Everything changed the day the Valentine brothers attacked. For the most part, a huge depression seemed to loom over the manor and the remaining inhabitants. But they would carry on like always. Strong and unflappable, true Hellsing knights pushing past the emotional blow to ensure that Millennium would pay. Seras tried to move past the event but the memory continued to haunt her. She recalled her lack of control and the blood-lust frenzy she took part in when killing her fellow comrades turned ghouls.

It was a display of her true nature, a monster and this pained her. She couldn't bare to become something so destructive. If Integra hadn't stopped her she was certain that lack of control would have led to their complete obliteration, with the walls completely painted in their crimson. A strange feeling overcame her every time she recalled Integra's intervention. The iron woman rarely showed any emotion but in that instant she had seen and felt an array of emotions coming off her commander.

The break in her barriers, combined with the firm hug, that desperately pleaded with her to stop had her quickly coming back to reality. Only something serious would have Integra acting so out of the ordinary. The shift in her demeanor was just as surprising as the feeling of protection and warmth that came with her embrace. At the time she hadn't given any thought to the sensation of being held by Integra but now it was just as troubling as the massacre. Closing her eyes she thought back on the sensation of soft breasts pressing against her back, silky hair cascading around her shoulders just barely tickling her neck, and the rumble of her commanding voice as she begged her to stop. It filled her stomach with butterflies. In that innocent act she realized, Integra had given way to a growing attraction.

"Seras why aren't you training with the soldiers?" The very woman interrupted her train of thought. She was certain she was blushing but Integra gave no sign that she was aware of this.

"The captain thought it would be best if I trained when the men weren't. They can get a little... Rowdy."

Integra's lips pressed together at the statement and she looked angry. Did she do something wrong?

"Understood. " Her face fell expressionless once more."Perhaps you would care to join me in the fencing room then?"

"I'm not sure that's a good idea. I'm still trying to adjust to my strength."

"It will make good practice. If you can beat me you'll be unstoppable."

She didn't like the sound of that but it would mean spending some time with Integra. It was odd but just being around her was enough to keep her undead heart happy.

"Yes sir."

Integra turned on her heels and she quickly followed. She used this time to study Integra more. It would be difficult for her to catch her staring at the angle she was walking. So she looked freely at what her eyes could take in. The men's suit she always wore did nothing to reveal the curves beneath her, the ones she knew existed after feeling her pressed against her. Her very presence was masculine but strangely feminine. She found it was something that attracted Seras to her it was overwhelmingly Integra. She held her head up high, proud, and commanding as they walked. This woman was... amazing. She thought as her heart started to swoon.

Seras you're being so pathetic right now . She argued with herself. Sir Integra doesn't want you thinking about her like that! Besides just because she dresses in men's clothing doesn't mean she's gay! She won't ever consider you anything else than a vampire, the very monsters she seeks to destroy.

"Have you fenced before police girl?" It was back to police girl. She noted disappointingly.

"No sir, I haven't."

They reached the fencing room entrance and Integra pulled the door back for her. Don't look too much into it she told herself she was just being polite.

"Thank you." She replied softly walking through the doorway. Integra didn't reply and trailed behind her.

"We'll need to change first." She gestured towards the apparel hanging on the wall.

Integra started loosening her tie and many unclean thoughts started entering Seras mind. Which she immediately became ashamed of. She diverted her gaze, while Integra remained unaware of Seras' worrisome thoughts. Moments later Integra neatly placed her jacket, tie, and cravat onto a nearby bench. Leaving her in just her slacks and a white long sleeved shirt. Seras couldn't help but noticing that several of her top buttons were undone revealing a fair amount if skin from the usually so concealed woman. How was she to fight her when she was in such a distracting state?

"Watch me as to how you put on the gear."

She nodded not trusting her voice enough to speak. Integra bent down and removed her shoes, then she was doing something Seras never expected. A popping sound followed by the sound of a zipper had her eyes widening slightly, Integra was removing her pants. She slid them down in a graceful manner revealing slim legs and smooth skin. Integra just had to be teasing her...

"Socks first." She instructed pulling the material up to her knee. Once both socks were on she moved to the next. "now the trousers."

The image of Integra in socks, underwear, and just a shirt had her feeling breathless. It was a sight she never thought she'd be apart of. She didn't want her to cover it up so soon but she reminded herself that Integra was trusting her to behave appropriately, and that Integra didn't think she needed to be careful around her.

Both legs where in the white pants and she was now zipping the fabric together.

"You"ll want to pull the pant legs up so there's a fold in the fabric above your knee cap so it's loose giving you more room to move about."

She demonstrated and was quickly moving on. Her hands began unbuttoning her shirt and she realized Integra was about to take that off as well. She felt the need to look away but Integra was showing her how to dress, she needed to watch. Once the fabric fell away Integra was placing the pants suspenders over her shoulders.

"Now this next piece might give you some difficulty." She didn't know what Integra was implying until she saw what she was putting on. A chest protector, that took the shape of a pair of breasts. Seras found she was looking at Integra's more than the protector. "It works just like a bra." she said matter of factually. Thin arms slid through each strap and she was fastening the velcro behind her. The protector made Integra's breasts seem larger than normal and she was beginning to feel her face flush.

"This is the plastron it will protect your shoulder. " She held up a white jacket made of just one sleeve that covered the right shoulder, leaving the left side open with two straps two fasten it. She slid it on and quickly demonstrated how to fasten it then neatly tucked away the remaining loose straps into the waistband of her pants. She removed a jacket from the hanger on the wall. "This offers more protection than the plastron. Just step into it and zip it up."

There was a loop just at the bottom of the jacket where she stepped through that traveled up to meet her groin. Seras thought the design was strange but didn't say anything because the moment Integra had it fastened all thoughts escaped her. She looked stunning in the well fitted uniform. It showed of her curves in just the right places and she still managed to look powerful and intimidating.

"The rest is self explanatory the mask and gloves. Now you change."

She had been so distracted by Integra's movements she had forgotten that she was expected to change as well. Beneath Integra's powerful gaze it would prove to be difficult. She had to do it though.

Pushing aside the feeling of eyes on her she began undressing, starting with something easy her boots and stockings. Once they were gone she slid the padded socks up to her knees as Integra instructed. Footsteps neared her as she continued changing. Her skirt was the next article to be removed and she was very self aware of the underwear she chose today. It wasn't a pair she wanted anyone to ever see. On them were rainbows...

Integra must think I'm so naive. But I thought they were cute at the time. To prevent further embarrassment she pulled up the trousers.

"Very good." Integra said. Seras eyes shot to hers at the statement. Her face was completely listless but her eyes felt dissecting. Now it was time to remove her shirt. She hoped she had chosen a decent bra today, she couldn't remember if she wore her just as embarrassing zebra print one. She mentally gave a sigh of relief when it turned out to be a simple black lace bra.

Integra was watching her closer now, unable to look away from the sheer size of her breasts. She was aware they were big but she didn't think they were going to be so distracting. Seras slid the protector on and reached behind to fasten it she was struggling with it just as Integra said. Before she fumbled any longer delicate hands we're doing the work for her. Her hands fell to her sides and Integra wordlessly pulled the Velcro together, bare fingers just barely brushing against her skin as she did so. Seras breath hitched at the contact and she hoped integra thought it was a result of the protector being tightened , it was a snug fit .

"What bra size are you? " Integra suddenly asked.

"40D." She squeaked. Silence over came her, and she looked to be in thought. " I'm sorry about the tight fit... I never would have guessed but it's all I have."

"It's okay." She quickly replied. "I can still move." Integra's hand fell away and she took a step back.

A strange look overcame Integra and Seras knew that if she had a pulse it would be firing off rapidly. Integra handed her her plastron and soon Seras was fully geared.

"I've been told you're a fast learner. I've witnessed a part of this so I'm hoping you'll adjust rather quickly to this type of combat." She raised her épée. "Now there won't be any points this is merely an exercise for your combat reflexes perhaps another time I will explain the full rules of épée fencing and we can have a go at that. For now I'll show you a few basic attacks and defensive moves."

"Yes sir." Seras held the sword in her hand trying to get a comfortable feel for the foreign object. Integra made it look so natural. "There are generally two main attacks thrusting." She quickly extended her sword arm forward. "And lunging which uses a thrust." She demonstrated by thrusting and extending a leg forward propelling herself off her back foot. "The idea is to be faster than your opponent. You're a vampire so naturally this should give you an advantage..." The reminder of what she was unexpectedly saddened her, it made her realize this situation wasn't a bonding experience, it was strictly business for Integra. "Just dodge for now and attack where you can." Integra pushed down her mask.

"Un Garde." She suddenly barked. Seras raised her sword, trying to remember and apply all the information Integra had just relayed to her. "Et vou apres?" What? She didn't understand French! A sigh escaped Integra. "Are you ready?"

"Yes!" She didn't feel ready. Why was she so frightened right now? This wasn't even a real battle.

"Go!" She replied. Integra lunged at Seras, she didn't even have time to blink before the epee made contact with the center of her chest. She was incredibly fast. Despite the protection Seras actually found the hit still hurt. "Come on Police girl." She egged, retreating into a defensive stance. "I'm an old woman compared to you."

An old woman? She wasn't a day over 22!

"Sir!" she whined. "You're still in your twenties…" A chuckle left Integra, she was clearly enjoying herself. Perhaps this wasn't just business? Seras found a smile tugging at her lips feeling hopeful.

"By the time you land a blow I'll be in my sixties. You haven't even attempted to make a move. Keep your head up and anticipate your opponent." Integra executed a feint causing Seras to counterattack but it failed as Integra had anticipated the move, thrusting another jab into Seras chest. She let out an oof as it hit her. "Almost," Integra replied. "Try and use your third eye. I'm not Alucard but I know it's an important aspect of being a vampire."

Seras focused her energy on accessing her third eye. This allowed her to increase her reaction time, and she successfully dodged a lunging attack from Integra. If she hadn't been wearing a mask Seras would have seen the look of surprise spread across her face.

"Excellent." She said, "Now I'm expecting an attack the next time you dodge. We aim to eliminate." Her commander side stepped and made a quick jab Seras dodged it and thrust her sword at Integra's back side. Integra, rolled forward avoiding the blow. She was officially the most incredible human being Seras ever met. "Don't tell me you're going easy on me Seras." Integra teased. The smile spreading across her face was hidden beneath her mask but Seras could hear it in her voice.

"Again same idea."

Even with the use of her third eyes she was falling short of Integra's skill level. Her reflexes were too well trained for her to make any contact. The lack of making contact was starting to irritate Seras. She had to get in at least one hit, to prove she was capable of something. Fully utilizing her third eye she made a quick lunge, much faster than her previous attacks and it was impossible for Integra to avoid completely. Integra had moved most of her core out of the blades path but it struck just beneath her arm wielding the epee. A grin of triumph spread across her face. She went to disengage but found her blade was stuck. Immediately her grin fell away. Integra dropped to her knees, clutching at the blade now lodged within her side. Fear flooded Seras, as the scent of fresh blood filled the air. She had wounded Integra she knew this was a bad idea!

"Integra!" she exclaimed moving to her side. "I'm sorry…" She found herself on the verge of tears. "I got carried away."

Integra removed her mask, and took in a deep breath of air.

"It's not your fault." She was able to speak but it sounded strained. "I pushed you to this. I'll be fine…" She hissed in pain as she quickly withdrew the sword. "Good hit." She heaved, now bending over to try and stop the pain.

"You need help, should I fetch one of the medics?" she was deeply worried. "Let's not worry them…" Integra stood but the shock of the injury and blood loss made her dizzy. She stumbled into Seras, who immediately helped her sit back down against the wall.

"Sir please you need medical attention." Integra gritted her teeth and straightened herself out.

"You're right but I can do it myself." She began taking off her jacket, each twist of her torso sending jolts of pain through her side.

This was insane. Why did she refuse to see a medic? Was it because it would be admitting defeat? She didn't understand it but would do as Integra said.

"Seras," she breathed. "unfasten my plastron."

Oh this was bad, Integra was having her undress her. This moment was going to surely haunt her in the future. With shaking hands she loosened the jacket and slid it of her body.

"Chest protector." She added. Seras removed that as well. Before her was a half-naked Integra clutching at a bleeding wound in her side. The position of her arms had her breasts pressing together further and Seras felt guilty at how badly she was feeling attracted to Integra right now. This whole situation wasn't right. Integra must have sensed her uneasiness as she seemed to suddenly stiffen beneath her gaze.

"Have you… fed today?" she asked.

"No." Her mouth suddenly felt very dry, and she was eyeing the crimson contrasting against Integra's pale skin.

"Drink." She said.

Seras eyes widened in shock. Had she heard her right?

"Drink Seras." She reiterated but this time with more strength behind her voice. "That's an order."

Integra removed the hand that had been covering the wound which immediately gave way to a stream of dark red blood. It trickled down her side, staining the white trousers she wore. She was hungry but this was Integra. How could she drink from her? What if she couldn't stop?

"Your saliva will help close the wound." The reminder had her body inching towards her. Integra sat against the wall with her head back and her legs lying straight out. It would have been easier for Seras if she chose to lay down for her but she wouldn't ask it of her.

Feeling Integra's heavy gaze on her she followed through on the order. Placing a hand on the opposite side of Integra's body, beside her hip, she leaned over the woman, pressing her lips against the soft white flesh. She lapped in some of the blood and immediately felt her body surge with the familiar need to drink, this was Integra's life force. It tasted sweet, and strong just like her. She wanted more, wanted to give in to it but willed herself to take on a gentle approach. This felt too intimate, and she was enjoying this too much.

She felt Integra's increasing pulse beneath her, the sound whirling in her ears. It was difficult taking in the blood without biting her, and she was forced to drag a tongue along the wound. An ungloved hand made its way to her strawberry blonde locks and she didn't need to look to see the affection in Integra's eyes. She could feel it through the touch it was gentle, caring and had her heart swelling with warmth. Seras pressed her lips harder against the skin swirling her tongue around it, forgetting just how sensual the act really was. A soft moan broke the rooms silence and Seras wondered if it was her own or Integra's. Then a sudden pain registered in her mind and she realized Integra was now roughly gripping at her roots.

"That's enough." She commanded looking down at her with heavy lidded blue eyes. Integra had never looked more beautiful.

Shame filled her as she pulled away. Had she drank too much? Turning her attention back to the wound she noticed it was already starting to close. Relief washed over her. Integra would be fine. Seras sat back on her knees unsure of how to proceed now.

"We'll pick up where we left off tomorrow." Integra was already starting to stand.

"No I cant… if you hadn't moved my blade would have pierced your heart. I can't control my strength."

"Police girl," she growled. "I didn't ask for your opinion. You will be here at the same time the other soldiers are training on the field. It's crucial for your development."

Seras face fell. Hurting Integra was the last thing she ever wanted to do.

Integra was suddenly offering her a hand up. It felt like Integra's way of saying I'm sorry to have done this to you but it's for your own good. She took it, marveling at how soft the fingers were in her own. On her feet Integra released her hand, but there seemed to be a small tint on her cheeks. She realized Integra was blushing! The look on her was incredibly attractive and surprising. Integra quickly looked away and walked towards her folded up clothing. Seras merely stared after her entranced by the proud manner she always seemed to hold herself, eyes lingering a little too much for Integra's liking.

Integra did her best to ignore it, her cheeks burning up while she dressed. She hadn't felt that the situation was inappropriate when she showed Seras how to dress but now that she didn't have a task to occupy her thoughts she could see now how mistaken she had been.

A wave of dizziness suddenly overcame her and she abandoned buttoning her shirt to stick a hand out against the wall. Seras instantly joined her side.

"Sir-"

"Stop." She quickly cut her off, and the hand that Seras had been moving towards the small of her back retracted.

Integra took in a steadying breath and pushed off the wall returning to the buttons. After witnessing her dizzying spell Seras remained uncomfortably close, ensuring that if she fell she would be the one to catch her. She couldn't focus with her so close. Integra needed her to move to to re-establish some appropriateness.

"Step back." She added.

Seras did so immediately confused and hurt by the cold behavior. Integra's hands fumbled nervously with Seras' gaze on her, she felt odd...

The button she was working refused to go through the hole with her shaking hands. Concern filled Seras as she watched the display. She is fatigued she thought.

A growl of frustration left Integra and she gave it a final forceful shove failing miserably at getting it through. Integra was too focused on the button to notice Seras ignoring the order to back off. Only when two hands pushed her own away did she finally realize how much closer she had actually gotten. The urge to yell at her fell away with the sensation of soft fingertips gently brushing against her skin. She didn't know what to do, the action was bold, but extremely helpful in the moment. Could she let her continue dressing her like this? It was humiliating but... Her body craved the contact.

"Seras..." She breathed her name, not really knowing why. Red orbs met her blue ones they were full of an adoration that made her heart constrict.

"Thank you..."

"Of course sir ." Her words were soft, not quite a whisper. They managed to send a shiver down her spine.

Seras moved to the next button. She was feeling light headed. But she knew it wasn't due to the bloodloss. This wasn't right...these feelings shouldn't exist. Seras hand accidentally brushed against her chest causing her breath to hitch. The blush that spread over the vampires face matched her own. A sudden thought struck Integra she wanted Seras to kiss her.

Her eyes moved to Seras' lips, they looked soft and full. She didn't doubt how good they would feel. When she brought her eyes back up there was something dark burning in Seras' eyes. It took her breath away and before she knew it, the desire to have Seras kiss her suddenly became a reality.

In an instant those soft lips were on hers, desperately seeking out a response, that she was too shocked to give. Seras' body pressed into hers backing her up against the brick wall. She was overwhelmed by the sudden embrace, and too shocked to even kiss her before she could recover Seras was pulling away, realizing her mistake.

"Oh god... I'm so sorry." She replied hastily, looking away. "I-I don't know what I was thinking. It won't happen again!"

Integra put on a mask of indifference, and tried to calm her firing pulse.

"Dress and return to your room." The command was soft but still held a biting tone. The anger Seras had been expecting never showed.

"Yes sir."

What had she been thinking? Integra!? I've ruined everything she thought.

Seras changed refusing to steal a glance at Integra while she did the same. When Integra finished changing she threw her a parting glance on the way out that had her questioning the kiss. Nothing about that glance said she was appalled by her behavior. It read quite the opposite and Seras was overcome with a mess of conflicting emotions desire, confusion, and hope.