The war is over yet unlike everyone else, I don't feel the great release of joy over our victory. I feel a deep sense of lost, my family struck down because of my relationship with Harry Potter. Will it ever be the way it was before, no this war has divided us, yet I seem to be the only one who realizes it?

Moving to the window of her dorm room, Hermione looks down on her friends, teachers and what seems the whole of the wizarding world. They didn't even notice she was gone, not that it mattered anymore. A heart can only hurt so much before it, will refuse to break anymore, tears will only fall until there are no tears to be shed. Turning from the window she walks to her bed and picks up her one bag, and slowly walks toward the steps leading to the common room and the rest of her life. Coming to a stop in front of the window that is on the landing between the girls and boys dorm, Hermione looks around taking in all of the common room that was the place of many years of laughter, hard work and pain. Smiling sadly she continues down the stairs and out the common room, not stopping until she got to the bottom of the stairs of the school.

"I will not try to stop you dear but I will say that running away will not solve anything. Things are not the best right now but with the war over things will get better child." Albus Dumbledore said.

"Tell that to my parents Headmaster, tell that to Lily. I have done everything everyone has ever asked of me. I excelled in school; I was brave as any gryffindor ever was. I have lost everyone I have ever-loved one way or another. My heart is beyond broken." she said looking at the older man who has been like a grandfather to them all.

"I know child, and I am sorry for that, but do not give up on them , do not give up on Harry." He said looking at her pleadingly.

"Don't give up on Harry that's rich, he doesn't need me he's found what he needs in someone else. The boy who lived has finally gotten everything he's always wanted Cho Chang. He doesn't need me, no one dos. Good-bye headmaster." Hermione said turning and walking away from her past and her pain and the only man she has ever loved Harry Potter.

Standing on the steps of Hogwarts Albus Dumbledore watched one of the greatest witches of the century walkway , from her life.



Walking back to the party that had been going on for the last two days ,Albus Dumbledore wonder what would happen when Harry realized that things were not as ok as he had thought they were. He couldn't help but feel the sadness for the three friends, this war had ripped their friendship apart and remade it in its wake. If only Harry had more of his parents judgment, but the lack of his parents guidance Harry tended to jump before he thought things out. She would still be hearing if he had only not let that other cloud his mind with false love. Why must his children always learn the hard way. Sighing Albus Dumbledore walked among the many guests that had come to see the boy who lived. Walking until he found Harry and Ron, Albus called out to them, "Harry".

"Headmaster, we were just wondering were you had gotten to" Harry said smiling and turning back to his friends and admirers.

"A moment of your time Harry please." Albus said over the loud laughing of the women who were standing to Harry's right.

"Of course headmaster, in a moment." Harry said turning back to the group standing around him.

"No Mr. Potter now, I want a moment of your time now." And with that Albus Dumbledore stalked off toward the school followed by a very shocked and perplexed Harry Potter.

Walking in silence, Harry began to wonder what the headmaster seemed so upset about to raise voice like that. He had never talked to him like that before. Finally the headmaster stopped in front of the gryffindor common room portrait.

"Password" the fat lady said looking at the headmaster.

"Snowflakes" Albus said walking into the common room when the portrait swung open.

"Headmaster why are here, and not your office." Harry asked following the headmaster up the stairs to the girl's dorm, stopping in front of the head girl's room.

"The reasons lay beyond this door Harry and its time you face it and stop ignoring it. I have watched you grow from the scared first year to the young man you are now and yes you have saved us all from certain death and we will never be able to thank you but today you have disappointed me more then I have ever thought possible. That Harry is the reason that I needed to speak with you, remember this Harry true love was always yours, if it is lost to you now, well you only have yourself to blame. Fame and fortune only take you so far and it will only keep certain people clinging to you for so long, once its gone so will your fake friends and love." With that Albus Dumbledore walked down the stairs leaving a very confused Harry standing in front of his best friends room.

Reaching for the door handle Harry slowly pushed it open "Hermione are you in here" he called. Walking in and moving to the bed Harry sat down thinking about what Dumbledore said. Standing Harry figured Hermione was out with everyone started towards the door, turning he noticed the picture of them Hagrid had taken there first year. Walking over to it Harry smiled and picked up the picture, remembering how happy they were then and how much all three of them had changed and how there friendship had survived thru everything. Sitting the picture down he noticed a letter laying next to were the picture had been, picking it up he noticed his name on the front of it in Hermione's handwriting. Moving back to the bed Harry broke the seal on the back and pulled out the letter.



Dear Harry,

If you are reading this then you know, that I'm gone. I couldn't stay any longer I don't belong here anymore. I'm sorry; I can't pretend anymore that it doesn't hurt me. I know you don't understand and I'm sorry that I can't explain it to you, had you been there maybe, you would understand the pain I feel, my heart has shattered Harry. When my parents were killed you were the greatest of comforts. When Ron and I were not talking you were the glue that held us together. You have been there for me for everything, yet the one time I needed you the most you weren't there you were with her. The pain is consuming me Harry. Being here and seeing you with her, is killing me and I can't do it anymore. I know you love her and that should be enough for me to know your happy but its not. I can't be your best friend anymore Harry, I can't. Do you ever wonder why Voldemort wanted me Harry? Do you ever wonder why they only tortured me and didn't kill me? He wouldn't let them Harry, he needed me, he taunted me everyday, said you wouldn't come for me because I had been a moment of weakness. He was wrong Harry; I wasn't that moment of weakness. It was more then that, I was a substitute for what you couldn't have. In that brief moment I would have been whoever you wanted me to be. I would have done anything to be the one Harry, but the painful truth was he was right you didn't come for me. You failed us Harry you failed me. I will never forgive you for that; you will never understand the depths of how you betrayed me. You should have let me die; you should have never pulled me out of the ruble.

I remember waking in the infirmary alone. I could hear you talking to her, begging her not to leave you. How you would make everything all right if she didn't leave you, your sweet Cho. At that moment I wanted to hate you, but even now I don't hate you, I don't feel anything, that's right Harry I feel nothing everything I've ever felt for you is dead and buried. Don't try to find me; I don't want to see you ever again. As far as you and the rest of the wizarding world are concerned Hermione Granger is dead. Tell Ron I'm sorry.

Mione.

Harry couldn't believe what he had read. What had he done, had he known she was missing all that time he would have looked for her, but he didn't know he was gone. Cho's parents had invited Harry with them when they went to Rome. No one had sent him word about Hermione, he hadn't found out until get had gotten to Hogwarts express and Ron had told him. As soon as he had arrived at Hogwarts he went to Dumbledore asking why no one had owled him about Hermione being taken by death eaters. Dumbledore said they had tried but he had never replied to the owls. Voldemort had already had Hermione six months before they found were she was being held.

(Flashback)

"Harry, they found her," Ron yelled running across the grounds. "Dumbledore sent me to find you. The order is getting ready to move on Voldemort."

He and Ron ran as fast as they could to the castle. When they got there the whole order was coming out of Hogwarts. Dumbledore was giving them orders as they prepared to use a port key to Voldemort.

"Headmaster I'm coming with you." Harry yelled.

"Correction, were coming with you." Ron said looking at them.

Severus Snape snapped " Your friend is alive Potter, beaten but alive, we sent several owls to you and you didn't come but know when we find her and it the moment of truth your right there to get your self more fame and glory. Your lucky she even batted her eyes at you. I've seen her Potter, she begged me to kill her, her face and body covered in bruises and blood. She begged me to end her life. Do you understand that Potter?

Harry charged at Snape ready to hit him for what he said. He hadn't known he would have never left her to Voldemort never how could that greasy grit think that.

Ron grabbed Harry and said " Harry save it for Voldemort."

Looking at his friend Harry knew he was right. Turning to the headmaster, Harry said, "Lets go, we've kept Hermione waiting."

Walking to the edge of the grounds they all reached out to touch the port key and were gone.

When Harry opened his eyes he saw death eaters everywhere. They fought for what seemed like forever, every time they were able to take a death eater down another took its place. Pushing closer to the manor Harry knew he had to find Hermione.

"Potter, I figured you would have come sooner for the girl When you didn't I knew there was a reason, so I sent my loyal death eaters after it. I really don't understand, she's not as pretty as the other. I mean she very perfect but you disappoint me boy I had thought you would be more like your father and Severus in taste ,the Granger girl is more what I had thought you would like. It seems I was wrong, no matter I still win Potter. Were I failed with you eighteen years ago, I have succeeded with her. This bores me, Malfoy kill her." Voldemort says turning and walking up the stairs to the manor.

"Don't turn your back to Voldemort." Harry screamed.

"Don't make me laugh boy." He laughed at Harry.

Rage filled Harry as he lifted his wand he screamed "AVADA KEDAVRA."

A green blast of energy slammed into Voldemort back . His scream filled the air as he hit the ground. Followed by another scream causing Harry to run towards Malfoy who was throwing the crucio at Cho.

Everything after that was a blur , they had finally beaten back the death eaters and Snape had carried Hermione out of the ruble that was left of the manor.

(end of flashback)

"Harry mate what are you doing everyone's been looking for you. Cho sent me to." Ron stopped when he noticed the look on his best friends face.

"Harry whats wrong, whats happen, where's Mione?" Ron said noticing the letter in Harry's hand.

"She's gone Ron, she ran away. She said she couldn't bear to be near Cho and me . Said I betrayed her, and that she hates me and that she never wants to see me again." Harry said silent tears running down his face.

"Good riddance ." Cho said from the doorway.

Harry and Ron's head snapped to look at her.

"Why you Bitch" Ron screamed.

"How dare you call me a bitch, Harry's better off with out that slut around. He doesn't need you either. He's been caring you both for years, your nothing but leaches. You don't deserve him as a friend." Cho spat.

Turning to Harry, Ron couldn't believe he was letting her say that about him and Hermione. "Maybe Hormone's right you did betray her , you betrayed us both." Ron said flatly to Harry turning and walking out of Hermione's room.

Moving to sit beside Harry , Cho whispers " You don't need them love you have me."

"Go to hell Cho." Harry said pulling away from her standing up and walking out the room after Ron. Catching up to Ron in the hall outside of the great hall Harry yelled, " Ron waits, please."

Turning around he glared at Harry and yelled back "why should I you have your perfect girlfriend you don't need me, you've driven Hermione away, haven't you done enough Harry?"

Tears running down Harry's face he whispered " I'll always need you Ron, you and Mione. You're my family, I'm sorry."

Walking over to Harry , Ron grabbed him and hugged him. "Same here Harry."

"What about Mione Ron?" Harry asked as the boys walked in the great hall.

"Will find her Harry." Ron said ,even though he knew there was more going on then either of them knew. They had to find her, they weren't whole with out her.

(Elsewhere)

Black ash covered the ground , fallen rock everywhere. Had you stumbled upon this place you would think a fire had done this, unless you were there that is then you would know that the great fight for freedom and truth ,good and evil had cause this destruction.

A lone woman crawled on her hands and knees thru the ash and dirt., blood covering her hands from were she had begun to dig with them. Cutting them on rocks and glass from what were once windows.

"You won't find her this way, girl." the man in the shadows called.

"I have to find her, what if they hurt her." The woman said thru sobs.

"She was taken from here long before the battle. We will not find her here." He said pulling the woman to her feet.

"Promise me Snape with your life's blood that you will find her." She said thru sobs.

"I promise that I will find her," Snape said pulling the woman away from the wreckage.





Who is missing? How is Snape involved? Will Harry find Hermione? Chapter two coming soon..

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