Dear Kurosaki-Kun
I have absolutely no idea how to start this letter. Even though I know that it will never be sent. So this is more of a letter to myself, a letter to my conscience. Maybe I'll even learn a thing or two about myself. Anyway, here I go.
All I ever wanted was you. From the very first time I saw your face, that's all I wanted. Sometimes it hurts to look back to the past because I know that you hadn't even noticed me. Back when I lost my brother, I thought that I was alone. I feel ashamed of myself now for thinking this, but I thought "why did everyone else get to live but my brother?" At the time, it was an impossible question to answer. Plus, the guilt of him leaving this world with my hatred had quite a big effect on me. I told him that I thought the clips he had bought me were to childish. Those clips are now the ones that I wear every day.
After my brother's death, I met Tatsuki. I thought she was a little rough at first, but then I got to know her. She was my best friend, and she still is to this day. There is another reason as to why she still is. You see, she was the one that brought you into my life. I never really spoke to you when she introduced us. The truth is, I was so shocked that I was facing a person like you. I knew right from that moment that you would do anything for the people you love and care about. You were always a protector, and sometimes, that's all you think about.
When Rukia came to town, I was very jealous that you were spending so much time with her. Why didn't you spend time with me? I knew you longer, we barely talked but we did say hi to each other once in a while. Didn't that count for something? Why was this girl suddenly the center of attention? To be more specific, your attention. I saw the way you looked at her. Your eyes were filled with amazement and wonder. Why couldn't you look at me like that? Here I am, alone and practically begging for your attention. This person is taking my rightful attention away from me. Even though I never had it in the first place, I always thought that maybe, just maybe, I would cross your mind.
If Rukia saw me now, she would tell me just look at yourself Orihime, you're a mess. Here I am, smudging this letter with my tears.
You have no idea how happy I was when I realized that I had a power. This power was brought out of me by you. Without you, I never would have met such wonderful people. I'm so grateful for everything. I finally have a family that I love very much. Even though I know that I'm a huge burden to everyone. It's my fault that you're all getting hurt from the Arrancars and Espadas. I thought that I was saving everyone by going with Ulquiorra. Instead, I just put everyone into more danger. I thought that I could destroy Aizen's plans. Now, it's a stupid idea, made up by a stupid girl. That girls name is Orihime Inoue. What's wrong with me? Why am I so stupid and weak? Why was I even put into this world? Such a worthless being doesn't deserve to live. Not if she's going to put everyone around her in danger.
Please Ichigo, be safe! Don't die because of me. I worry about you so much! All I ever think about is you! I love you Ichigo! I love you so much! I just wish that I wasn't so weak so I could tell you these words. These words that have crossed my mind so much that I can't even estimate how many times they have.
Just don't die Ichigo! Don't die because of me! Just please, not because of me. Not because of me. Right now, I feel so selfish because I'm thinking that one good thing came out of all of this chaos.
I'm happy that you thought of me, because I know that for an instant I have crossed your mind.
Always & forever yours,
Orihime