Plot: Through little slices of life, Sebastian explains how spending time with Ciel sweeps him up in a whirlpool of feelings he had never experienced before. Shame, pity, anger, joy, jealousy... and love. Light Sebastian x Ciel

Disclaimer: Kuroshitsuji will be mine when pigs fly.

Note: Sebastian delivers his thoughts as if he was speaking to Ciel, but that doesn't mean he is really talking to him. That's only his way of thinking.

Please, bear in mind I am French, hence the English mistakes!

Also keep in mind I have only seen the anime so far so this is a free interpretation of the character of Sebastian.

WHIRLPOOL OF FEELINGS

PROLOGUE.

I had been wandering on Earth for centuries.

Sometimes in a human form. An old woman, a brilliant doctor, a corrupted priest, a young sailor...

Sometimes in an animal form. A crow, a black cat, a rat... Never as a dog, I despise dogs. They are the most disgusting and pathetic creatures on Earth. After humans, that is.

Sometimes in my real form, but that was pretty rare.

I've witnessed so many deaths. About half the European population dying of the Black Death within a few years, Native Americans being slaughtered, heads falling from the guillotine during the French Revolution...

I've witnessed all that without raising an eyebrow.

I've made unscrupulous deals with a countless number of humans, and devoured their souls without any remorse.

That was all my existence was about.

I was known as one of the coldest and cruellest devils, and even the other devils feared me.

But that was before.

Before I met you, Ciel Phantomhive.

When you summoned me, I thought you were one of those spoiled children I hate so much. They are loud and capricious, and so stupid they would sell their soul in exchange for a pony their rich father refuses to buy.

But the moment I saw you, being tortured, I knew you were not like them.

I could feel your craving for revenge. I could smell your unfailing determination. I could touch your lost childhood.

Then I knew.

I knew the other souls didn't matter anymore. Yours was the only one I longed for.

But your soul is not an ordinary soul. It is a precious treasure I have to work hard to deserve.

That is how I became your faithful butler.

I had no idea at that time that the contract we made would completely shatter my odd existence.

I had no idea that spending time with you would make me feel... human...

Being by your side is being swept up in a whirlpool of feelings.

Joy, pity, jealousy, sadness, shame, happiness, fear, anger... Love.

All those feelings my dark heart had never experienced.

For the first time in centuries, someone gives meaning to my existence.

Thank you, my Lord.

Thanks for reading!