"Shut up already, you stupid bastard!" Lovino yelled at his boyfriend loudly.
"Sorry Lovi… But I couldn't help it!" Antonio said sadly, holding up his hands in defeat. He looked towards the ground with a frown on his face.
"Whatever." Lovi rolled his eyes and started to walk away. He stopped after a couple steps and looked back. "What's your problem this time?" he asked, seeing the usually cheerful Spaniard acting glum.
Antonio looked into his boyfriend's eyes. "I think we should take a break…" he said softly.
Lovino turned around to face him. "What do you mean, 'take a break'? We just took a vacation." he asked.
"No, I mean we should take a break from each other. You know, not see each other for a while." Antonio clarified.
Lovino's eyes widened and then he chuckled somewhat nervously. "You're kidding me, right? People who take 'breaks' from relationships never go back." he stated. Antonio looked at him seriously. Lovino frowned. "What brought this on all of a sudden?" he asked softly.
"All of a sudden? It's been like this ever since we met. You treat me like nothing and never show me any love. Maybe if we take a break you'll appreciate me." Antonio said.
"Never show you any love? We had sex just last night!" Lovino said.
"No, Lovi. That's not what I mean. You've never once said you love me. You've never once willingly kissed me. You've never agreed to a cuddle or even a hug. All you ever do is call me names. That hurts more than you realize. You push me around. That makes me feel worthless. You've never loved me even though we've been living together for six years now!" Antonio said, voice rising a little.
Lovino advanced on him. He was about to push him down when Antonio caught his arms. "You stupid-!"
"This is what I mean, Lovi! Don't you see?!" Antonio asked him.
"You don't know what you're saying! I've never loved you? Ha! I think being able to live with you this long had to had some love to be able to stay!" Lovi said, eyes starting to get moister.
"You say that like you've hated being here! I've never made you stay but you act like a prisoner here! You treat me like dirt and I'm SICK OF IT!" Antonio was practically yelling now. "I'm done with being told what to do. I'm through with being pushed around and torn apart like a piece of paper. I'm tired of being called names. I deserve better than that! You've never shown me anything better than that, Lovino!"
Lovi's eyes were starting to fill as he looked away from the man in front of him that still held his arms. "You never use my full name…" he whispered softly.
"Well you always get mad at me for calling you anything else. You get mad at me for trying to show you that I love you. You get mad at every little thing. Did you expect me to live like this forever? I need to be loved. And you won't do it." Antonio paused. A single tear ran down Lovi's cheek. "You have nothing to say, do you? And you know why that is? It's because you aren't willing to try and treat me nice. It's because you don't want to try and love me back. It's because you won't lie to me and tell me you'll work on it. You'd rather it all end. You'd rather move on with your life and all the better things you have to do than lie and stay here. Isn't that right?" Antonio asked.
"You're wrong…" Lovi mumbled.
"How so? I know why you do all this. It's how you protect yourself. You push me around so you never have to feel small. You call me names to make sure I never hurt you. I get that. You're only protecting yourself. But from what? I've been here. I've always been here to protect you. I've always been here to love you, and care for you. To give you everything you need and want. To make you feel good about yourself. But you always shut me out. I gave you my heart and you stomped on it. I gave you my soul and you chewed it up and spit it out. I gave you my entire being and all you could do was protect yourself from doing the same. All because you never loved me enough to take the risk."
Lovino pulled away from Antonio's grasp. He sniffed once and looked the other male in the eyes. He still said nothing.
Antonio's heart broke a little more, seeing that he really wasn't going to say anything. He looked away. "I think you should go…" he said.
Lovino paused a moment longer before turning and walking calmly out of the house.
Antonio turned towards the kitchen counter behind him and put laid both hands on it, leaning down. Two tears dropped from his eyes before he composed himself and went towards the bedroom. The bed was still a mess from the night before. He choked back from crying and opted to sleep on the couch instead. Though as he laid down, he remembered the first night he had slept on it.
**
"Look Lovi! We finally got our own house! Are you ready to build our future together?" Antonio asked the younger male.
Lovino blushed lightly and looked away. "Don't say such embarrassing things!" he said.
Antonio smiled and hugged his boyfriend. He then started to pull him towards the kitchen. The lights were dimmed and candle stood in the middle of the kitchen table where a dinner had been prepared and wine sat in a cooler. "Hope you're hungry." he smiled.
After they had finished eating they talked while they finished off the wine. And soon after they headed to the living room and sat on the couch.
"Do you like it, Lovi? I worked hard to try and make it a place you would like and enjoy living in." Antonio said, an arm around the other's waist.
"It's alright, I guess." Lovi said, face flushed and eyes wandering around the darkened room.
Antonio chuckled and kissed his cheek. Lovino looked at him in surprise. "I love you, Lovi." he confessed and kissed him. Lovi resisted at first but eventually gave in to the heated kiss.
Antonio pulled back and looked into Lovino's eyes. "I hope to be like this with you forever." he said.
Lovi blushed, "You say the corniest things!" he said. Antonio smiled.
They kissed some more, which eventually led to touching, which led to much more.
As they were both nearing their climax Antonio leaned down low and whispered to his lover, "Forever Lovi, you hear me. I'm gonna love you forever."
Lovi looked at him and gave the slightest hint of a smile. He moaned and pulled Antonio down on top of him completely. He mumbled something incoherent and moaned loudly as he climaxed.
Antonio followed soon after and collapsed on top of the other. He kissed Lovi once more and they both fell asleep just like that. Wrapped in each other's arms.