Everyone was there, all sitting with their friends, and family crying into their hand or tissues. Everyone but the one person they would all expect, she sat next to Logan who even cried at the lost of his friend. There she sat starring at his casket, no emotion on her face, even as Charles gave the eulogy she starred at the casket.
Begging for him to come back to her, she sucked in a breath before grabbing Logan's arm. Turning his eyes from his lost friend they landed on her face in time to see the first tear fall from her eyes.
"He's… gone Logan… gone…" She whisper as more tears fell from her blank eyes.
"I know, kid… I know." He pulled the brim of his hat down to over his eyes that where soaked with tears.
"He lied… to me, Logan… he lied." She lowered her head and sobbed as the eulogy was finished.
Almost everyone had left the room only Kurt's closest friends sat in the room still. Charles rolled over to where Allison still sat starring at her lost lovers face. Placing something in her hands he squeezed her hands in his.
"I'm sorry Allison, we all have lost a great friend." Without breaking her glaze at Kurt's face she nodded. As he pulled away she glanced at her hands, and sucked in more air. In her hands was Kurt's rosary, something he had always had with him, never leaving his side.
"We know that he would want you to have it." Ororo said coming up to stand behind Charles.
Finally turning to look at everyone else in the room they finally saw something other then rage and hate on her face, they saw heartbreak. They saw a woman who in a matter days lost everything that she had loved, ripped from her grasp never to be given back.
Standing up she walked to look closer at the face of someone she will never see again. As if in slow motion everything hit her, the fact he was gone, she would never see his unique eyes shine for her, his bright white teeth when he smiled for her, or the way when she made him laugh how he would get lines around his mouth. All of it hit her, and she did the only think she could think of she let out a ear shattering, heart breaking scream as she fell to her knees. Sobbing uncontrolled, and uncaringly into her hands that gripped Kurt's rosary she shook and sucked in breath after breath.
"Why, why did you have to die! Why did you have to leave me! You promised you'd come back to me, swore to God you would!" Gripping the beads hard enough to turn her knuckles white, she made a fist and placed her shaking hands on her forehead she cried helpless as for the first time in her life she prayed, for her, for Kurt, for their friends, for anything and everything.
Placing a hand on the casket she pulled herself up, looking down at his peaceful face she smiled at him then leaned over, kissing him on the lips on last time.
"I loved you…I love you… I will never forget you…. You were right you know. I was lost and he sent you to save me. I will always love you my Engel"