Looking Back Part II

Deanna's POV

Counselor's Personal Log

Star date: 58227.7

We've been married for two years now, but it seems like just yesterday we were married. We have had twins- a boy and a girl, our own ship, career advancement, and love. What more could we want?

Nothing. We have everything and the greatest of these is love. Cliché? Maybe, but it's true. We love each other dearly and there can be no greater love then being Imzadi.

Imzadi. It means the first. I remember telling Will that many years ago after we first made love. What a night that was! Our souls bonded, just as our bodies had, but this bond was everlasting, unlike our physical bonding.

Oh, we spent many years apart, but because of our bond, we were destined to be together. We were young though, and not ready to be a couple. We both had a lot of growing up to do, but we met again years later.

I asked him if he could still hear my thoughts and his facial response spoke volumes to me. I knew he could hear me and I knew our bond was still present.

Our bond became stronger over the years and now here we are husband and wife. Amazing what time can do to two people.

I kept him at a distance for many years and sometimes I wondered why I did that. Was it really because he was not ready for commitment or was it me?

It was me. I wasn't ready. The bond was just as overwhelming for me as it was for him. It was something completely new and would never happen again with any other person, yet I had to explore and find out for myself.

And explore I did. I also made many mistakes in the process. I can't believe I fell for Devinoni Ral. He was a real snake and I was living on the edge with him.

Will tried to warn me, but I passed his behaviour off as being jealously. He was only trying to keep me from being hurt, but I refused to listen to him and took the fall. He was there to pick me up again, just as he did many times before that and he never stopped looking out for me nor did he stop loving me.

I still have the poem he wrote me for me when we were in the Jalara Jungle. It is just as beautiful to me as it was then. I hold it dear to my heart because it was also the first of many things that he has given me.

He is not only my first, but he is also my soul mate, my lover, and my confidant. He will always be there for me and I for him. Will wouldn't have it any other way, nor would I for that matter.