Disclaimer: Yeah, sure, I own it all, and the grass is purple, Edward is ugly and James is a cute puppy. (So for the ones, who never heard of 'Irony': No, I own nothing, too bad...)

Sooo... my first fanfic ever! And in English, too (wow, guess Bella + Edward aren't the only ones with a masochistic tendency...)!!! Hope you'll enjoy!

Total Eclipse Of A Heart

CHAPTER 1 – NIGHTMARES AND DREAMS

„Edward, nooooo!", I screamed and picked up my speed. Desperate and stumbling I forced my way through the brushwood which lay between me and the meadow. But deep inside I knew I would not make it on time and my heart narrowed into a tight knot. At last I came in sight of my former private oasis with Edward by ducking under the last creepers, hanging green and wet from the trees. My feet came to an abrupt halt.

I was not late, quite the opposite was the case: I was horridly on time.

Just in time to watch a snarling Edward rushing upon werewolf-Jacob and dragging him to the ground with enormous force. Inside I was screaming helplessly, but no sound escaped my throat. I had no choice but to watch the grim fight, which now continued on the forest ground. Due to his open aggressiveness Edward quickly gained the upper hand and finally sank his razor- sharp teeth deep into the shoulder of the werewolf aka my best friend.

The suppressed scream in my throat broke loose. Through a veil of tears I could see Edward's head, turning to face the origin of that scream and witnessed how the rage in his familar features slowly turned to horror, as he recognized me. Taking advantage of this moment of distraction, Jacob reared and rammed his claws into Edwards chest.

I could see them penetrate the marble flesh, could see how Edward fell forward as Jacob removed them. And I could see Edward's expressionless face just before Jacob wrought his neck.

Still screaming and with eyes wide open I woke up from my nightmare, my fingers clutching the blanket. Only as I felt a pair of cold hands cupping my face and perceived Edward's velvet voice, trying to calm me, the scream died and made way for unrestrained sobbing, while Edward pulled me against his pleasantly cool marble chest. After some time I calmed down a bit and was able to take in the surroundings. I sighed as I caught a glipse of Edward's distinguished Storm- watch, which spread it's blue light all over the room.

"Only 2 a.m.!", I groaned and slowly straightened myself in Edward's arms.

"That grows into a habit, Bella!", Edward remarked concerned and eyed me intently, as if he expected another fit.

"hey, all good things come in threes, maybe it was the last time?", I joked poorly, still breathless.

Edward's eyes were doubtful "I do not want to destroy your hopes, but the chances are not favourable. Maybe...if you would spend the nights at home...", he started. I groaned again, this time in anger. "I already told you, that my nightmares don't have anything whatsoever to do with either your house, this room, or whatever fears I should obviously be enduring in the company of your family."

" So, what is the cause?", he exclaimed, deeply frustrated. "If you would simply tell me what it is that tortures you to this extent, I would not have to watch you twisting and turning and crying, until you wake up screaming every single night, while I sit here right next to you, helpless and without any clue of the reason for your pain. I cannot stand seeing you this way, you know that!" His wide eyes perfectly mirrored my tortured expression. Full of despair, I lowered my gaze onto my fingers, still clutching the blanket, and started to loosen the grip, while my concience fought with my decision to keep the real reason for my nightly trips to Nightmare Town a secret. I was certain, that the fact that he himself was the cause, would just add to his anguish.

This certainty forced me, like it had done the nights before, to evade his burning gaze and to assure him in an artificially pleasent tone that I was doing just fine and he shouldn't bother. Which, again, led to an enraged look from Edward's side and a muttered "If that were so easy..."

But, different from the times before, I could detect a trace of hurt behind his anger, which caused my insides to contract painfully. I reached out to touch his pale face lightly. On the contact he closed his eyes, lay his hand on mine and turned his head ever so slightly to soak up the scent of my palm. Then he looked at me, questioning. I took a deep breath and tried to order my thoughts.

"Edward, please give me some time. I first have to be able to..deal with the dream myself, before... I can dump my worries on you. Understand?"

He sighed and his fingertips caressed my cheek and jawline. Not even in such a serious moment I was able to suppress the shudder, running down my spine.

"Yes, I suppose I do. I just want you to know that you can tell me everything. You can trust me, Bella!" If I had had any doubts in his words, one look into his golden eyes would have been enough to dispel each and every one of them.

"I know.", I breathed, with a dizzy feeling in my stomach.

"Good.", he smiled lovingly, then bridged the minimal distance left between us and gave me gentle kiss. After our lips had parted, I kept staring at him, fixed by his perfection, and the dizzy feeling somehow intensified. Only Edward's disapproving expression and his reprimanding voice jerked me out of my daze: "Breathe, Bella!"

-Crap, I knew I had forgotten something!

---YEAH! I got my first review! Big THANX to mango-a-gogo! And to everyone else: PLEAAAAAAAASE review! Oh, and please inform me, if you should find any spelling or grammar mistakes! I'm still learning...(and my English teacher will thank you)