Disclaimer: I dont own teen titans or sonic, just the plot.

As I took one last look through my house, I couldn't help but try yo suppress all the terrific memmories it held. Even though, as always, it doesn't work.

I walk into my old room and a flash back of all the terrible nights I was molested by my step sister begins again.

'Ruby, stop' I yell over and over again

'Why? What are you going to do tell your mommy?' she sneered as her fingers slid up again

'I mean it!' I yelled as I tried not to cry.

This is a common conversation we had when she'd do her torchure rituals. I never said anything because I cared too much about my mother's marrige. Sometimes I wish I did, even though I don't know if I'd be able to say anything anyways. It's embarrasing.

As I walk through the hallway I see a closet that I remember being locked in once when i was very young. My mom's ex-boyfrfiend locked me in there after beating me.

My mom had to go on a buisness trip for three days and she asked her boyfriend to watch me while she was gone and he was off that week. about ten miniutes after she left he beat me for crying and threw me in there. All I can recall after that is a white light coming in everyday and taking care of me. He fed me and read to me often, especially after the man beat me.

I continually go through the house. Thinking about all these different things make me freeze in my steps once I end up across the hall from my mother's room.

I remember when I was home alone one day when I was about 13 and this really 'cute' boy showed up. He asked to borrow my phone because he wasn't used to it around here. So I let him in and the next thing I know, He's carried my small frame all the way to my mother's room and pulling my jeans off me. I'm trying to make him stop, but he just hits me as hard as he can and then I black out.

When I woke up, he was still there laughing with his friends.

They all took their turns with me, except for the red head. He made them quit. He said it wasn't right and that they should quit. They eventually left and I now have a feeling of greatfulness torwards redheads because of him.

My mom sees the tear in my eye and she wipes it away and gives me a big hug. The kind that would normally get on my nerves. She understood. And I am very greatful for that.

Here recently, My grandfather died. He was the closest thing I ever had as far as a real father goes. He had lung cancer. I don't go a day without missing him, but somehow the pain becomes easier to manage. That's why we're moving. Mom and Tommy (Thomas) think that it'd be best to move up state to be closer to her, although mom is also doing this for me, even if Tommy doesn't know it.

As we get into the car and head to the airport, I remember a few of the good memories I've had here.

I remember my first kiss with Billy at his house. It would've been great if he wasn't trying to get me to have sex with him at the same time.

Then I remember Robin.

He was my first true love. Even though we never dated, I felt the strongest feelings to him then I have ever felt torwards another guy. He was my bestfriend through all of it. He hugged me and promised it would be ok. He beat the living snot out of the boys who came to my house when I was younger. He took me home from church every once in a while. He even took me to sonic one day after church.

He was the one I felt like I was living for there for a while. I completely quit wearing the clothes I liked to wear his favorite colors and so we looked like we belonged to each other. Then, one day he had to move.

That's when my life went down hill.

I am Raven Roth. I am 16. I have been raped 5 times. I have fell in love once. This is who I am.