Kay I had an idea and wanted to get it out. It will be a while before they do anything "adult" so be patient. I really want feed back and want to know what you think.

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Would it sound cheesy if I told you I was in love with my best friend?

It would, wouldn't it? But, I am.

And he loves someone else.

Unfortunately that someone is my sister, whom I am extremely close to. And as long as he pines after her, he will never feel the connection we have. And it breaks my heart to watch him get his heart broken because she will never love him the same way. But he wants her.

Not me.

This is the story of how I let the love of my life go.

My name is Scarlet Savannah Swan and I am irrevocably, unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Jacob Black.

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I guess I start from the beginning. Bella Swan is my older sister- well, half-sister. You see, her mother, Renée, left our dad, Charlie, when Bella was only a baby. Dad was heartbroken and in shock. It really hit him hard and once the divorce was finalized he kinda went into a state of depression. He had loved Renée with all his heart and she had ripped it from him when she left with his only daughter at the time.

But, lo and behold, his good friends, the Blacks, introduced him to a lovely auburn haired, green-eyed waitress from Seattle. Her name was Savannah Newbank or mom, to me. She was tall and curvy with wavy auburn locks on her head. She had creamy Irish skin and a light sprinkle of freckles across her nose. She had big doe eyes lined with thick lashes and a sassy and playful attitude to boot. She was beautiful even in her early thirties. And within a year of meeting her, Charlie had come out of his depression over Renée and fallen in love all over again with Savannah.

After the year, Charlie had proposed to Savannah and they had both decided to skip the big wedding and just had it legalized at the courthouse with a few of their friends and family there. They had at least dressed nicely with Charlie in black slacks and a maroon button up with a black silk tie that he barely ever wore. Savannah on the other hand wore a white sundress and white flats that she looked absolutely breathtaking in. To Charlie she was always beautiful in anything she wore from the most expensive silk cocktail dress to her sweats.

Her hair fell loose, framing her heart shaped face. And about a year after that, I was born on a rainy day in Forks General Hospital on March 24th. Two months before, the only person I will ever love was born on the 14th of January.

Jacob and I did everything together from diapers to puberty. We never separated our entire lives. When we were babies, we bathed together- proof of which our parents were never afraid to show to anyone with all the pictures they would take- made mud pies with Bella, splashed in mud puddles, did soccer (which I still do), and went to school together on the Res. Our parents didn't want us to be separated so when it came time for pre-school, we both attended the same school on the Res.

We played soccer from kindergarten to third grade together- coached by Harry Clearwater- but Jacob got tired of it by fourth grade but I still continued it with a passion.

Every summer Bella would visit us in Forks. Mom loved her even though she knew Bella wasn't her daughter. Bella was a little more reserved with her though but mom never stopped treating her as her own and dad just fell more and more in love with her. But even if Bella didn't feel the same toward my mom, she felt the same toward me.

When Bella was over she was the best big sister I ever wanted. We rarely fought and never lost touch, even after she stopped visiting when she was twelve and I was just turning ten. We e-mailed and texted and called each other.

But before that there was the Crash, as Jacob and I call it.

It had been when we were both seven. My mom and Jacob's mom were both on their way somewhere and they had been t-boned by a drunk driver. The drunk driver had hit them so hard that the car had been pushed all the way into a lamppost and dented it... badly. Both our moms were killed instantly. All the glass and metal had mangled both their bodies to the point where both their coffins were nailed shut at the funerals.

The death of their mother was horrible on Rachel and Rebecca- the older twin sisters of Jacob. They had left right after graduation, Rachel going to collage and Rebecca getting married and moving to Hawaii with her surfer husband. When Jacob and I were twelve Billy had been put in a wheelchair because of his diabetes.

It's now three years later and Jacob was fifteen and I was turning fifteen in March- freshmen in high school. It was when we were twelve though that I started to have feelings for him and he was just as ignorant to it then as he is now.

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Bella's coming home today. Well, not home home but she's now going to live with Charlie and me as she finishes high school. Dad had gone to the airport to pick her up and I'm home baking away as I wait for them to show up. Dad had bought Billy's old Chevy and was having Jacob and Billy drop it off before she got here.

I heard the loud rumble of the beat up old truck before the slamming of the heavy doors. I had just pulled the cupcakes out of the oven when a deep voice said, "Knock, knock." And the sound of the front door opening mixed with my Marianas Trench CD.

"In here!" I called back. I started to ice the cupcakes as Jacob rounded the corner into the kitchen. I had finished the first one and handed it to him, not looking at him, as he wheeled Billy in, not missing a beat.

"Yes!" he half hissed, half whooped as he happily took the cupcake from me and parked Billy by the table as he took a seat at the breakfast nook.

I rolled my eyes. "You're such a fatty, Jacob." I said as I licked the last of the frosting off the knife and bowl with my finger.

"Spewk fow yow swelf." He said as he shoved the rest of the cupcake in his mouth. I laughed as I patted my flat stomach.

Billy rolled his eyes as he watched our exchange. It had been like this between us since our preteen years. "Christ, you two." He muttered as he snatched a cupcake from the counter. "So when does your sister get here?" he asked casually.

I shrugged as I hopped on the counter. "Dad left like a couple hours ago to pick her up but he hasn't called yet." And as if he were listening, my phone rang. "Speak of the devil." I muttered as I flipped it open. "Hey, just talking about you."

Dad chuckled on the other end. "Hey, Letty. You bake me something yet?"

I rolled my eyes as Jake and Billy eyed me expectantly. "You know it. Cupcakes with Sue's recipe for chocolate frosting. And from the drool coming from Jacob and Billy I'd have to say it's a success." I laughed lightly as I licked the last of the frosting from my fingers.

He laughed again on the other end. "That's good. Sue makes great stuff."

I laughed along with him as Jacob was making faces as to ask what was going on. I waved him off. "Hey, they dropped off that, uh, package for you. And you better hurry home before all the cupcakes mysteriously disappear." I said, swatting Jacob's greedy hand away from the delectable morsels.

Dad sighed. "Alright well we're almost in Forks so we'll see you at the house."

"'Kay, see you when you get here." I said and hung up. I had set my pone down on the counter when Jacob's hand shot out again for another cupcake but got the end of the wooden spoon instead. "Stop! Those are for Charlie and Bella! You can have the leftovers." I waved the spoon in his face as he cradled his injured hand. He tried to use the pout on me but it failed miserably.

It was playful but I could see in Jacob's eyes that he was excited to see Bella again. He had started to get a crush on her the last time she was here and it was painfully obvious to everyone but Bells and Charlie. I think dad's kinda starting to figure it out though. I picked up the platter of cupcakes and walked outside as Jacob helped Billy down the steps of the house. I grabbed my white wool pea coat on the way out. I looked up and smiled as Harry stood out by the truck. "I'm guessing you drove Billy?" I asked as the breeze ruffled my long brown hair.

He grinned as I offered him a cupcake. "Hey! That's not fair!" Jacob whined as he got Billy down the last step.

I placed the platter on the tailgate of the Chevy and pulled my coat on. "Oh, stop your whining." I hopped up on the back of the tailgate as Jacob wheeled Billy over then took his spot next to me. "If you keep eyeing those cupcakes I'm going to have to knock you out or they're not going to make it to Bella." I said not looking at him.

"Dammit." He muttered next to me.

I rolled my eyes as we waited for Bella. The wind kept blowing my hair in my brown eyes. I didn't really look like my mom, I looked like Charlie. Brown hair, brown eyes, no heart shaped face here; it's more of an oval. I even had Charlie's broad shoulders, but not like man shoulders, they work for a girl. I'm kind of lanky but I have an athletic build with all the years of soccer. "So are you going to join the school's soccer team this year, Scarlet?" Harry asked as he daintily bit into his cupcake.

I looked over at Jacob, who grinned back at me and nodded. "Yep. Coach Townsend is already after me to go for varsity since his star forward graduated last year and couldn't even play because she broke her ankle in the second game of the season. They were lucky to even win the few games they did."

Harry chuckled. "You were always a natural at it." He eyed Jacob.

"Hey, I quit cause I sucked." He said defensively as he put up his hands.

We all laughed but stopped once we heard the sound of dad's cruiser as it came down the street. I looked in the direction of the sound to see the cruiser driving toward us. I squealed quietly as it came to a stop and jumped off the tailgate as the passenger door flew open. "Bell-Bell!" I yelled, running to my sister.

Bella grinned wide at me as she ran around the car. "Scar-Scar!" she yelled back as we embraced. It had been five years and it felt nice to be with her again. To know that I in fact did have a sister.

"Oh, don't mind me. I got all this luggage." Dad said from the other side of the car. Bella and I both laughed as we pulled away from each other.

"Sorry, dad." She said as she winked at me.

"I gottcha, Charlie." Jacob said as he jogged to help my dad.

Bella furrowed her brow. "Is that…"

"Jacob?" I offered. She nodded in return. "Yep." I said, wrapping an arm around her as she did to me. Jacob and dad dropped off Bella's bags on the porch and came back to our little group. "Oh!" I exclaimed, remembering what I had to protect. "Here, I had to keep these from the wolves that have been hounding me for more." I said handing her the plate of cupcakes.

She smiled at me. "Vanilla cupcakes with chocolate frosting. You remembered." She said hugging me with one arm.

Billy wheeled himself over and stuck out his hand for Bella. "Hi Bella. I'm Billy Black. You might not remember me."

Bells just smiled. "No, I do. Scar sends me pictures of everything every now and then." I blushed as she said that bit of information so proudly. Billy gave me a pointed look but I was looking anywhere but him. The rest of the day went by like that. Everyone chatted with Bella as we sat in the living room eating cupcakes. Jacob wouldn't stop staring at Bella the whole time even though he sat next to me the entire time but I just sat there and pretended that it didn't rip my heart apart to see him look at someone else like that, with those deep, chocolate brown eyes he had. The eyes of his mother.

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I slammed my locker shut right when the bell for class sounded. "Yo! Scar!" I looked up to see the three Stooges coming my way. Their names being Jacob, Quil and Embry. I rolled my eyes as I headed to first period. "Morons." I muttered as they continued to push past the crowd of students. I squealed when three sets of hands pulled me backward and engulfed me in a huge group hug. I growled. "Let me go, you big lugs." I tried, and failed, to free myself from their clutches.

Someone cleared their throat before speaking in a rumble, "Mr. Black, Mr. Call, and Mr. Ateara, I assume you three would like detention if you do not release Miss Swan this instant." And just like that they dropped me- literally. I caught my footing before I hit the floor though, so it's all good.

They all hid their hands behind them, as they stood straighter. "Sorry, Mr. Arroyo." They each chimed to our first period teacher.

The middle-aged guy smiled back at them, his mild crows feet crinkling. "Thank you boys. Now, all of you better get to class before that horrible teacher has to give you all detention." We all smiled wide and sped off to class.

"Idiots." I said to them as we rounded the corner to the hall of our first class. They just laughed as we entered class and took our seats in the back of History. "I'm not kidding, you guys are nincompoops." I said as I placed my high-top sneakered feet on my desk and leaned back in my chair.

My hood came flying in my vision as I heard the only voice that could make my day horrible. "Might want to cover up paleface. You look kinda cold." Paul sneered as he walked by with his gang of Paul clones, including his best friend, Jared.

I glared as I fixed my hood and hair. "Fuck off, Walker." Embry said, voicing the words I would have picked.

Paul scowled at Embry. "Shut it, Call. This is between me and the brown haired bimbo." That's when Jacob, Quil and Embry all shot up from their seats and stood between Paul and me. Only before anything could happen, Mr. Arroyo started class, eyeing our congregation in the back of class. We all took our seats and class went on.

After the bell rang, Jacob, Quil, Embry and I all started for our second period. This year we all had practically the same schedules. "Why the hell does Paul the man-whore always mess with you, Scar?" Quil asked as we walked up the stairs to our second period.

I shrugged. "Most likely to get in my pants like every girl in the school. I'm ninety-nine percent sure I'm the only one he has yet to gang bang with his followers." I rolled my eyes as Quil and Embry split from Jacob and I to go to their first elective as we walked to ours.

"God, I hate those guys." Jacob muttered as he dodged a lost transfer.

"Uhlg, me too. They do nothing but pick fights and sleep with the sleaziest girls they can find." We walked into our Spanish class and sat in the back like we always do. "At least we only have to deal with Paul and his minions in first, lunch and sixth and seventh." I shrugged, pulling out my textbook.

Jacob was quiet for a minute as he stared at the bellwork on the board. Or in Spanish class, it's el bellwork. (A/N: Not making it up. My Spanish teacher calls it el bellwork.) I started working on the bellwork when Jacob asked about the one person who wasn't here. "So, uh… how's Bella doing?" he asked while picking at his notebook.

My pencil stopped moving as I took in his question. I really hated that all he really wanted to do now was talk about Bella. He knew I was getting annoyed with all his questioning but I wasn't going to be rude. It had only been a couple days since Bella got here and he wouldn't stop asking about her. I sighed. "Why don't you come over today and see for yourself?"

Jacob ginned at me as Sr. Martinez started class. Our classes flew by and then came lunch and the announcement that tryouts for soccer were going to be held after school on the field. "Man! Why today?" I whined because my car was getting an oil change from Jacob, so I had to catch a ride with dad this morning so I have no ride home. I looked over at Jacob with my puppy dog eyes.

He sighed exasperatedly as he put his sandwich down. "Yeah, I'll wait for you to finish at tryouts and take you to my place to get your car."

I smiled. "Thanks. And you're coming over right?" I took a bight out of my sloppy Joe. He nodded and we all headed to class after sending glares back and forth from Paul's table to ours. I split from the guys to head to the gym when I ran into Kim outside the locker rooms. "Hey, Kimmy."

She smiled shyly back. "Hey, Scarlet. How're you doing?" I was about to answer her when I was slammed into the wall as Jared walked by with Matt Warner. They snickered as they walked to the guy's locker room. "Oh my God, Scar! Are you okay?" Kim asked, practically having a panic attack.

"I'm fine." I said gruffly as I glared at their retreating forms. "Jackasses." I muttered and pulled Kim into the locker room. "How you can actually have a crush on Jared when he and Paul make it their life's mission to ruin mine is beyond me." Kim blushed guiltily as we changed into our PE clothes. All my classes past in a blur the rest of the day and even tryouts past before I knew it.

I had showered in the locker room and gotten dressed quickly. "Bye, Scarlet." Emma said as I passed her locker.

"Bye." I chimed back.

"See ya, Scar."

"Bye, Scar."

"See ya in chem." I smiled as all the girls said their byes as I walked out. We had all grown up in soccer together and it was almost a mini family to all of us.

"See you guys at practice next week." I grinned as I pushed the door open to the gym hall. I knew we would all get on the team. After tryouts, Coach Townsend had pulled me aside and told me he wanted me on the field right then. He was desperate for a new forward and I think he prayed extra hard for a new star player. I always brushed off peoples praise for my skill but I enjoyed it recreationally. What I really wanted to do was go to pastry school and open the bakery that my mom always dreamed of but never had enough money to do.

I walked out of the double doors into the cold air of La Push and wrapped my jacket tighter around me. I didn't have to wait long because five minutes later Jake pulled up in my red Range Rover. I smiled as he got out and tossed me the keys then took his place in the passenger seat. "Still can't believe you have a license." He muttered. I grinned as we pulled out of the school and headed to Forks.

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