I've got a new fic whoohoo! You know me with another J/C…hey that rhymed! Yay! Well, all the chapters will have a song to go along with it so I hope ya like! Please R+R!
~*I Must Not Chase the Boys*~
The kids were all 18, and it was close to the end of the year and Jimmy and Cindy still hadn't unfolded their secrets yet. Fortunately, for Sheen and Libby, they were together once and for all. They were even going to the same college, that is, if Sheen passes the SATs. Carl even had some luck with girls, but he didn't have a permanent girlfriend as of yet. Jimmy didn't even have any luck. Jimmy and Cindy have made a truce over the years to lighten up, but they still bicker. So, its their last class of the day and the teacher was rambling on with her boring lecture about nature and its affects on peoples allergies. Right…
"So, as you see, the effects of the oak leaves…" the teacher started.
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The bell rang and all the kids gathered their books. Jimmy gathered his things and got up and started walking out, only to be tripped. You see, Cindy sat in front of him, so, you know what happened.
"Whoops…" Cindy said sarcastically and started laughing.
"Cindy, you're such a…" Jimmy started.
"HEY JIMMY! LET'S GO TO THE CANDY BAR!" Sheen yelled in the door.
"Just forget it…" He said to Cindy and got up and walked away. Cindy just watched him walk away and had a sad feeling inside.
..::Won't someone tell me what is happenin' to me?
Why am I so misunderstood?
Why can't they see?
Now I'm caught between the devil and the angel that I used to be::..
"What's wrong, Cindy? You look bad…" Libby said and followed Cindy's gaze to Jimmy walking out the door.
Libby sighed and replied to her sad daze, "You gotta get rid of that crush you got on him. As far as I see it, you waited too many years to keep this under wraps. Its too late.You'll fine someone one day."
..::They say I'll understand it all in good time,
But age ain't nothin' but a number in my mind.
I'm going crazy with this push me pull me,
Caught between wrong and right::..
"I don't know, Libby. I just can't tell yet if it is over. Something still tells me that I can still tell him and its like an aching need that I can't get off my shoulders. But then again, maybe you ARE right." Cindy said sadly yet hopefully.
..::I wanna give in to the woman in me.
I wanna be someone they don't want me to be.
The moral of the story is I got no choice,
I must not chase the boys::..
"Whatever, girl. Let's go before Mrs. Wilker kills us for staying after too long."
"Ok, lets go." Cindy sulked and got up.
Cindy and Libby walked over to Libby's house and went up into her room. Libby turned up a CD on her CD player and started painting her nails. Cindy opened up her back pack and started writing in her journal. She looked at where she was going to start her entry, and noticed that she had written every day this week, and she usually only writes once or twice in it a week. Then again, it was coming more towards the end of the year and she had more on her mind.
..::I started writing down my deepest secrets.
Seven days a week of truth and fantasy.
Got the feeling that the way my life is
Got to be prepared for changes::..
"What are you writing down, Cindy?" Libby asked curiously.
"O-oh!" Cindy jumped surprised. "Nothing important. I'm going to use the bathroom." She placed the book back in her back pack and left the room to go to the bathroom. Libby tried to ignore the growing sensation to look in the book, but it was just getting to overwhelming.
"Just a peek…" Libby said to herself and pulled out the book. She opened to a page from two days before this day and started reading quietly.
"May 28th. Dear Journal or whatever, I can't help thinking that I should tell Jimmy that I like him. Libby doubts that it'll ever happen, but I'm going to do it before we leave off for college." Libby shook her head and looked over to the next page and started reading.
"May 29th. My obsession and wanting is getting worse and worse everyday. I keep on getting more nervous about telling him. It just seems doubtful now, but I will try more and more, none the less." She read and turned the page and read on. "I'm counting down to the days. I just keep getting meaner and meaner though. It seems harder everyday. If I could get just one minute alone with him to tell him what I think, I would feel a whole lot better. I would die to be in a room with him alone, because then maybe if he feels the same way, we could…" Libby read on until Cindy came back in the room and she quickly shut the book tight closed.
"Ok, Libby, I'm ba…What's that?" Cindy asked taking the book from Libby.
"Nothing!" Libby said trying to take the book back, but it was too late.
Cindy looked at the book and her eyes got wide. Then she looked at Libby with an unbelieving face.
"Th…this is my journal. You read it?!" Cindy yelled.
"I'm so sorry, Cindy! It was just sitting there staring at me and…OH I'M SO SORRY!" Libby pleaded.
"Its ok, Libby. I would feel the same way, too about anybody's diary if it was just, ya know, there." Cindy said, and after a few moments pause, she started again, "Like, what did you read?"
"I read until today, well, I didn't read all of today. I got as far as where you were talking about being in a room…alone…with him…" Libby said quietly as if the whole world was listening in.
"Oh, yea, that part." Cindy said and blushed.
"Cindy, I just don't get it? If you're so concerned about it, go and tell him."
"I know I should but, its just so hard! I…just don't know…" Cindy doubted.
..::Won't someone tell me what is happenin' to me?
Why am I so misunderstood?
Why can't they see?
Now I'm caught between the devil and the angel
That I used to be::..
"Cindy, if you really think its right, go tell him, and don't be afraid. As long as I've known you, you've wanted this the most!...well…except the pony you wanted in first grade but that's besides the point! If you want this, go for it. And if you can be in that room, be in that room." Libby said and smiled.
..::I wanna give in to the woman in me.
I wanna be someone they don't want me to be.
The moral of this story is I got no choice.
I must not chase…
I wanna go left but they tell me go right,
Don't wanna be the little girl they're kissin' good night
The moral of this story is I got no choice.
I must not chase the boys::..
"You're right, Libby. I'm going to do this as soon as I can. I'll do my best to tell him, and be happy with it." Cindy said proudly.
"You go girl!" Libby shouted.
"Now all I need is courage…" Cindy said and they both sighed.
After a while, Cindy went home and though out what she was going to do. Libby gave Cindy some tips about how she explains things to Sheen before Cindy left in an attempt to help her. Cindy tried everything to build up her courage, such as planning what she was going to say ahead of time. After a while she thought it hopeless, and she wrote things on paper to try to get rid of her tension. She kept on writing down, 'I don't like Jimmy Neutron.'
She then sighed and said, "I have to do it." And she threw away the paper.
..::They can try to make me write a thousand lies,
but that won't ever change the way I feel inside.
They've got their opinions and I just don't care,
'cause that's not what I wanna hear.
I, I must, I must not chase the boys.
I, I must, I must not chase the boys.
I must, I must, I must not…chase..the boys::..
"I don't need a speech made up for this. I've though about this as long as I can remember. I'll just have to speak from my heart, from where it counts." Cindy said determined.
..::I wanna give in to the woman in me
I wanna be someone they don't want me to be.
The moral of this story is I got no choice.
I must not chase…
They tell me go left but I wanna go right.
Don't wanna be the little girl they're kissin' good night.
The moral of this story is I got no choice.
I must not chase…::..
"I'm ready…" she said.
..::…the boys::..
So, didja like the first chapter? Didja, didja? Sry it wasn't that long but I had to make it suspenseful! I know how the song said, 'I must not chase the boys,' didn't make any sense with the story cause she WANTS Jimmy, but it fit in at other places so I used it! YAY! Well, if you want more please R+R lotz! Plz go to my Jimmy Neutron website on my profile! Thnks a bunch, LyaL! ~NeutronGrl15