Misconceptions

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Mistaken Assumptions and Concealed Emotions

I always knew she'd never have me, that she'll never actually come to love me. Even after everything that we've been through, after all those passion-filled nights, after all those intimate conversations.

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I always knew that he doesn't love me, that he is incapable of falling in love with me. Even after all we that we had together, after all the trials and deaths we have faced, after all the anguish and joy we shared.

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I always knew that she'd never come to love me, that she'll always love him. Even after he broke her heart over and over again, after she realized he'd never love her, after she knew that he was incapable of falling in love.

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I always knew that he'd never love me, that he'll never stop loving her, that girl that was his first love. Even after she died right before his eyes, after he accepted that she could never come back, after all these years.

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I always knew yet I never turned her away. I always knew yet still I want her to stay. I always knew yet I still crave her touch. I've always known, and yet I still let myself fall in love with her. I've fallen so deeply in love with her that I let myself be wounded repeatedly, to be hurt repeatedly, to have my heart broken repeatedly, rather than leave her side. I have come to realize now that she has become more important to me than the air I breathe, the water I drink; more important than my life, my friends, my village; more important than my beliefs, my values, my faith.

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I always knew yet I still go to him. I always knew yet I still want to feel his kisses. I always knew yet I continue to come night after night. I've always known yet I still let myself fall in love with him. I love him so much that I'd rather have him make love to me while thinking of another than not have him in my life, so much that I'd rather him use me than ignore me, so much that I'd rather him hurt me than keep me at a distance. I realize now that he has become far too important to me that if he left me I would cease to exist, that I would not be able to continue on without him, that he has become the driving force of my life, my existence.

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But I know she'll never feel for me the way I feel for her, never care for me the way I care for her, never love me the way I love her. I know that. I accept that. And though it hurts to love her this way, I'd still be here watching over her, protecting her. For she had broken through the walls and defenses that I built around my heart and soul. For she had made me, the ever aloof Hatake Kakashi, fall in love with her.

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I know that he will never feel the same way as I do, for I am just someone to satiate the needs and urges that consume him. I know that. And I accept that. For I know, that this is the only way that I can stay by his side. And even though it pains me to be used this way, I will stay by his side watching over him, caring for him. For he took my dead heart and made it beat once more, but now it only beats not for my sake, but for his sake. For he had made me, the broken Haruno Sakura, fall in love with him.

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I desperately want to tell her I love her but I know that all these would end when she finds out how I feel. It hurts me deeply to not let her know how I feel, but I know that not having her in my life would hurt me even more.

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I want him to know how I feel but I realize that he wouldn't let this – whatever it is – continue on if he knew how I felt, if he knew I love him. So I keep quiet, but it hurts, so much that it manifests itself physically. But I know, and I accept it, that as much as this pain I feel now torments me, it can never compare to the pain that I will experience when he is no longer a part of my life.

…Fin…

This is my first attempt at a drabble... How is it? Reviews are loved.