*Disclaimer* I do not own Inuyasha or anything that relates to Inuyasha.
*Disclaimer #2* I do not own the song "I'd Rather Be In Love" by Michelle Branch or anything that relates to it.
*Summary* Kagome is at home when Inuyasha comes to visit her after a fight. They make up to Michelle Branch's "I'd Rather Be In Love" off of her CD Spirit Room.
*Parings* Kagome/Inuyasha
*A/N~ Rating for language and angst*
I'd Rather Be In Love
By: Ali B.
Part 1: I'd Rather Be In Love
***Kagome's POV***
"I can't believe him! That fucking asshole!" I scream out to the world as I make my way out of the well house.
I stop my rambling for just a minute to check if anyone's home. Nope, great, just fucking great.
"SHIT! Just great! What did I do so wrong?! Why does my life have to be so fucking unfair! What the hell have I done that is so unforgiving?! God damnit!"
As I stomp up to my room and slam my door. I jump on my bed and scream into my pillow with all my might. When I finally catch my barrings I sit up and glare at my window. HIS window. The window that HE always comes threw to drag me back THERE! Back to my hell where THEY are always together. I turn around then, back to the window as it hangs open so innocently. Yeah, innocent, that just fits it, that son-of-a-bitch window!
I start to talk, well, yell aloud again.
"How could Inuyasha say that I was "just a shard detector" when we're supposed to be friends? That stupid ass prick! I help him, give up everything for him, but yet it's not enough! Nothing is ever enough! None of the shit I do is EVER good enough for that damn man! I never want to go back, I never want to hear him again as long as I live! AH!"
I sit there seething for a moment then realize something and start to laugh at myself.
"But then again what the hell am I babbling on about? I love that damn idiot! Gods how I hate him! But I love him too! I hate him for making me love him! This is his entire fault! Idiot, idiot, idiot! Damn you, Inuyasha!"
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I cannot help it
I couldn't stop it if I tried
The same old heartbeat fills the emptiness I have inside
And I've heard that you can't fight love, so I won't complain
'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?
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"Heh. I think that he knows that I can't stay mad at him. The fucking bastard. He has to or else he would be nicer. Or maybe he really does hate me."
At this point I start to tear up.
"Probably does. After all, just like he says, I am weak, ugly, worthless, bitch, a nuisance to everyone and everything. I am someone who deserves to be killed. Maybe that's why Inuyasha keeps Kikyo around, hoping that one day she'll actually kill me, well, that and he loves her. No, never me, he could never lower himself enough to love the loser, powerless, unattractive, wannabe, miko, wench. Never. Maybe I should die, but then I would still die loving him."
Now I am full on sobbing and crying, no longer able to speak. I am crying so loud that I don't even notice the strong pair of arms that wrap around me and pull me close. The owner whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Until I heard him say, "I love you." Then I freeze.
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'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
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***End POV***
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Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do
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***Inuyasha's POV***
'Shit I mad her mad again. This time I really fucked up. How the hell could I call her "just a shard detector" like that? That is NOT what she is to me. She is my life, the air I breath, the force that keeps my from floating away. My one and only.' I think to myself and I make my way to the well.
"This is what brought her to me." I say absently.
I climb out of the well and find that Kagome is home alone in her bedroom. Good. That will make apologizing a lot easier. I hope.
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'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
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As I make my way to my window I hear screaming. At first I was going to rush up, but then I caught what was actually being said.
"Heh. I think that he knows that I can't stay mad at him. The fucking bastard. He has to or else he would be nicer. Or maybe he really does hate me." I hear Kagome's voice before me. She sits with her back to the window.
'What the fuck? Hate her?' I think to myself totally horrified by the idea. 'I could never hate you!' I want to scream it out, but I should let her finish. I need to know how she feels. 'I need to know before I tell her.'
She starts to cry soon after that, I can smell her tears. I can always smell them.
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'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
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I almost went to her then, but I held back. 'Please don't cry!' I silently willed her. Then she spoke again.
"Probably does. After all, just like he says, I am weak, ugly, worthless, bitch a nuisance to everyone and everything."
'How the hell could I say that to her. I can't believe how many lies I've told her before, how much shit I've said. Now she thinks...' I think but trail off, still listening closely.
"I am someone who deserves to be killed."
'WHAT?!' I scream in my mind. She most definitely doesn't deserve to die. But if I thought that I was shocked before her next words crushed me.
"Maybe that's why Inuyasha keeps Kikyo around, hoping that one day she'll actually kill me, well, that and he loves her. No, never me, he could never lower himself enough to love the loser powerless unattractive wannabe miko wench. Never. Maybe I should die, but then I would still die loving him."
Kagome now starts to cry hard. I have had enough. I won't stand here and let her think those horrible things about herself.
I jump in through he window, unnoticed, and walk up behind her. I then sit down on her bed and wrap my arms around her.
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And I feel you holding me
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She falls back against me and I tell her how I feel.
"I love you."
***End POV***
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Why are we afraid to be in love?
To be loved
I can't explain it
I know it's tough to be loved
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Kagome slowly turned to face Inuyasha, her face tear streaked, eyes puffy.
She wanted to believe him, she really did, but past experiences and let down after let down wouldn't let her see the simple fact that he was telling the truth.
"Liar." She whispered emotionlessly. Then she felt pain, betrayal, and most of all anger. "Let go of me, you fucking liar! Get the hell away!" she screamed at the top of her lungs while struggling.
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And I feel you holding me
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"No, no more lies. I love you and only you, I have for a very long time. I just didn't want to show it. I was a fool, scared of rejection, what might happen if anyone found out. But I don't care anymore; I just want to be with you. You're all that I want." He whispered back quickly, trying to make her see, willing her to listen.
"But you can't love me, when you love HER! You will always go back to HER!"
"NO! I don't want to be with Kikyo! She can't go to hell by herself! I won't and I refuse to go and leave you behind! I want a future with you! NOT with HER! Please, Kagome, you have to believe me! What can I do to make you see?!"
"There's nothing."
"Please!"
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Oh, oh
And when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
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"The only thing that you can do is show me. Make me believe that you live for me, want to be with me, love me! Make me believe it! Make me believe that you love me as much as I love you, that you will make me smile and laugh, make me want to live!" she yelled.
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And I'd rather be in love
Yes, I'd rather be in love
Oh I'd rather be in love with you
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Inuyasha spun her around to look at him.
He kissed her for all he was worth, everything that he felt for her, placed in that one single kiss. The kiss that would show her that he loved her and would forever love her. The kiss that made all doubt vanish in one fluid moment.
"Kagome, I love you, more than anything in the world! I want to be with you, mate with you, have children with you, love you. If you'll let me. I am truly sorry for everything I have ever done or said to hurt you, I would take it all back if I could, but I can't. Please forgive me so that we can start a life together. Please!"
"Yes, Inuyasha, together. I love so much, more that words can ever say. So, yes, I'll be yours, to be with, to mate with, have children with, to love. Just always be by my side and I'll always be by yours."
They stayed holding each other until the sun set. With night the two young lovers fell asleep in each other's grasps, holding tightly. Snuggling up together and disregarding the world for a few hours, just to be together and have their version of a happily ever after.
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And I feel you holding me, oh.
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*A/N~ So, what do you think? Good, bad? I worked kinda hard on this one, cause I love the song so much! Sorry Kagome was kind of OOC with all the cursing, but hell, I think that everyone should get a chance to vent once in a while! And cursing certainly helps me, so why not Kag-chan?!
*A little something extra ~Dialogue~*
Kag: Now that was awesome! I got to curse the world out! *Starts dancing*
Inu: Did you really have to curse that much, Kagome? I mean really, you gave even ME a run for my money!
Kag: *Sticks tongue out* Yes, Inuyasha, I did! And I could SO whoop you in a swearing contest any day after this fic!
Inu: FEH! You wish woman!
Ali: Actually, Inuyasha, when I am writing for her she can say whatever the hell she wants!
Kag: Thank you, Ali-chan!
Inu: SO it's your fault, AGAIN, for messing up a fic?!
Ali: Messing up?! Excuse me, but when have I ever done that?!
Inu: How about every fic where Kagome isn't with me, when Kikyo touches me, when you let Naraku kiss Kagome, when Sesshomaru got a lemon before me, when-
Ali: Okay, okay, I get it! But come on, Inuyasha, I don't make them for you!
Kag: Yeah, and besides the fic ended good for both of us, right?!
Inu: I guess so.
Ali: Well, now that that's settled, I have started construction on part two of this story!
Inu: Will I get sex?!
Kag: You're such a dog!
Inu: *Pout*
Ali: Sorry, Inu-kun, but no lemon on FF.net! If you're extra nice I MIGHT write on for MM.net!
Inu: *Begging and pleading* PLEASE!
Ali: Maybe...
Kag: What is it with men and sex?! I swear if guys didn't have dicks they wouldn't have an occupation!
Ali: *Rolling on ground laughing* Now, now, Kag-chan, that wasn't very nice! My apologies to the male portion of our species!
Kag: *Snort* Please, they are a species of their own!
Ali: *Crying* That's so-
Inu: NOT TRUE! Woman are a bigger pain in the ass then men! I need makeup, I have cramps, I want you to buy me something, and it's always something you people!
Kag: You people?! Idiot! Men are by far the worst! I need food, I have to watch sports, I want to have sex, and all that is a must with YOU PEOPLE!
Ali: Breath, Kagome, breath.
Inu & Kag: *Glaring at each other*
Ali: God, if I would have known that the battle of the sexes was going to happen in this conversation then I would have stood clear! Well, anyway, I had better stop them before World War Three starts! Ja! *Prying Kag-chan and Inu-kun away from each other*
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*Disclaimer #2* I do not own the song "I'd Rather Be In Love" by Michelle Branch or anything that relates to it.
*Summary* Kagome is at home when Inuyasha comes to visit her after a fight. They make up to Michelle Branch's "I'd Rather Be In Love" off of her CD Spirit Room.
*Parings* Kagome/Inuyasha
*A/N~ Rating for language and angst*
I'd Rather Be In Love
By: Ali B.
Part 1: I'd Rather Be In Love
***Kagome's POV***
"I can't believe him! That fucking asshole!" I scream out to the world as I make my way out of the well house.
I stop my rambling for just a minute to check if anyone's home. Nope, great, just fucking great.
"SHIT! Just great! What did I do so wrong?! Why does my life have to be so fucking unfair! What the hell have I done that is so unforgiving?! God damnit!"
As I stomp up to my room and slam my door. I jump on my bed and scream into my pillow with all my might. When I finally catch my barrings I sit up and glare at my window. HIS window. The window that HE always comes threw to drag me back THERE! Back to my hell where THEY are always together. I turn around then, back to the window as it hangs open so innocently. Yeah, innocent, that just fits it, that son-of-a-bitch window!
I start to talk, well, yell aloud again.
"How could Inuyasha say that I was "just a shard detector" when we're supposed to be friends? That stupid ass prick! I help him, give up everything for him, but yet it's not enough! Nothing is ever enough! None of the shit I do is EVER good enough for that damn man! I never want to go back, I never want to hear him again as long as I live! AH!"
I sit there seething for a moment then realize something and start to laugh at myself.
"But then again what the hell am I babbling on about? I love that damn idiot! Gods how I hate him! But I love him too! I hate him for making me love him! This is his entire fault! Idiot, idiot, idiot! Damn you, Inuyasha!"
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I cannot help it
I couldn't stop it if I tried
The same old heartbeat fills the emptiness I have inside
And I've heard that you can't fight love, so I won't complain
'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?
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"Heh. I think that he knows that I can't stay mad at him. The fucking bastard. He has to or else he would be nicer. Or maybe he really does hate me."
At this point I start to tear up.
"Probably does. After all, just like he says, I am weak, ugly, worthless, bitch, a nuisance to everyone and everything. I am someone who deserves to be killed. Maybe that's why Inuyasha keeps Kikyo around, hoping that one day she'll actually kill me, well, that and he loves her. No, never me, he could never lower himself enough to love the loser, powerless, unattractive, wannabe, miko, wench. Never. Maybe I should die, but then I would still die loving him."
Now I am full on sobbing and crying, no longer able to speak. I am crying so loud that I don't even notice the strong pair of arms that wrap around me and pull me close. The owner whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Until I heard him say, "I love you." Then I freeze.
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'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
------------------------------
***End POV***
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Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do
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***Inuyasha's POV***
'Shit I mad her mad again. This time I really fucked up. How the hell could I call her "just a shard detector" like that? That is NOT what she is to me. She is my life, the air I breath, the force that keeps my from floating away. My one and only.' I think to myself and I make my way to the well.
"This is what brought her to me." I say absently.
I climb out of the well and find that Kagome is home alone in her bedroom. Good. That will make apologizing a lot easier. I hope.
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'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
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As I make my way to my window I hear screaming. At first I was going to rush up, but then I caught what was actually being said.
"Heh. I think that he knows that I can't stay mad at him. The fucking bastard. He has to or else he would be nicer. Or maybe he really does hate me." I hear Kagome's voice before me. She sits with her back to the window.
'What the fuck? Hate her?' I think to myself totally horrified by the idea. 'I could never hate you!' I want to scream it out, but I should let her finish. I need to know how she feels. 'I need to know before I tell her.'
She starts to cry soon after that, I can smell her tears. I can always smell them.
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'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you
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I almost went to her then, but I held back. 'Please don't cry!' I silently willed her. Then she spoke again.
"Probably does. After all, just like he says, I am weak, ugly, worthless, bitch a nuisance to everyone and everything."
'How the hell could I say that to her. I can't believe how many lies I've told her before, how much shit I've said. Now she thinks...' I think but trail off, still listening closely.
"I am someone who deserves to be killed."
'WHAT?!' I scream in my mind. She most definitely doesn't deserve to die. But if I thought that I was shocked before her next words crushed me.
"Maybe that's why Inuyasha keeps Kikyo around, hoping that one day she'll actually kill me, well, that and he loves her. No, never me, he could never lower himself enough to love the loser powerless unattractive wannabe miko wench. Never. Maybe I should die, but then I would still die loving him."
Kagome now starts to cry hard. I have had enough. I won't stand here and let her think those horrible things about herself.
I jump in through he window, unnoticed, and walk up behind her. I then sit down on her bed and wrap my arms around her.
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And I feel you holding me
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She falls back against me and I tell her how I feel.
"I love you."
***End POV***
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Why are we afraid to be in love?
To be loved
I can't explain it
I know it's tough to be loved
------------------------------
Kagome slowly turned to face Inuyasha, her face tear streaked, eyes puffy.
She wanted to believe him, she really did, but past experiences and let down after let down wouldn't let her see the simple fact that he was telling the truth.
"Liar." She whispered emotionlessly. Then she felt pain, betrayal, and most of all anger. "Let go of me, you fucking liar! Get the hell away!" she screamed at the top of her lungs while struggling.
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And I feel you holding me
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"No, no more lies. I love you and only you, I have for a very long time. I just didn't want to show it. I was a fool, scared of rejection, what might happen if anyone found out. But I don't care anymore; I just want to be with you. You're all that I want." He whispered back quickly, trying to make her see, willing her to listen.
"But you can't love me, when you love HER! You will always go back to HER!"
"NO! I don't want to be with Kikyo! She can't go to hell by herself! I won't and I refuse to go and leave you behind! I want a future with you! NOT with HER! Please, Kagome, you have to believe me! What can I do to make you see?!"
"There's nothing."
"Please!"
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Oh, oh
And when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
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"The only thing that you can do is show me. Make me believe that you live for me, want to be with me, love me! Make me believe it! Make me believe that you love me as much as I love you, that you will make me smile and laugh, make me want to live!" she yelled.
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And I'd rather be in love
Yes, I'd rather be in love
Oh I'd rather be in love with you
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Inuyasha spun her around to look at him.
He kissed her for all he was worth, everything that he felt for her, placed in that one single kiss. The kiss that would show her that he loved her and would forever love her. The kiss that made all doubt vanish in one fluid moment.
"Kagome, I love you, more than anything in the world! I want to be with you, mate with you, have children with you, love you. If you'll let me. I am truly sorry for everything I have ever done or said to hurt you, I would take it all back if I could, but I can't. Please forgive me so that we can start a life together. Please!"
"Yes, Inuyasha, together. I love so much, more that words can ever say. So, yes, I'll be yours, to be with, to mate with, have children with, to love. Just always be by my side and I'll always be by yours."
They stayed holding each other until the sun set. With night the two young lovers fell asleep in each other's grasps, holding tightly. Snuggling up together and disregarding the world for a few hours, just to be together and have their version of a happily ever after.
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And I feel you holding me, oh.
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*A/N~ So, what do you think? Good, bad? I worked kinda hard on this one, cause I love the song so much! Sorry Kagome was kind of OOC with all the cursing, but hell, I think that everyone should get a chance to vent once in a while! And cursing certainly helps me, so why not Kag-chan?!
*A little something extra ~Dialogue~*
Kag: Now that was awesome! I got to curse the world out! *Starts dancing*
Inu: Did you really have to curse that much, Kagome? I mean really, you gave even ME a run for my money!
Kag: *Sticks tongue out* Yes, Inuyasha, I did! And I could SO whoop you in a swearing contest any day after this fic!
Inu: FEH! You wish woman!
Ali: Actually, Inuyasha, when I am writing for her she can say whatever the hell she wants!
Kag: Thank you, Ali-chan!
Inu: SO it's your fault, AGAIN, for messing up a fic?!
Ali: Messing up?! Excuse me, but when have I ever done that?!
Inu: How about every fic where Kagome isn't with me, when Kikyo touches me, when you let Naraku kiss Kagome, when Sesshomaru got a lemon before me, when-
Ali: Okay, okay, I get it! But come on, Inuyasha, I don't make them for you!
Kag: Yeah, and besides the fic ended good for both of us, right?!
Inu: I guess so.
Ali: Well, now that that's settled, I have started construction on part two of this story!
Inu: Will I get sex?!
Kag: You're such a dog!
Inu: *Pout*
Ali: Sorry, Inu-kun, but no lemon on FF.net! If you're extra nice I MIGHT write on for MM.net!
Inu: *Begging and pleading* PLEASE!
Ali: Maybe...
Kag: What is it with men and sex?! I swear if guys didn't have dicks they wouldn't have an occupation!
Ali: *Rolling on ground laughing* Now, now, Kag-chan, that wasn't very nice! My apologies to the male portion of our species!
Kag: *Snort* Please, they are a species of their own!
Ali: *Crying* That's so-
Inu: NOT TRUE! Woman are a bigger pain in the ass then men! I need makeup, I have cramps, I want you to buy me something, and it's always something you people!
Kag: You people?! Idiot! Men are by far the worst! I need food, I have to watch sports, I want to have sex, and all that is a must with YOU PEOPLE!
Ali: Breath, Kagome, breath.
Inu & Kag: *Glaring at each other*
Ali: God, if I would have known that the battle of the sexes was going to happen in this conversation then I would have stood clear! Well, anyway, I had better stop them before World War Three starts! Ja! *Prying Kag-chan and Inu-kun away from each other*
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