There they are. Ulrich, Yumi, Odd, Jeremie, and Aelita. Sitting and laughing at their lunch table. I've done a lot of things that were very unpleasant, like standing before my old school's principal and having him yell at me on and on about how terrible it was that I put love notes everywhere. This is surely much worse.
Having to walk by a table with people who you wish were your friends, and the girl of your dreams, but they refuse to have anything to do with you is terrible. The worst part is, is that you feel so hopeless because nothing you could possibly do could make things 100 percent better. It's the worst feeling in the world.
Here I go. For the umpteenth time I walk past them, desperatly dragging my confidence behind me. I feel as if I could sink into the floor.
They stare at me with wide eyes, their chatter quickly hushes and there is an awkward silence. I freeze and stare back for a split second. The world seems to go quiet, its just me and them. Aelita gives me a small smile, but I turned me head away. I cannot get myself to smile back. I just can't.
I plop down my tray and sit at the table in the back end of the cafeteria. I glance back and see them laughing. I immediantly turn my head back and look down. If things turned out differently, I could maybe have been sitting there too. And Yumi might not have thought of me as such a bad guy.
I dont really understand why Yumi doesnt like me anyways. She's too caught up drooling over that Ulrich Stern. What does he have that I dont? That's what I'd like to know.
I really should have listened to Jeremie. If I hadn't been such a bigshot and used common sense, I wouldn't be in this mess. But, it's not like me to give up. I am going to find a way to make things better.
And with my sudden hope and surge of confidence, I picked up my tray and proudly walked out of there looking like I just won the lottery.