Do I Chapter 1, a sailor moon fanfic

AN: I love this song so much. It is call Do I by Luke Bryan. The first time I heard this song, I just thought about Serena and Darien. In the song, it is the guy sing to the girl but I think this is what Serena is sing to Darien.

Do I

Baby, what are we becoming
It feels just like we're always running
Rolling through the motions every day
I can lean in to hold you, or act like I don't even know you
Seems like you could care less either way
What happened to that girl I used to know
I just want us back to the way we were before

It has always seemed like I am the one who put in all the work in this relationship. It was me who would set up our dates and it was always me who tried to make everything fun. It like you could care less if we even see each other. He used to be different. I remembered the first time we meet. We would get into the little fight but at least then I knew that I had mattered to him. That seem like a life time ago and the life time we had before felt like it was a distant dream. I just wish things had been different.

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I still enough
Tell me don't I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I

I have always felt as if I was never good enough for you. I feared that you would find someone better than me. Fear that you would someday wake up and see that you had end up with me.

Remember when we didn't have nothing
But a perfect simple kind of loving
Baby those sure were the days
There was a time our love ran wild and free
But now I'm second guessing everything thing I see

I remember when we first started dating; we would sometime just stay in your apartment all day. We would sit on the couch, wrapped up in blanket and sitting in each others' arm. Nothing else mattered. It was just you and me. You told me that I was all that you need. That I was the only family you need. Am I not good enough now?

Do I make you happy anymore? I can't remember the last time we've been happy. You are off being a doctor and I am a simple house wife. I am here to take care of you but you don't even come home anymore. I have heard talk that you were with a woman at a hotel.

Still give you what you need
Still take your breath away
Or light up the spark way down deep, baby do I

You have come home but I am not there anymore. I am Sailor Moon, warrior of love and justice. I can handle the monsters and all the attack but I cannot handle your infidelity. I cannot stand being far from you but it hurt more to be with you. You have always taken my love for granted. You had always expected me to be here when you need me but not this time.

It has been one week and you have not come to look for me. There was something in me that want you to, to prove to me that you still love me. I have spoken to my lawyers and file for divorce. I came by the house. Notice that I said house because it hasn't been my home for a long time now. I actually drop by the hospital first but they said that you weren't there. This gave me an ounce of hope that we can actually work through this. No! I can't do this anymore. I notice your car in the drive way.

Tell me baby do I get one more try
Do I, baby do I

"Please Serena." You say. I can hear the tiredness in your voice. I see the bags underneath your eyes from the lack of sleep. Your blue eyes are blood shot. Your hair shows that you haven't taken a shower in days. There are hairs on your chin. I remember you could not stand any stub. "I need you." you say and I can hear how much you meaning it but…

What about me? Do I really need you anymore? I don't know but I did know that I didn't want to sit at home and wait for you to come home to me. I didn't want to worry if you were with another woman. I didn't want to feel not good enough. I didn't want to be known only as your wife. As a child I wanted to be so much more than a house wife. One day I am suppose to be queen and the mother of your child but if that is to happen someday, I needed to be find out what I want. I put the divorce paper down. I look at my ting finger. The little pink heart ring, the one that you gave me the day you left. I couldn't stand to take it off but here I was slipping it off my finger. I put it down on the table and I left. Tear streaming down my face but I wasn't going to change my mind. Someday we will find our way back to each other or not.