Envy
I: Son
The night is cold
My breath swirls around my
face as I sigh
The night is cold
But I can't feel it
That's what you always say
Isn't it?
'You-can't-feel'
Spelling it out for me
Like I'm a child
Who doesn't understand
Maybe I am
Maybe I am a stubborn child
Who doesn't want
To admit they're scared,
Sad, and lonely
The night is cold
I'll make my heart colder
I don't want to feel these soft, warm feelings
I want to feel the rough unstable anger
Don't I?
Maybe
I won't be miserable anymore
If I make everyone miserable with me
II: Mother
You're scared of me
Your anger's a mask
I can tell
You are afraid
Of what you do not know
I was your son
Now I'm…
Now you don't know
What I am
So you put on this mask
Of malice and power
But you're afraid
Maybe if I break that mask
You won't be able
To hide anymore
Mother is what you were
Master is what you are
Dead is what I want you to be
III: Father
You created me
You killed me
You left me
You wanted me
You rejected me
You loved me
You hated me
You are my father
You are a stranger
You are kind and caring
You are malicious and cruel
You are someone I want to find
You are someone I never want to see
You are everything I want to be
You are everything I despise
You are no one to me