So, there's this guy. And he drives me absolutely insane. He's rude and selfish and never follows through on what he says. Half the time I'm around him I want to smack him in the face. He's uses people to help him get stuff done and pretends that he cares about them.
But do you want to know what the real problem is? He's my best friend.
Why, you may ask. Surely there's no good reason to be friends with someone like that. But it's all those small moments when I see the real him, the one that no one else sees, the one that does care about people and wants to help them, the one that's crazy in a good way. It's those moments that make me stay.
And that's why I'm absolutely miserable. He's driving me crazy, but for some reason I can never stay mad at him for long. I feel like such a pushover. It's infuriating to know you're in an unhealthy relationship and you want to be mad and angry, but you can get out of it because for some reason you still want to be around that person and that makes you mad at yourself and depressed about your circumstances.
It's just…..UGH! What do you do? You don't want to stay because you need to do what's good for you, but you just can't find it in yourself to leave.
Why?