Best I Ever Had

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Rating/Spoilers: M (character death/violence). Books 1-5

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"Time is a special thing. What you do with it determines you're future. The actors you take, result in various outcomes. The idea is to make the wisest move, the move that you want, not the move the world wants."

–Albus Dumbledore

Harry could remember those words any day. He knew those were the words Dumbledore spoke the night before the war begun. It was the longest running war that included thousands of deaths; deaths of unknown and famous muggles, and of course wizards. Many witches and wizards fell to the battles of death eaters and of course…Voldermort. Harry just wanted to cut his wrists every time that horrid name was spoken. Voldermort had taken everything away from Harry, his parent's, godfather, and friends. That's right, friends from Hogwarts. Almost all the members from Dumbledore's Army had fallen. Ron had fallen as well, the red headed Weasley with a sensibility of a true loyal friend. He was gone, along with his brave sister, and honorable parents. Harry hated to remember this but everyone he cherished was gone, the Order, Hagrid, even the great Dumbledore, and the love of his life. Hermione… the true love of his life was gone. Harry hated himself and cried deeply for the times he wished he had her. Harry left her at times during his stage of jealousy, and depression. The only thing left of her he has now is memories, and her wand. Harry tried not to remember the night…

"Harry! Were surrounded!" Ron cried from a corner.

Harry looked around to find every wizard he knew fighting against death eaters. He was busy fighting off Malfoy when suddenly he heard a cry that sounded too familiar to Hermione. Harry felt his heart stop and he quickly ran to the place where he heard the cry. When arriving he saw her being dragged by the hair on her head by no other than the evil Voldermort.

"Let her go!" Harry yelled.

Hermione turned around to see Harry and she gave a desperate smile.

"How about. no?" Voldermort claimed.

Without taking any chances, Harry yelled Avada Kedavra but was out beaten by Voldermort's spell. Harry flew to the ground and before he could get up, he was being tugged on the arm. He turned to his side to find Hermione helping him up and urging to run. She was crying and for that moment he cupped her face and quickly kissed her. They parted and together ran to a safe place. Once in a room and making sure it was locked, Harry held on to Hermione.

"Harry! We have to go back out-"

Harry gently placed his hand to her mouth.

"Hermione! I brought you here so I could tell you for what might be the last time..that I love you."

Hermione smiled and removed his hand from her mouth so she could kiss him. They quickly parted for the explosion from the door.

"Harry, I love you too."

With that, they stood up holding hands and ridded of those at the door. Suddenly, everything went crazy when a faint voice cried " Imperio." He turned to find Hermione slowly walking out the door.

"Hermione!" Harry cried. She didn't react so he called her again, still no response. He ran to her and tried snapping her out of the trance she was in.

"Hermione! He's controlling you! Fight it with you're mind power! Please babe, fight him!"

Harry started to panic worse than before, and before he could do anything else she was in arms reach of Voldermort.

"Finally! I have you right where I want you!' Voldermort snickered.

"No! Leave her alone!" Harry exclaimed.

Voldermort laughed at Harry and had his wand at the ready. Harry saw Voldermort wave his hand and he heard Hermione getting her wand and crying out a spell. He ran to help her but was too late for a flash of green light was emitted from Voldermort's wand and he heard a whimper and the thump of a body hitting the floor. Harry cried and saw the lifeless body of his love on the floor. Harry ran to her, tears flowing from his eyes.

"Please Potter, you could do so much better. Why love a filthy mudblood when you could have power like me?" Voldermort laughed maniacally.

Harry grew with fury and grabbed Hermione's wand and performed a curse so powerful for it killed Voldermort instantly. Harry bent back down to her body and held her in his arms, crying for her to come back alive.

Harry sat in the dark corner of the remains of the once bright Hogwarts school. Its walls were falling, the ceilings no longer luminated but dark and dusty. Harry sat in the Gryffindor common room, near the remaining fireplace. Harry closed his eyes and cried tears of sorrow, and remembrance.

"Harry! You need to finish you're homework!"

Hermione had urged while peering over her books. Harry sighed and put down his sneakoscope. They were in the common room, working by the fire. These three cozy couch chairs had become their official spot.. Of course Ron too, when he was around. Since they started their 6th year, Ron dropped out on being a prefect and got completely involved in Quidditch. As for Hermione, she continued on SPEW and hardly ever commented on both Harry and Ron's useless help. Of course Harry remained non-prefect, but Hermione was one and gladly not so uptight about it.

"Geez, Hermione. it's 10:50 pm! Don't you just want o relax?"

Hermione scoldly looked up from her book.

"Just relax? Harry, exams are in about 6 weeks and I haven't seen you do 1 inch of studying! if you want to be an Auror or get a passing grade, then you need to work harder!"

Harry just sighed deeply and begun reading his book. After 15 minutes, Hermione put her book down.

"Harry? You're really reading?"

Lying, he nodded his head to say yes.

"Thanks, it's going to help you pass. I promise."

With that, she placed her hand on top of his. Harry stinctly looked up and saw a gleaming and very beautiful Hermione.

Harry smiled and wiped the tears from his cheeks. he looked around the rubble on the ground, hoping for a sign. Suddenly, he saw something glimmer from underneath the rocks. Harry bent down to uncover it and found a very prized possession of Hermione's. A time turner with its gold lightly faded. it was amazingly in mint condition for Harry picked up and clasped it in his hand. He went to sit back on the couch, closing his eyes again this time clutching tightly on her time turner.

It was rainy, and the common room was packed with many happy Gryffindor who were celebrating Ron's feat to Malfoy in Quidditch. Harry came in and gave Ron a manly hug and handshake.

"Congrats!"

"Thanks pal!"

Ron looked as if to say something else, but was swept away by an attractive blonde. Harry smiled to himself to see Ron disappeared, Harry noticed Hermione wasn't around. he looked around and realized she was all alone, sitting in her usual chair buried in her books. Harry laughed slightly and walked over to her. he knelt down in front of her. She noticed this and peered over her books.

"Um, hi Harry."

Smiling, Harry shook his head.

"Ok, what's that for?" She asked.

"Because, were having a small party here and your still in you're books."

"Well, exams are 3 weeks away!"

"Hermione?"

"Yes Harry?"

"Come with me."

He stood up and held out his hand. Hermione looked at him strangely.

"Harry, what are you doing?"

"Were getting out of here."

"Why? I'm studying!"

"You can do that tomorrow! Just take my hand and come with me."

Harry pleaded for what seemed like hours before she finally gave in. She dropped her books and took his hand. he pulled her up and together they left the common room. After a long walk, they finally reached the tree by the lake.

"Why are we here?"

"Because, you need a break."

With that, Harry pulled her in closely to him to the point where they were touching noses.

"Harry? What's going on?" Hermione whispered.

"I'm giving you a break of course!" he whispered back.

He smiled and went to kiss her on the cheek. he pulled away, slightly blushing for his actions and walked towards the lake. Hermione glazed confusedly, touching the cheek Harry had kissed.

Harry laughed at how brave he really was. "I guess hiding something for awhile deep inside sneaks its way to the top" he said to himself. Harry looked down at the time turner wondering if he should use its magical power. Then again, why go through the horror all over again? There's no way to bring her back, she's gone. Harry felt angry and threw the time turner against the wall. He buried his head in his hands thinking of the things he would do to get her back.

Harry was in the library, watching closely at Hermione as she furiously flipped through her book. he found himself constantly doing this and suddenly fantasying about her. he had to punch himself to jump out of it.

"It's not in here! I need to teach you counter curses!" She replied while scanning her book. Harry flipped through his book again, not noting anything at all. he wanted to be with Hermione alone, and confess how he felt for her. Based on the fact that it was their last year together and Voldemort could be back any day to kill them, Harry put down his book and walked over to Hermione. He sat down in front of her and ran his hand through her hair. Hermione looked up seeming rather pleased.

"What are you doing? Did you finish reading?"

Harry stared deeply into her brown eyes. She had a sense of hunger in them for he wanted to kiss her right then, but held himself down.

"I need to tell you something, but not here. Let's go to a more peaceful place."

Hermione at first refused, but Harry reached for her ticklish spot and she screamed okay! They ran out of the library before getting killed by Madam Pince and headed towards their destination.

They finally reached their spot and for some odd reason, Harry held on to Hermione's hand every step of the way. She too noticed this, but had no objection to it. "If only he knew" she told herself. Harry headed closer to the lake and Hermione tagged along, hands still together. They took a seat near the lake, Harry finally letting go of Hermione's hand. she sat down and placed her hand in the lake, swaying it back and forth. She looked at Harry, he seemed bothered. she wanted to know what was wrong and therefore sat closer to him. Harry looked up and saw a very concerned Hermione. He seemed to se this particular expression a lot for the chaos that had been happening at Hogwarts for awhile now. Harry quickly joined Hermione's needing look and begun to open his mouth.

"Hermione..I-"

Harry didn't think it could be this hard. he didn't want to discuss the prophecy or why he had to leave soon. Harry closed his eyes, took a deep long breath and forced it out.

"Hermione, that night at the ministry of magic, the prophecy broke and we heard nothing,"

"Right but-" She was stopped by his hand being placed over her lips.

"Wait, but Dumbledore told me what it said later in his office. It stated that both of us can't…"

He sighed, ran his hand threw his messy hair and let it out.

"Live, one of us has to kill the other for survival."

He closed his eyes and screamed inside. he opened them again to see Hermione head buried in her hands. he could hear every sob she was giving. Not knowing what else to do, he moved closer to her and embraced her. She quickly wrapped her arms around him and tightly held on to him.

"O Harry! I..I can't believe this! There..might be some..sort of mistake or something!"

He couldn't find the right words to say so instead he ran his hands through her hair. This made her stop sobbing, but not enough to stop her from crying.

"Hermione, I'm so sorry. I had to tell you. but there's something else."

She withdrew herself from him, fearing what was coming next.

'I have to leave in about 2 weeks to fight Voldemort or he will destroy the world."

Hermione gasped and was more shocked than she was just seconds ago. She couldn't think or breathe. The whole idea of them falling in love after her confession, ruined! She had no choice but to decide on if she should tell him or not..

"Hermione? Please say something."

He looked in her eyes, I have to tell her. He kept telling himself the confession might make her feel better, but it was most definitely not the perfect time to say it. But would he ever get a second chance? Before thinking twice, he found himself grabbing Hermione by the waist and forcefully leaning her in towards him. He hovered his lips against hers and quickly impressed further. Hermione at first held guard, but the sensations of Harry's tongue against her lips cause her to give in. Their tongues met and after what seemed like forever, they slightly pulled apart and against her lips he confessed. She smiled and whispered back, "I love you too. Always have and forever will." With that, they continued to embrace each other and kiss, causing them to forget about the world outside.

Harry cried harder than ever. He screamed in agony and of the depression that he suffered. The worst part was his Hermione wasn't coming to save him from himself this time. He slowly lifted his head from his hands. "I have to get out of here, this place is tearing me apart." with that, he got up and ran.