I can't take this life anymore…all the abuse and constant criticism. I want it all to end… I gather a couple of things and set out at night. Not knowing where I'll go. I walk to the mountain. Listening to music so I can drown out all sound. I track up the mountain, looking around. Just getting away from that horrible place brought me to ease. At this point I don't even care where I end up…
As I keep climbing the mountain, I feel a chill, it's getting a little cold and it doesn't help when I'm wearing a skirt with fishnets. Wind blowing, making my hair hit my face, I get frustrated trying to move my hair and I trip over something. I then realize I tripped over a vine and I'm falling inside the mountain. Too shocked with fear I blackout.
I awake, feeling my heart pound, breathing hard and feeling afraid. I check to see if I had broken anything- moving my fingers, arms, legs and feet. So far so good but it was unusually soft. Whatever broke my fall I'm lucky and thankful. I get up and collect myself and I look down. I'm in a bed of large golden flowers. Odd...These broke my fall? I walk off of them and they pop back up without any signs of damage to their petals. I'm struck in awe by this. I had no idea such flowers exist.
I turn and I look around I see a corridor. I walk toward it going through a door. I'm in an open area I see a little patch of grass and coming from it is a large, lone golden flower. I ignore it as I try to walk past it and then I noticed something. The flower perked up. I turn to look and it had a face, smiling cutely at me. It introduces itself in a giddy voice. "Howdy I'm Flowey the Flower!" I look at it in shock, wondering if I hit my head hard. Really? A talking flower? I look at this Flowey as I raised an eyebrow and I could only answer with one word. "Hi..." Flowey looking at me weirdly then says "You must be new here! You should know how this place works."
Suddenly I feel warmth coming from my chest and out comes a bright red heart. What the Hell…? I'm in awe looking at this. Flowey seeing my reaction perks up. "That's your soul. You can make it stronger by gaining LV or LOVE if you prefer, however you need EXP to raise it." This is like a damn video game. LOVE? EXP? Where in the heck am I? I have to be dreaming. Looking at my soul I notice I can move it quite easily. Just like moving my finger or wiggling my toe. Amused, Flowey looks on. Then summon these pellets. Something seems off to me…
As these pellets come up he says, "These friendliness pellets help you gain EXP quick catch them!" Not thinking at all I get close to one and it hits me. I feel a sharp and burning pain. I fall to my knees holding on to my chest, breathing heavily. This flower is literally trying to hurt me I should've known. This has to be a nightmare, I need to wake up! Flowey's face turns twisted and demonic cackling darkly. "YOU IDIOT! DID YOU REALLY THINK I WAS GOING TO HELP YOU? IN THIS WORLD…IT'S KILL OR BE KILLED!" Flowey summons more pellets that surround me then starts to laugh and I can't escape, "DIE!"
Is this a nightmare? Is this reality? It hurts…It hurts so much. I brace myself for the final blow until. Flowey had been attacked by a ball of fire. I hear the evil little flower yelp and then escape into the ground. Still on the ground, I hear a woman's voice. "Oh my child I'm sor you had to deal with that cruel creature!" I look up and I see a humanoid like goat. However, her eyes seem so gentle and kind but show a bit of sadness. I'm in so much pain still, my vision is blurring…I blackout.
My eyes open, vision clearing. I'm in a little room, on a child's bed. The room looks as if it hasn't been touched, only tidied up. I get up and check my body for wounds. There's nothing, no marks, no redness, no blood, not even a bruise. I look down at my hands, then I manage to take out my soul, gazing at it. A beautiful warm glow shaded in red. I never knew this is what a soul would look like. I put the soul back inside then I look to the floor, I see a pie. I get out of the bed and examine the food, it smells quite amazing, and I catch a scent of cinnamon and something else and can't figure out what it is. I take the fork and cut a piece and eat it. It was very well balanced between flavors. I start to taste the cinnamon and then…butterscotch?
After tasting this pie, I eat it slowly, savoring the flavors. While eating, I feel tears fall down my cheeks. I haven't had something this good in a long time. I can tell the amount of love and care that has been put into making this pie. I start crying softly to myself. This woman was most likely here and I didn't want her to hear me cry. A few minutes have gone by and I stopped crying. I look up to the ceiling and wonder what can I do or rather what will I do? This is a whole new world.
I decide to leave the room and explore, but obviously I take my plate with me. I see stairs and it seems as if they go somewhere. This pikes my curiosity but I try to keep it in the back of my head. I wander more 'til I reach a little living room I see her. Sitting on a big comfortable chair wearing glasses while reading a book. It doesn't take long for her to notice me standing there. She gives me a warm smile. I don't know how to react to this. She puts her book down and approaches me.
The female tells me not to be afraid and she introduces herself. Her name is Toriel. It seems she is mother to these ruins. She then learns my name. "Rin…" She pauses, then smiles. "Such a beautiful name!" She sees the empty plate in my hands and she smiles while taking the plate. "I'll clean this, you can go wash yourself, and I'll clean your clothes for you." She says. Then Toriel takes me to the restroom and gives me a towel and spare clothing.
I undress and take a hot shower. While thinking for a bit I wonder what it'll be like to stay here in this underground. Here with Toriel, I shouldn't get my hopes up however. After I finish washing up I wrap the towel around my body and look into the mirror, just staring at my reflection. Silver hair that falls almost to my shoulders; a shaggy mess basically, golden yellow eyes, pale skin, rosy cheeks, cute little nose, small red lips with a lip ring on the right side. Looking at the tattoos on my body. Lotus on my left arm, and bat wings on my back. Seeing my scars from self-harm upon my upper arms near my shoulders and my wrists. I run my fingers over the scars thinking back to when it happened. Always did it out of depression, I would space out and take it out on myself. The abuse from my parents was much too unbearable. Degrading me, striking me, belittling me…Commenting on my features either calling me a demon or monster based on my features especially my eyes.
Upon being abused at home I was treated just as terrible at other places in public such as school. Guys using me and toying with my feelings only to leave me broken in the end. Some would try to have their way with me and proceed with sexual intent. I never let it happen and then I would be called the worst names ever. Teachers would never do anything because they simply didn't care. Being called a freak all the time simply for being me and the way I look. I rarely spoke to anyone. I hated them, all of them; including my parents…they just hated me so much I don't understand why. I would always harm myself because of all this, never feeling like I'll ever amount to anything, always feeling ugly no matter what, feeling like I don't belong.
I take my eyes off the mirror and get dressed in striped pajamas which bore the colors of green and yellow, something I like. As long as my scars are covered, Toriel won't ask about 'em. Too many painful memories I don't want to think about. I go back to the living room and interact with Toriel for a while listening to her reading a book about snails and telling me how she wanted to be a school teacher. She was very adorable and kind. It made me feel odd when she was being kind to me, I've never had someone treat me like this before. Hours later Toriel then asks if I would like to stay with her and that's how I ended up staying with her for a while.
Days on end Toriel and I would read together, bake pies together and take walks in the ruins. It was quite nice. Monsters would approach me from time to time curious as to what I am. Sometimes Toriel would scare them off if they would try to attack. She told me by simply talking to them, they would be on their way. She showed me all of the puzzles in the ruins and had me solve some for myself. Upon solving a puzzle I see a ghost pretending to sleep. I interact with the ghost and gave him a warm smile. I even laughed at his dapper hat joke. He called himself Napstablook. A sweet yet shy ghost after interacting he simply disappeared. I wonder if I'll ever see him again.
A couple of weeks go by and I get more and more curious about what's downstairs. After being in the ruins for a while it started to feel smaller and smaller. I wanted to explore more. I don't hate being here but being in such a small place for a long time really gets to you. I got to the living room where I find Toriel on her chair reading. She sees me and smiles "Hello, my child, is there something you need?" I feel terrible for this, my stomach twisting in knots. I pop the question to her on how to exit the ruins. She got quiet then got up and said "I have to do something, stay put." Curiosity got the best of me so I grabbed my stuff and followed because I had a weird feeling about something.
As I follow her she's down the stairs. "Don't follow me, go back upstairs." Toriel sounded serious. However, I'm not going to and I continue to follow as she quickens her pace. Again she tells me to go to my room. "Why?" I asked. "I'm going to destroy the ruins, that way no one will leave." What? Is she crazy? "What do you mean? You can't keep me trapped in here." I shot back sternly. She answers back "You fool if you go out there, they…ASGORE will kill you." I heard her voice crack a little as she said this. Has she lost someone? I keep following her. "You want to leave so badly?" she asks. I stay quiet, watching her. "Then prove yourself." She states. Feeling determined, I accept.
She attacks with her fire magic, thinking fast I move out of the way but I don't run. I try talking but she ignores it. One of her fireballs manage to graze my right cheek. It burned so bad, but I held back my scream. "Fight or run!" Toriel shouted! The she started to miss on purpose and I stayed firmly in place. Toriel eyes seemed so sad and she tried to convince me to stay but I just stayed there quietly. "Pathetic is it not? I cannot even save a single child…" She said sadly. She gave up, asked me not to come back and hugged me. I hugged her tightly. I say softly to her, "Thank you for being the mother I never had." I tear came down from her eye and she left. I had tears coming down my eyes then I wiped them away as I went through the door. A familiar darkness filled the room and I see that damn flower again.
He smiles smugly at me and comments how I spared Toriel then says "What will you do when someone actually tries to kill you?" I stay quiet. "You'll die and die and die and die again until you kill from frustration!" Flowey then laughs maniacally and disappears. I collect my thoughts and shrug it off. God I hate that flower, creepy little shit. I keep walking and I see two huge doors. I take a deep breath, open the doors and leave the ruins.