Bella's P.O.V

It has been 5 months since Edward returned to Forks, and Edward and I seem to be as close as ever. I begged Edward to change me, but he just doesn't budge. I long to be like him, to be with him forever and ever. I want to stay seventeen with him for eternity. But he wants me to live my life as a human, unless there is a situation where the change can fit in. Since he left, there has been something about him that just doesn't seem like my Edward. His appearance is the same, soft, full auburn hair, topaz eyes, low voice, perfect body…its just the way he acts is unidentifiable. I've asked him if there was anything wrong thousands of times, but his answer stays the same. "Nothing."

Edward and I have discussed marriage, but there's something in the pit of my stomach that turns when I think of myself as a 23 year old woman, getting married to a 17 year old boy. I want to be a vampire so badly, that I almost kills me.

Carlisle tells me over and over how Edward only wants the best for me.

"Love?" I stopped my train of thought when I heard his beautiful, Angelic voice call for me from behind. I whooshed around to see him. With his pair of dark, denim jeans, and an everest green button up. I walked toward him, and brushed my hand along his jaw line. I lowered my lips to his earlobe, and heard him exhale shakily.

I traced my lips down his neck, to his throat. I ran my hands up his arms, when his fingers locked my wrists.

I looked into those soft, topaz eyes and smiled. He flashed his famous crooked grin, making my smile deepen. I went for his lips, but he shut his eyes, looking almost…pained.

I backed away, letting Edward know I was hurt. "Bella--" "Don't tell me again Edward…I already know what you're thinking." He took my wrists with such force, that it hurt. When I winced, he automatically loosened his grip. "You have no idea what I am thinking my Bella." I hated when he called me that when we were arguing.

"I jerked my hand forcefully back to my chest" I had to admit it, I was hurt. He denied my kiss, how was I supposed to feel?

Whenever I tried to kiss him, he always got tense, but he never denied me. He always felt like he was going to loose control, but I knew he wouldn't.

"Edward…why are you always so tense? I mean, we've kissed before, and I.."

"Bella…you know exactly why."

There he goes again. Always the same Edward. I was determined to demand what his problem was. I had done it before. I wasn't afraid of him. Even if he was a bloodthirsty, vampire. I didn't care.

The next thing he did, almost surprised me. He took my neck in his hand, and ran it through my brown waves. He inched closer towards me, and leaned his forehead into mine. He pulled away, leaving me with my eyes shut, searching for more.

I watched as he reached into his pocket, and pulled out a velvet red box.

He lowered himself to his knee, and I felt myself tear, and dwell. I immediately smiled at him, and let out a big joyful sob. He smiled, and revealed a 10 karat, princess cut ring, with crushed diamonds surrounding it. It was the most beautiful ring I had ever seen.

"Isabella Swan, will you do me the honor of being my wife for as long as we both shall live?"

"Yes, Edward Masen Cullen, I will do you the honor of being your wife."

I hadn't realized I was crying until I saw a droplet fall onto Edward's jeans.

He carefully removed the ring from the box, and placed on my third finger, on my left hand. When Edward rose, I started crying more, and wrapped my arms around his neck, and nuzzled my face into the crook of it.

I could feel the smile on his lips on my shoulder. I released my grip on him, and he took my hand, admiring how the ring looked on my hand. He rose my hand to his lips, and gracefully touched his lips to it.

"This was my mother's ring. My father gave it to her on the day that I was born, and they got married the following week. I know she would want you to have it."

"Oh Edward!" I screeched, a and locked his lips in mine. Thankfully, he didn't pull away this time. He kissed me back. His tongue traced my bottom lip. I knew what he was asking for. I parted my lips just slightly, and he pushed his tongue through.

Edward's P.O.V

I held her small frame in my arms, and lifted her, just off her feet. She accepted my proposal. We were engaged to be married. I knew she wanted more than anything to become one of us, and honestly, so did I, even though I would never admit it.

I surprised myself with what I did next, and knew that now that I had done it, it couldn't be undone.

I inched Bella towards my white couch, and once her knees hit the sofa, she laid down on it, along with her bringing me. I honestly didn't want to stop, but I didn't want to hurt Bella. I was afraid that If I continued, and granted Bella's wish, and make love to her, that I would hurt her.

But my mind got side-tracked, and I continued. I allowed my lips to trail down to her neck, moans escaping her mouth. I couldn't make myself stop, and that was what I was afraid of. I did plan on someday changing her, but not now. She had too much to live for.

She started unbuttoning my shirt, and pushed it off my shoulders. I didn't give a second thought about doing the same to her. When I got her shirt off, I eyes the strapless black lacy bra she had on. I lowered myself to the heaps of her breasts, and planted soft kisses on them.

Then suddenly, I felt something I have never felt before. When I suddenly felt like my pants were shrinking by the second. I looked down to see that there was something emerging from that area.

I never knew that vampires could get errections. It was a new record. Though I was not going to tell Carlisle. Bella saw this, and her mouth formed a curve. She bit her lip, and undid the button on my jeans, ever so lightly. When she unzipped them, I got a feeling of insecurities, but then I remembered that this was Bella's first time too, so she was probably just as scared as I was.

I didn't have to try to get side-tracked, because with Bella nibbling on my ear, that pretty much covered it. When she finally pulled down my jeans, my boxers went with them. When I felt them slide to my ankles, I kicked them off, and I lowered myself back down to her, and kissed her hard.

I felt her moan against my chest when my member hit her thigh.

I kissed down neck, and stopped at her breasts. I wrapped my hands around her diaphragm, and up to the clasp. When I unhooked, it, Bella shook it off, and continued kissing me. I kissed down her stomach, and traced my lips across the top of her matching laced panties. I hooked my fingers on the sides, and slowly inched them down her long legs. I brought myself back up, and squeezed my hand between us, and down to her womanhood. She writhed underneath me, when my fingers parted her slit, and ran over her clit.

She raked her fingers through my hair, and continued her track on my lips.

I continued to stroke her clit, circling, and rubbing it. When I released my hand, I heard her whimper, and opened her eyes to meet mine. She looked at me, absolutely stunned when I lowered my mouth down to her vagina.

I gave her the crooked grin that I knew she loved, and placed a kiss on her slit, before spreading it with my tongue.

Bella's P.O.V

I felt him grin against me, when I wrapped my legs around his neck, inching his face in deeper.

I groaned when his tongue found my clit, and flicked over it vigorously. I felt a burning in my stomach, and I knew I was close, apparently, so did Edward. He gripped my thighs, and inched them wider apart. Still licking my clit, I felt my muscles tighten.

"Bella, love, I need you to cum for me. Can you do that?"

I felt his cold breath against my heated core, and just nodded helplessly while licking my lips. When he lowered himself again, before I knew it, I was cumming into his mouth. "You taste so amazing my Bella." He lapped up every ounce of my orgasm.

I unwrapped my legs from around his neck, and pulled him closer to me, locking his lips with mine.

I tasted myself on his lips.

"I need you--I--ins--inside me." I managed to get out those words.

He smirked at me, and I could see the doubt in his eyes.

I propped myself up on my elbows, and took his face in my hand. He saw this, and held my hips so that I could bring both hands up to his face.

"Edward, you wont hurt me, I know you wont. I have never doubted you, and I never will…just…please Edward."

He sucked in a large breath of air; not that he needed it, and tilted me back on my back.

He positioned himself at my entrance, and I could feel his body shaking. He slowly eased his way half into me. I had to admit it, but I was nervous too. I knew it would hurt, but I could handle it. As long as I had my Edward.

Edward P.O.V

I felt the barrier, blocking me from going completely inside. I felt Bella's muscles tighten, trying every way to keep my foreigner out of her body. I looked at her for reassurance, before I plunged myself into her.

Bella's P.O.V

I screamed out in pain, and shed a few tears, this only making Edward more uneasy. I saw his face wince, and his eyes squint, feeling my pain.

He brought his hand to my hair, and kissed me hard, and full, trying to distract me from the pain he was giving me.

"I'm so sorry my love" When he said this, all I could go was whimper. I wanted to tell him that It was settling, but my mouth just couldn't find the words.

He let me adjust to his size, before I gave him a nod to let him know that I was okay.

He pushed himself all the way in, and slowly pulled back out, just leaving his tip inside of me. Then he thrusted back in, grunting.

"Faster Edward" Was all I managed to get out. The pleasure he was giving me, was incredible.

He started pumping himself faster, and harder into me, his length going in and out from inside me.

It felt so amazing to have his cold, hard penis inside. It made me shiver, but not from coldness, but from happiness.

Then suddenly, I got that feeling again, and then, Edward reached between us again, and pinched my clit. That was what I needed before I was pushed into pure ecstasy. While I was on my high, he continued thrusting into me.

Then I felt something rush into my hole.

I looked into Edwards closed eyes, right before he looked into my stunned ones.

Vampires were not supposed to have anything left in them.

This got me thinking…if he could cum inside of me, what else what Edward Cullen; the vampire capable of doing to me?

Edward pulled out of me, still shocked that he had just had an orgasm.

He laid down next to me, and pulled me into his cold, rock hard body.

"I thought that you weren't able to orgasm Edward."

"I didn't think I could…I guess I can."

"Yea…Edward, do you think that you can uhm, make a baby?"

"Oh my Bella" He said before stoking my brown locks."

Edward's P.O.V

Her words crushed me. She always told me that she didn't want children, but I knew she was just trying to make me feel better.

"Bella, I don't think so, I mean, Carlisle and Esme, they've tried, and they never conceived. I just don't at all think its possible Bella"

I felt horrible telling her that…I knew she was hopeful, but I also knew that for me to be able to give and make her baby was also impossible. That ached me to have to let her dream down.

She gave me a half smile and resumed her position in my chest.

"I love you Edward."

"I love you too Bella."

Then, she was into a deep sleep, while I was awake for all eternity.

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