This story has originally published through "Hira-Ko Web Anthology", one of the Hellsing fan site in Japanese. Since the site is going to be closed end of the Dec 2012, I decided to re-upload after minor change on this site. (English is my second language, thus you will find grammar mistakes...sorry!) I don't own Hellsing. Hope you enjoy.
I see the moon, the moon sees me.
The long clock needle was almost hitting the twelve midnight.
Integra has already left from her office, it was called "public area",
and returned to her personal chamber where locates at
limited access area to keep her privacy.
Everything went pretty well today, otherwise she normally returns
to her room after midnight.
Today's job has done.
She took a warm bath and washed herself with damask rose scented soap.
After taking a nice bath, she wore silky night dress which was set by her faithful maids.
She sat down in front her dresser, applied a rose water on her face,
combed long platinum hairs, and filed all finger nails and massaged
gently with some drops of cuticle oil. Now she's ready to go to bed.
Instead, Integra didn't go to her bed straight.
With a gentle sound of cloth gap of silk, she walked toward to the ray of moon light.
Then, Integra looked up the dark sky from the largest window in her room.
In the night sky, she could see the full moon, which allured all Medians, shone hazily.
No, that's wrong.
It looks hazily because of me.
My poor survived eye made that so.
It must be shining beautifully and more clearly in the sky.
My heart was charmed with the full moon because by the pain of
what should be existed was lost and what existed until now was lost.
My tear overflowed from my eye to grow dim the beautiful moon light.
Police Girl told me that he will be back here.
However, while spending the mindless busy days which unable to think for myself,
sometime, like a once in a blue moon, I lose confident to believe her words.
I realized the sense of "loss" desperately when I turned back to my shade
under the moon light.
This is why I divert the lost feeling with a scent of flower that he loved.
I care my hands because I remembered when he hold my hand gently and kissed respectfully.
I give a remedy to my skin because I remembered when he praised
my skin while he was caressing my cheek with back of his hand.
I brush my hair because I remembered when he loved to hold a small bunch
of my long hair and twisted it elegantly with his long fingers.
My old memories have been lost its sharpness little by little.
While accumulating the lost memory along with the passing time, however,
there is the certain one still remains inside of me.
I always find him in that memory that I can never forget.
When the night of the full moon in which he was charmed earnestly comes,
I see the beautiful moon floating in a night sky.
I see the moon.
The moon sees me.
It is as beautiful as it becomes less sorry for that it looks hazily
while it has emitted a divine light.
The moonlight illuminates me like when he embraced me
with his long arms. Gently and tightly.
And then,
I cry quietly with my single eye. Tears are melting into the darkness.
"Alucard…."
You know what?
You are the only one to make me cry.
Fin
Dedicated to Ms. Toshimichi (Solid & etc).