Once I thought I loved Cho Chang.

I wanted her to come with me to the Yule Ball and was angry – so angry – that she picked someone else insted. Yeah, I hated Cedric Diggory so much for asking her first. And I hated myself, as well, for missing up a great opportunity. How could I let that happen?!

A year later, I tried once again. This time, I wasn't going to miss my shot! Well, mostly because there was no one to compete against anymore... but let's leave that part out for now (#RememberCedricDigorry and all)

Our time together was short. It included a few kisses – not even good ones – and one terrible date. Not anything significant.

Today, I know that it wasn't true love.

Once, I was sure that my second half is Ginny Weasley.

I envied all of those boys, who were lucky enough to date her… I wanted to be one of them!

I hated the fact that I hadn't done anything about it, back in the second year, when she had had a huge crush on me. So many times I was wondering 'what happened, to that shy, quiet, childish girl, who used to blush each time she saw me, that made her so popular around boys?!'

I promised myself, that if destiny gives me another chance with her – I won't miss it!

And so I did.

With Ginny it was a bit different than with Cho – with her we were in an on-and-off relationship for few years. More precisely, it was a 'me breaking up with her - she begging me to come back with her' relationship. I used to claim that it is too dangerous to be around me, or some other stupid excuse, each time I got tired of her, but then, after noticing how miserable she is, coming back with her, and then all over again.

It was kind of nice. Tiring, but nice. It made me busy. I preferred to be concentrated on something so silly, rather than other stuff that I didn't want to deal with.

Today, I can see clearly that it wasn't true love.

Once, I was terrified because of the possibility that I might be in love with Hermione Granger.

I was so afraid of that. I knew how much Ron loved her and suspected that she felt the same way for him. But, for some reason, that weird thought about her just didn't want to leave my mind. Of course, it wasn't more than a thought. There was no way I was going to let anything ruin my friendship with them!

Today, I realize that the cause for this troubling thought was nothing more than my fear. The fear of being left alone, the fear of the possibility that I would become the third – unwanted – wheel.

But it definitely wasn't true love.

Once I used to make all kind of stories about me finding my true love and to hold on to them, only because I was so afraid of my real feelings…

Today, I will finally tell Draco Malfoy that he is, and always was, my only true love!

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