage of the day Donatello shut himself from his family, being in his lab for hours at a time…

Out of all of them he thought Michelangelo took it the hardest, going past his goofy nature and nearly sent Raphael into bed rest for months. The strangest thing that came out of this entire thing was that he and Raphael didn't fight each other…just basically ignored each other. He wasn't surprised that Raphael didn't regret taking the sunshine in his little brother's life away from him…but he was surprised by the way Michelangelo took to it.

The memory of Master Splinter flashed in his mind…and he sighed sadly. Their father was dieing, and the entire event that happened made his condition worse.

He furrowed his eye ridges, realizing Donatello hadn't made a peep since that day, and Raphael started complaining about how his beers kept on disappearing when he wasn't looking. He would usually have to be the one who had to go topside to buy the damned drinks, but they'd disappear constantly, and the more he went topside just to get Raphael alcohol, the more he began to wonder what was making them disappear.

He knocked on the door to Donatello's lab, but there wasn't a reply, usually he'd hear the sound of his computer chair rolling backwards.

The sound of someone vomiting got his full attention and he found himself becoming worried, "Don? Is everything okay in there?"

No answer, just more vomiting sounds…

He grabbed the door knob, realizing it was unlocked, and he ripped it open. His eyes widened in horror seeing his little brother slouched over his garbage can vomiting over calculations and notes that were wrong. His room was full of empty beer cans. He glanced outside, stepping into the room, and closed the door soundly behind him.

He knew Raphael would be pissed if he found that Donatello was stealing his beer.

He found himself touching Donatello's shoulder after his vomiting spell, watching as his brother took deep breaths, "Why?"

The sound of his little brother whimpering stabbed his heart like a dagger as he kneeled down next to Donatello, "Donnie…are you alright?"

Donnie snapped his head up, staring at Leonardo, taking deep breathes as he wiped the vomit from his mouth, "Does it loo' like alrigh'?"

Don's slurred voice made Leonardo frowned a bit, "No…but drinking isn't the answer."

Donatello casted his eyes downwards, shutting them tightly stifling a small sob, "But it makes it go away…"

"Makes what go away?" Leonardo asked touching his brother's shoulder gently.

"The pain…"

Leonardo frowned, "She didn't deserve you Don…heck, she doesn't even deserve Raph for what she did to you."

Don sniffed. Leonardo made a face at the sickening smell of the mixture of beer and vomit in the air, "Damn it…"

Don let out a soft whine, burying his face in his calloused palms, mumbling something childishly into them due to his drunken state.

"Don?" Leonardo asked, "Say that again."

Donatello complied looking up, "I just wanna be loved."

"Donnie, you are loved…" he tried explaining, but nothing would come out. He knew the love his brother wanted was a relationship with someone, that special kind of love that he thought he had with Angel, but didn't have.

"You'll find that someone someday…" Leo whispered, giving his brother a slight squeeze.

He had no idea that would be the start of a roller coaster ride of emotions that he pushed away the moment Karai went with Chapman.

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