Freak, ugly, fatty,moron,nerd,good-for-nuthing
thats what they called me
while pointing at me and lauthing
i didnt know why they were so mean to me
i didnt do anything wrong
maybe it was because of my good marks and good relationships whith my teachers
maby it was because of my appearance
since i was not pretty enough
or maby i was the perfect scapegoat
a girl way too guiet, gente and peaceful so she never fought back
there must be some reason but ive never known it
because i was teased i was always left behind rejected eer though i was friendly and outgoing and barely had any friends
but it was ok because in the end i lost hope of being liked all i wanted was to be less hated
but my wish has never been granted
soon became
MEANER
and even more violent
crossing the lines
every single day
i was wondering
why does this happen to me?
what did i do wrong?
please STOP IT
they said , it was for fun they did nothing wrong. its because your too sensitive. you just lack a sense of humor
but how can fun and humor justify pain, dread,fear, sadness, despair,misery,breakdown, angst
and so much self loathin and lack of self onfidence
because of hem and their wickedness the child i was has grown with crackes and became a broken adult hating herself even more then her classmates and perants did
it this what childhood and teenage years are supposed to be like
now i live with many cracks that maybe wont ever repair