Why is there a strawberry crying under the rain? - Reflexions on Ichigo in times of sadness
Wordless fruit
There's something of sadness in Ichigo.
Those brown eyes, they contain flames.
They contain cold and loneliness. Sometimes, after a battle, it's like being in the extreme intimacy of a requiem ceremony, a requiem for the precious ones who are not here anymore; a requiem for the deaths which once again, where barely avoided. Because Ichigo won't even let himself rest on the fact that what is avoided, even barely, didn't happen. Luck is part of life too.
Ichigo's brown orbs at times, are just like a sanctuary. They contain, more than love and friendship, devotion and a voiceless passion. Not like those lovers who act like they were in the heart of the biggest drama under the skies, no. Ichigo's pain is deep, quiet like the raging fire under hundreds of meters of water, deep in the sea, shouting its frustrations where only the aphonous fish can hear it. At times like this, Ichigo's eyes, in their discrete warm mantle, talk. To the sky, but in a whisper, like they're ashamed of just being there, when the ones left behind are not. For his failures, like he knows words can't fix anything anyway.
Ichigo's beautiful, let's say, especially in times of sorrow. He'd say, « even in his sadness », despite the fact that he's the biggest looser, who already lost his most precious mother, and still, trying to save the others around him, maybe to forget the pain, maybe in an attempt to erase it, or maybe everything at the same time. If he can become a tool to protect other people, if only he could become a tool, objects don't feel, right ? So the pain would eventually go. And tools generally do what they're made for. They're useful (not like him most of the time, he'd say). They can't fail, because they're especially designed for the job.
And he'd become like the lost one, a souvenir, eventually. A pleasant one, he'd hope. If he dared.
Ichigo's stupid. But still, they like him somehow. So do we, right?
Sometimes I'd just want to hug him and kiss him (on the cheek XD) and cheer him up.