A/N: eh not much to say here. I don't own hetalia hence FANfiction.

Warnings: mentions of slight yaoi. Boy x boy… non explicit and stuff.

Once we fought together, helped each other and grew together. We were always there next to each other. Fighting and then healing. Knocking each other down just to build each other up… then do it all again. We were best friends for hundreds of years. I'm not sure when exactly but I guess at some point my feelings changed from one of friendship to so much more… That doesn't matter anymore though…

Maybe things would have been different if I'd said something, If I hadn't left to be with him. I'm still not sure why I did… he's nothing like me, a polar opposite. He's so Refined and proper. So much unlike what I was… What I still am at heart. Maybe I did it to make him jealous… or maybe I was just tired of waiting. Of watching him flirt with everyone… everyone but me of course. No point wondering anymore though. He's happy now. And he deserves it more than anyone else. Oh so much more. After everything he went through to protect everyone. He took the blame wrongly and paid for it in blood and pain. I watched him breaking and hiding it. He didn't hide it well enough for me not to notice though. He might have fooled everyone else but not me, never me.

Hundreds of years of loving someone means you notice everything about them. Like the insecurities hidden behind the obnoxious grin and narcissistic claims of awesomeness. Once I had been the one he confided in. The one who held him as the walls around his pain broke and thousands of years of pain spilled out… But not anymore. It doesn't matter though, As long as he's happy. He was at the last world meeting to help his brother… or well antagonise his brother and his "birdie". He came over and spoke to me at the last world meeting. It had been far too long since we'd spoken, "Liz? Are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine Gil… Prussia". He nodded and walked away. But I could see the concern flash through his eyes. Hundreds of years and I hadn't called him that... ever. We were more than countries to each other. It must cause him pain to be called that now. Everything he worked so hard for just gone….Hundreds or years of friendship means he knows so much as well. Maybe he knew all along and just chose to ignore it. Whether he did or not or his reasons behind it doesn't matter. It's too late now. I wish them well. They work together so well. Balancing each other out, healing each other's pain. Something they both have plenty of.

"Oi Liz! Come on! We'll be late if you don't hurry up!"

"Calm down Gil!"

"BUT LIZ. HE'LL GET HIS HOCKEY STICK OUT! HE'S ALREADY MAD ABOUT THE DRESS!"

"Just calm down! It'll be fine! I just need to fix my hair up"

He'd pouted here and started pacing a bit again. Then he asked, completely serious for once in his life "hey Liz? Are you really ok? You called me Prussia the other day. And you haven't even begged for pictures of me and birdie!"

Seeing the flash of pain at the mention of the dissolved country, of his dissolved country, I felt so bad about calling him that. Ignoring his question I said something like "maybe I just don't want to see my best friend like that!"

He could see through my lie. All I could do was hope he didn't pursue it.

"Liz… I know you… that never stopped you before!"

"Just… don't worry Gil. I'm happy for you…Really. Just going to miss my best friend is all"

"Aw! Lizzy! Who knew you could be nice! Don't worry. My awesome will still be here for you to beat up!"

Oh if only he knew… as he hugged me I held on tightly. If only he knew… "Oh come on you narcissistic ass. If we don't hurry up we will be late! And from your reaction earlier I get the feeling we don't want to get Mathew cranky!" seeing him shudder at the thought made me laugh. "Guess you don't need me to keep you in line anymore hey Gil?" As I led him towards the dais to wait for Mathew to arrive I kept up a smile. I watched them promise each other forever, Watched as a piece of my heart got torn away. And still I smiled. It's ok. He's nothing but a past regret now. One that might fade if we live to see another thousand years, Or maybe not… We'll see when the time comes.

A/N: so… this is the product of a science lesson.I like the whole first person~ it's amazing!.ALL THE ANGST! I hope the ending wasn't TO light and happy and stuff :/ SHORTNESS IS SHORT ahem. Im going through a lot of effort to get this online so appreciate it bro's! jks jks. It's not that hard could be a few weeks more before it's updated. Sorry guys :/. Anyway hope you enjoyed! I have rabid plot bunnies everywhere so expect a few more. Maybe. Cos you know my laptop with word is currently blocking me from so im emailing it to myself and then getting it off my other computer and yeh…