I did this for you.
I don't - and never have - wanted to see you get hurt.
I know that what I did ended up hurting you, but I was trying to protect you from an even great pain.
I love you.
I don't want to see you suffer.
I feel like I have betrayed you each time I talk to them, each time I give that fake smile.
I don't feel human anymore.
I know that the only reason I am here is to protect you.
I don't deserve you.
I know that you are the only person to have ever seen through my fake smile.
I grew up with you.
I lost you.
I know you don't need me, even if you don't know yourself.
I know that you're an alcoholic because of me.
I died hurting you.
I am worthless.
I am undeserving.
I want you.
I need you.
I left nothing for you to remember me by but memories to lessen the pain of my failure.
I left you.
I regret everything.
I betrayed everyone.
I betrayed you.
I watched you struggle.
I should not be able to say I love you to anyone now, and have the words still hold value, after eating your heart for me.
I wonder why then.
I don't know who you are crying for.
I know it can't be for me, lying on the ground bleeding.
I think though, that it might just be.
I am a monster.
I am glad I said that I was sorry back then.
I don't deserve those tears.
But I died today, watching Beauty cry for the Beast.