AN/ hey, this was an idea I was fiddling with. I wrote it a little while ago. Figured I'd finish. The beginning of this doesn't have much of the plot in it. It'll come soon. Anything in bold is actually happening, no diaries/journals, but in the story. Oks..here ya go.

Disclaimer: I do not own Furuba ok! If not, the Manga would be translated much faster, and the anime would have season two. BUT I WILL! I WILL:rocks back and forth: hehehehe

March 16

Close call this morning. Yuki nearly opened this and read everything inside. No one can know I keep a journal, they'll think I'm soft. I just need a place to let my feelings out. Why else do they think I haven't committed suicide yet? Good thing this book cover I bought doesn't look suspicious or interesting. That stupid rat is too curious for his own good! Always nosing around.

Anyways, today basically sucked. School was school, nothing new. Some kids did try to jump me on the way home. Ha, I showed them. It actually got pretty gory, I messed them up pretty bad. I guess they learned a lesson at least. I hope, they were pretty dumb, they were wearing ski masks. And if it wasn't raining, I would've beaten them a lot badder. Is that a word? Badder. Heck with it why do I care? I don't. Gosh that rain is annoying. It's all about that monster…It's not me! My mother was wrong, it doesn't control me! I CRONTROL ME! I will escape it. No matter how long it takes. I'll escape the monster, the monster and Akito too. I will I will I will I will I will I will I will I will I will!

Dang, writing it down does make it seem almost real. Almost. I can't believe how this is eating me up inside. All of these years. My life seemed almost obsolete until Tohru. She's so pretty. I think I may like her. I mean really like her. Love maybe? Is that right? When I'm around her my feelings seem to fade, all my troubles go away. I wish I could see me the way she sees me. What am I missing? What could be likeable about me? No one has ever stood by me for anything. Well, except for my Dad…No, I'm still can't call him that, I'm not even worthy to call him my father. I'm pathetic. Even my thoughts are all a mess. I'm just nothingness. I don't deserve to live. The world would be a lot better without me in it. No one would miss me, I'm sure of it.

Except maybe, just maybe, Tohru might. Would she?

Whatever.

Kyo Sohma

March 16th

Hey, it's Yuki again. I still feel a little weirded out about keeping a diary. But Tohru's always going on about hers, how it's a great place to let her thoughts out. I don't quite see how writing it down will make it any better, but it does help a little. It's like having someone to talk to about your problems. Someone who will listen to you and not criticize your pathetic existence. No, I need to stop thinking like that. Tohru's right, I'm not pathetic. I'm not pathetic! And this is completely unorganized. I'm just rambling thoughts. But I can't erase anything. That would be just covering up my true thoughts. Who cares if they don't flow? Who's gonna read it? Hopefully no one. I don't think they will though. I've got this hidden well.

Akito came by after school today. With no excuse to get away from him. Torture. He just tortures me and no one understands! No one will ever understand! So much pain. So much suffering. So much hatred. What did I ever do to him? WHAT DID I DO! I, I, I don't know why I go on anymore. And that room, he keeps bringing up that room. That room. Sitting in the dark, being able to feel the bars around your fingers and jangling the lock and

Sorry, I'm back. Got a little emotional there. I can't stand him. I don't want to admit it, but I promised myself I'd be honest in here, I'm terrified of him. I'm scared. SCARED! There! I said it! I'm scared to death! Do you hear me? I'm AFRIAD! And he said he was going to start visiting me more often I'm SCARED! I wish he would just go away forever, my life is so so so pathetic. I AM PATHECTIC! I'm living in fear! He's controlling my life, and he knows it. And so do I. And he also knows I know it. Crap, someone's coming.

Yuki
March 16th

I can't believe it's gone. My journal's gone! Black Haru destroyed it. WHY? It was the one place where I could be myself! The one place where I didn't have to lie! MY WHOLE LIFE WAS IN THERE!

:sighing:

I wasn't able to write about this for three days. All of this was building up inside of me. I was so worried about walking into a stationary store to buy one. What if someone saw me? I got lucky last time, I found an abandoned one. With only one page filled, and the initials A.S on the cover. It was very peculiar, all it said inside was, "They don't suspect a thing." Very strange. Even stranger is how I acquired this one. I found it right outside the house. It's made of leather with golden hinges, and the words, PROPERTY OF HATSUHARU SOHMA inscribed on the cover. It's all too weird for me. Who would know I lost my journal? Who would even know I keep one? No one's supposed to know! I've been extra careful since I started this. How could it have slipped out? WHO ARE YOU? IF YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS, YOU"RE PROBABLY READING IT TOO! SO WHO ARE YOU? JUST SIGN YOUR NAME AT THE BOTTOM!COME ON! DON'T BE SHY!

:sighing more:

Ok, lost it for a moment there, but I meant it! Go ahead sign, don't mind me! Gee, I'm so mad. And not just that. It's Kisa. She's seems resentful. And she's not talking to anyone. Not even me! I can barely get her to say a complete sentence. Something's wrong. I can tell. There's something she's not telling me. If it has anything to do with Akito I'll

"Haru?"

"Kisa!"

"What are you writing?"

"uh, homework."

"Oh, ok."

"Did you want to talk or something?"

"No. I just thought I heard someone out here."

"Ok, if you're sure. Do you want to talk anyways? I haven't got to spend any time with you in a while."

"No."

Kisa was just here. She still won't talk to me. WHY WON"T SHE OPEN UP! Look who I'm asking. The guy who's tormented on the inside by his other him. Stupid BH. I'm gonna go find Kisa. I hope I don't push her away anymore.

Haru S.

(note to all: Momiji named his diary BB for Bunny's Book)

March 16th,

HI BB!

People keep making fun of me for wearing the girls uniform. Today, people trashed my locker and were being so cruel to me. I think I look good in it. Don't you? I do! But it did give me a chance to clean out my locker. It needed it!

(thanks to iloveclark2) Kyo was being a major butthead today! He wouldn't buy me a lollipop! And I really wanted one. The cherry kind, my favorite!

DOODLES ARE FUN! Uh…I saw my mom today. With my little sister. They seemed so happy. What I did was the right thing though. She would have suffered, besides she hates me. She's disgusted by me. I'm repulsive to her. At least I was. Yes, back then, when I used to be her son. The one she never wanted. And the one she never had. No, I'm not her son. She's my mom, but I'm not her son. That's sounds funny doesn't it? I really don't want to talk to you about this right now…O! I saw a cute little bunny on the way home yesterday! It was so soft and cuddly! Bunnies are cute!---I get her out of my mind. It would be nice to have a mother who understands. Like Kisa does. She's so lucky! IT'S NOT FAIR! WHY CAN"T I HAVEA MOM! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY! It tears me apart! My heart aches so much! It's just not fair. Nothing in my life is fair----- I'm too upset to write anymore now.

Momiji Bunny
March 16th,

Hi again, it's me Kisa. Haru's starting to notice something's wrong. But I can't let him know. It'll just worry him. I don't want to get him in trouble with Akito. He's hurting me! He keeps hitting me and laughing at me! And he locks me in my room and and

And he says he has a surprise for me Saturday. His tone wasn't the good kind. I'm afraid. I'll just have to carry you around in my jacket on Friday, so if something happens to me I

I'll still have you. You're almost like my best friend. Sounds silly huh? He really scares me. I wish just once I could have the guts to stand up to him. But I'll never be that brave. Especially not towards Akito. Our entire family is afraid of him I think. Even older people like Hatori. I feel so bad. Our whole family's messed up. I bet it would help everyone if they kept diaries too. I can't imagine any of them keeping one. That's way too weird. But I still think it would help. Akito says I should stop imagining. That everything I say and do is stupid and meaningless. Haru was always telling me I'm special. Back when I was talking to people. I just feel so locked up inside. Like I can't talk to anyone. For fear of him. I know Haru said he would always protect me, but I don't think even he could battle Akito. No matter how good his fighting is. Even teamed up with Yuki and Kyo, they're always fighting. Akito strikes fear into us all. And it makes me feel powerless. I have dreams where we weren't cursed, and we we're all happy, and Akito was gone. Akito says I shouldn't dream. He says I'm a disappointment to society. Maybe he's right. Maybe I am nothing but a disgrace. A person who should be shunned from the world in shame. Maybe. Maybe.

Yours Truly,

Kisa Sohma.

March 16th

Something's wrong with Kisa. If she's being hurt again I…I can't go through that again. AND I GOTTA STOP WRITING IN THIS STUPID DIARY! I'M NOT A GIRL! I'M NOT THAT WEAK THAT I NEED SOME GAY BOOK! I've got nothing to say---

Hiro

March 16th

Hello again! It's me! The one and only, amazing Ayame! Business is booming! I have just finished a wonderful design! I'll take a picture and tape it in here for you! Yuki seems to be doing well. He hasn't been back to my shop yet. Maybe our little visit didn't have an affect after all. It seems like he's not trying anymore. I wish desperately we could understand each other. Even just a little. I just want us to try. Ah, but tragedy can only be matched with more tragedy. And I for one will not give in to tragedy! No, not Ayame Sohma! Oh my, a customer! TTFN!

Love Aya
March 16th

Something's wrong with Akito. He seems oddly happy. And whenever I mention Kyo, he seems to get very diabolical. In fact, he's acting like he has something planned, whenever any of the juunishi (sp?) are mentioned. It's all very strange. I'm worried about Kyo. I'll go by and see him tomorrow I think. Yes, tomorrow is good. And maybe I'll stop by Hatori fist while I'm at it. I can keep an eye on Akito. If he tries to hurt Kyo I'll…I can't even think about it! I love him so much; I can't bear to think about anything happening to him. He already has to deal with so much already. I can't stand it! It's not fair! I know in the end, even I won't be able to protect him. Nobody can. And he hasn't had far enough training to face Akito if the time comes. I'm not sure he can deal with it. Should I even warn him? I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm just not sure.

Sign Kazuma Sohma
March 16th
Hello Again! I had a wonderful day today! Work went really well, and I passed my math test too. Momiji was also really sweet today. He walked me home! Yes today was a very special day. I even saw Yuki-kun smile a sincere smile. But then Akito came over. Yuki seemed so frightened. I wish he would open up and let me know what happened between the two of them. It must have been horrible. I know he's just afraid. He'll open up in time, at his own pace. I'm sure when he does, I'll be able to accept it, whether I'm able to comfort him or not. His and Kyo-kun's past seem so dark. There's still so much I don't know about the Sohma's. But I hope one day, they'll trust me enough to tell me. I just hope it's not so horrible that they will be able to one day overcome it. I believe they can. Sorry this is short, I haven't started dinner yet. BYES!
Tohru K. Honda

March 16th

Us writers, all we do is write. Today for instance, I got up, wrote some of the manuscript, wrote an e-mail to Hatori, finished the manuscript, then took a break by writing in here. –

Write write write, it seems lately all I do is write. Maybe that's all my life has to offer me. I mean, what else do I really do? Nothing. I don't even take care of the house. Why o why doesn't my life have any meaning? Why don't I have a purpose I… What was it that Tohru once said to Ritsu, uh…I think it was, no one is born with a purpose, they have to find it, and no matter what, there's always one there. Something like that. Maybe I'm just weird. Maybe I don't have a purpose. I'm cursed with the dog, and the sorrow of not having a purpose. I'm sad aren't I? I suddenly feel inspired to write a sad and depressing love story. Until tomorrow I guess.

Shigure Sezumi Sohma

March 16th

Hello. It's me Kaugura again. I have finally reached a conclusion, and you can't talk me out of it. I know the truth, Kyo doesn't like me, he can't even stand me. So, I've decided to move away. It's for the best. I'm sure he'll be much happier if I wasn't around. Maybe I'll find love again one day. Then again, maybe not.

Today I leave you my love

I shan't see you tomorrow

I finally believe, what they say is true

Parting is such sweet sorrow

Don't worry Diary, I'll take you with me. My plane leaves in an hour, I better get going. I'll write again soon.

K. Sohma

March 16th

This is Ritsu. I'M SORRY YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO MY PATHETIC RAMBLINGS! I wish I were good at something. I told you about my experiment right? I decided to try one new thing everyday. There has to be one thing I'm good at. Or at least one thing I like. Today I tried cooking. You can scratch that off the list. I nearly burnt the house down. Perhaps I should've asked Tohru to help me. No, I would just be a bother. Tomorrow is poetry. That should be interesting. Oh no, I'm doing it again aren't I? ALL I DO IS COMPLAIN! I DON"T EVEN DESERVE TO HAVE A DIARY! I'M SORRY! I'M SO SO SORRY!

Ritsu

March 16th

Akito is sick again. I swear, I think he's never healthy. Kana came in today too. She…She's interested in interning. She wants to be a doctor. What do I do? I don't know if I can face her. And I can't bring myself to turn her down. I hate this. I hate myself. This isn't fair. I guess I need some time to think.

"Hatori!"

"Akito…?"

"HATORI! NOW!"

Crud. Akito's whining again. I'll guess I'll cut this short.

H.S

They don't suspect a thing. Not a single one of them. It has begun. Saturday is only 3 days away. It shall commence

AN/ OK, that's chappy one! Whadda ya think? Do you want me to continue or not? If I do, It will prob update every 2 weeksI still got my other story too, and I told myself I wouldn't try to juggle two. Anyways, tell me, and…REVIEW OR DIE! lol